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Just curious for those out there that are angry with what is happening to the world. How do you calm your mind so you don't stress out over the emotion?.....I'm not referring to fear, for some reason I'm not afraid just angry.
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Yep...and walk..avoid idiots.
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Oddly, I sense both wisdom and knowledge in what mouse alludes. Would like EL5 version. Post more.
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Righteous Rage - at whichever time - it's organic, at least with me

Intention - Ruthless Unbending Intention

Decades ago I was catapulted into the unknown. In the unknown I was fully aware WHILE being like a leaf in a storm in the known (daily life) - this for the duration of about 3 years. It was that extreme that I literally had to take one step after the other, second by second, sometimes millisecond by millisecond, again, for about 3 years. Being in the unknown and the known simultaneously I became aware of THEM and have seen and experienced how THEY'VE MANAGED TO PUT PEOPLE INTO A TRANCE, WORLDWIDE - FOR AGES. At first I've considered suicide, but knew relatively fast how ridiculous that consideration was in view of the immensity I've found myself in.

I can't say exactly why I tell you this, but one thing seems to be important at this point in time. THEY MANAGED TO GIVE YOU (to almost all of Humanity) THEIR PERCEPTION AND THEIR PERCEPTION IS ALL MOST OF HUMANITY KNOWS. No drugs or pills - neither natural nor artificial - neither psychoactive or not - can change THAT PERCEPTION. Again, I don't know exactly why I tell you this, possibly because knowing that CAN help in some way - and then - because I read your posts since decades and to me you seem to be honorable replying in this way. I can't remember exactly how many times I wrote a reply to you, but it was - with high certainty - not more than 3 or 4 times.
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I'm not sure why your reply didn't register in my mind, normally I would reply if I was still paying attention. Honestly I am a bit plagued with ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). My mind is constantly wandering unless something generates an excitement or adrenaline rush.

I am uncertain of the thought you are trying to express to me. Strange things in this life that is for sure, It seems everyday I find myself curious about too many things to keep track of.

I suppose the first clarification might be, who is THEY? Spiritual presence(Good or Evil), Alien, The Old Ones? Could it also be the composite of human consciousness? What is your perception?

And concerning your UNKNOWN.... Dream like? Confusion?

I have in the past followed the cues in conversations that led to a ruse.... which I don't really mind if that is the case, but I really don't need any help in not making efficient use of my time.

I apologize for not responding in order.
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That's funny -- married 28 years here and we've had our Grey for 22 years... We first saw her at the pet store as a tiny, fluffy thing in a little plastic container.  At first I thought she was a baby ferret.  We visited her every week and took her home once she was weaned, but she really wasn't eating that well so I continued to spoon feed her for a month or two.  We used to take her on trips and she seemed to like to travel.  Now, we have kids and there isn't room in the car for her cage, but we don't travel often and are never gone long...

Also, I spent some growing up years in Sarasota and still have family in Florida...

I totally got that regarding "Losing It"... when this whole covid thing broke out I went nuts with the insanity of it.... I could see from the beginning that something was totally wrong with the story we were being told and could hardly believe most everyone's seeming acceptance of it.... it's astonishing they keep getting away with it....
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Wow! .... That is some parallel. When my wife brought Felicia home she was not completely feathered, I hand fed her 3 times a day for over 2 months, fortunately at the time I was not working too far away so I could come home at lunch.

The whole story is long and much more complicated, but if you are curious I would take the time to explain. We also had a Jenday Conure.

I really must try to attempt the breathing exercise on a regular basis. Unfortunately I have a difficult time developing beneficial habits.
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So your gonna do a sweat lodge..

Take Karatee..

Learn surgery..

Paint..

Play guitar?..

Beat bongo drums and build Tehutiuacan in masks?..
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Honestly, 6 X No.
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So riot with pepper spray medics and shoot echother..

