Put your feet on the right path, and you may get help from the divine. To get really really good help you need to be the type of person an Angel would fall for. The help you get will be what you need, not what you want. The path is one of wisdom, it involves knowing when to kneel, it’s an immersive study, and it involves swords and knots and cool things that isn't every bodies cup of tea. You have to be prepared to give up everything, everyone. Granted not everyone will be top tier, but at the very least you’ll want to get clean.

There is this whiney expectation that you’re the customer and you would be doing heaven a favour by gracing it with your favour. It’s not the way it works. to be honest, the problems you have in life are likely due to toxic people in your circle of influence, or you yourself being the toxic one. be prepare for a loved one to not love you as you imagine. Getting clean hurts, and it’s this type of pain. The man you lean on could very well be the man who hates you most. Are you prepared for the heartbreak that brings? Children, parents, siblings, best friends who aren’t as clean as you’d imagined and who are seething inside? Who are actively planning to bring you undone? This sort of hurt is your house being demolished. It hurts.