I have no idea. Whatever I was then was nothing. My body eventually took over and my soul or whatever we call us, came back to it. Very slowly and with very severe after effects.

I didn't learn calculus and I couldn't play piano after but this many years later I am somewhat at peace with what is coming, at least for me.

It seems like it might be the Universe's ultimate solitary confinement. You keep your thoughts but you are less than an atom to express them.