Get Vaxed and build Tehutiuacan?..
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Some times I find people here that obsess over laconic prosaic methods of communicating. For normal conversation I am anything, but that. Unfortunately it is difficult for me to relate in sensible terms. Honestly, I find your intent cryptic. Help me out here, can you modify your methodology for communicating?
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Oddly, I sense both wisdom and knowledge in what mouse alludes. Would like EL5 version. Post more.
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I would say that you may sense it, but you may not know it. I suppose you went over my head with EL5 version.
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The Rising Sun..... Yes! ATM though it seems to be setting.
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For my replies.
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That's funny -- married 28 years here and we've had our Grey for 22 years... We first saw her at the pet store as a tiny, fluffy thing in a little plastic container.  At first I thought she was a baby ferret.  We visited her every week and took her home once she was weaned, but she really wasn't eating that well so I continued to spoon feed her for a month or two.  We used to take her on trips and she seemed to like to travel.  Now, we have kids and there isn't room in the car for her cage, but we don't travel often and are never gone long...

Also, I spent some growing up years in Sarasota and still have family in Florida...

I totally got that regarding "Losing It"... when this whole covid thing broke out I went nuts with the insanity of it.... I could see from the beginning that something was totally wrong with the story we were being told and could hardly believe most everyone's seeming acceptance of it.... it's astonishing they keep getting away with it....
 Quoting: Earth Crawler


Wow! .... That is some parallel. When my wife brought Felicia home she was not completely feathered, I hand fed her 3 times a day for over 2 months, fortunately at the time I was not working too far away so I could come home at lunch.

The whole story is long and much more complicated, but if you are curious I would take the time to explain. We also had a Jenday Conure.

I really must try to attempt the breathing exercise on a regular basis. Unfortunately I have a difficult time developing beneficial habits.
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Ha! we have a Green-Cheeked Conure.
Yeah, sure, if you feel like sharing I'm interested...
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I really must try to attempt the breathing exercise on a regular basis. Unfortunately I have a difficult time developing beneficial habits.
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I usually do it early in the day, before eating (though sometimes after, depending on how the day develops)... and sometime in the evening if I'm feeling a lot of anxiety or stuck in a cruddy feeling.

Once I even pulled up the video on my phone during my daughter's soccer game and breathed along, listening with earbuds. I've also done it without the video, but find listening to his voice supportive and soothing... seems easier somehow.

There's also a slower video if the pace of breathing seems difficult.

I've stayed with it a couple months now. I started out with committing to doing it for a week, then a month... at each point evaluating whether I want to continue...

It's a fairly small commitment - only 11 minutes a day - that seems to genuinely help my emotional and mental well being. Maybe it's my imagination, but for whatever reason I feel compelled to continue with it...

I would encourage you to try it for a week and see how you feel at the end... if it isn't for you, no big deal - just 77 minutes of your life lost hf
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Slower version.

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I really must try to attempt the breathing exercise on a regular basis. Unfortunately I have a difficult time developing beneficial habits.
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I usually do it early in the day, before eating (though sometimes after, depending on how the day develops)... and sometime in the evening if I'm feeling a lot of anxiety or stuck in a cruddy feeling.

Once I even pulled up the video on my phone during my daughter's soccer game and breathed along, listening with earbuds. I've also done it without the video, but find listening to his voice supportive and soothing... seems easier somehow.

There's also a slower video if the pace of breathing seems difficult.

I've stayed with it a couple months now. I started out with committing to doing it for a week, then a month... at each point evaluating whether I want to continue...

It's a fairly small commitment - only 11 minutes a day - that seems to genuinely help my emotional and mental well being. Maybe it's my imagination, but for whatever reason I feel compelled to continue with it...

I would encourage you to try it for a week and see how you feel at the end... if it isn't for you, no big deal - just 77 minutes of your life lost hf
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I will do my best. It's a bit funny, but in the morning is always a good point to begin new things. Let's see how I do. I will attempt a start in the morning.

For the Parrot story I will start that dissertation later this evening. I must go finish refurbishing the garden for planting then eat dinner.

Hope you have a good evening.

Thanks for the reply.

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That's funny -- married 28 years here and we've had our Grey for 22 years... We first saw her at the pet store as a tiny, fluffy thing in a little plastic container.  At first I thought she was a baby ferret.  We visited her every week and took her home once she was weaned, but she really wasn't eating that well so I continued to spoon feed her for a month or two.  We used to take her on trips and she seemed to like to travel.  Now, we have kids and there isn't room in the car for her cage, but we don't travel often and are never gone long...

Also, I spent some growing up years in Sarasota and still have family in Florida...

I totally got that regarding "Losing It"... when this whole covid thing broke out I went nuts with the insanity of it.... I could see from the beginning that something was totally wrong with the story we were being told and could hardly believe most everyone's seeming acceptance of it.... it's astonishing they keep getting away with it....
 Quoting: Earth Crawler


Wow! .... That is some parallel. When my wife brought Felicia home she was not completely feathered, I hand fed her 3 times a day for over 2 months, fortunately at the time I was not working too far away so I could come home at lunch.

The whole story is long and much more complicated, but if you are curious I would take the time to explain. We also had a Jenday Conure.

I really must try to attempt the breathing exercise on a regular basis. Unfortunately I have a difficult time developing beneficial habits.
 Quoting: scimitar


Ha! we have a Green-Cheeked Conure.
Yeah, sure, if you feel like sharing I'm interested...
 Quoting: Earth Crawler



Back in early 90's I had mentioned several times to my wife that I really loved birds and preferred that over a dog or cat. Before we could go look she comes home one day with a Jenday Conure in early 94, I believe, from a person where she worked. It was an adorable creature, already almost a year old. We named what we thought was a male....Frenchy.

Frenchy though definitely bonded to my wife, leaving me a bit disappointed over time. Then, as a surprise, one day my wife comes home with an African Grey, also from a person where she worked. This time what we thought was a female we named Elise. I had my suspicions that she was a he because of the vocalizations.....I could whistle a tune daily for a week and Elise could repeat it.

I apologize, but I must go to bed, I am quite sleepy..... working out in the heat today and not sleeping well last night. I will continue in the morning
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Solid wordcraft OP.

Well done & true.
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Truly moving poem, thanks for sharing
"It's whatever you want it to be, I don't care"
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That's funny -- married 28 years here and we've had our Grey for 22 years... We first saw her at the pet store as a tiny, fluffy thing in a little plastic container.  At first I thought she was a baby ferret.  We visited her every week and took her home once she was weaned, but she really wasn't eating that well so I continued to spoon feed her for a month or two.  We used to take her on trips and she seemed to like to travel.  Now, we have kids and there isn't room in the car for her cage, but we don't travel often and are never gone long...

Also, I spent some growing up years in Sarasota and still have family in Florida...

I totally got that regarding "Losing It"... when this whole covid thing broke out I went nuts with the insanity of it.... I could see from the beginning that something was totally wrong with the story we were being told and could hardly believe most everyone's seeming acceptance of it.... it's astonishing they keep getting away with it....
 Quoting: Earth Crawler


Wow! .... That is some parallel. When my wife brought Felicia home she was not completely feathered, I hand fed her 3 times a day for over 2 months, fortunately at the time I was not working too far away so I could come home at lunch.

The whole story is long and much more complicated, but if you are curious I would take the time to explain. We also had a Jenday Conure.

I really must try to attempt the breathing exercise on a regular basis. Unfortunately I have a difficult time developing beneficial habits.
 Quoting: scimitar


Ha! we have a Green-Cheeked Conure.
Yeah, sure, if you feel like sharing I'm interested...
 Quoting: Earth Crawler



Back in early 90's I had mentioned several times to my wife that I really loved birds and preferred that over a dog or cat. Before we could go look she comes home one day with a Jenday Conure in early 94, I believe, from a person where she worked. It was an adorable creature, already almost a year old. We named what we thought was a male....Frenchy.

Frenchy though definitely bonded to my wife, leaving me a bit disappointed over time. Then, as a surprise, one day my wife comes home with an African Grey, also from a person where she worked. This time what we thought was a female we named Elise. I had my suspicions that she was a he because of the vocalizations.....I could whistle a tune daily for a week and Elise could repeat it.

I apologize, but I must go to bed, I am quite sleepy..... working out in the heat today and not sleeping well last night. I will continue in the morning
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This is great - thank you. 

We got our Grey first and thought she was a she... named her River, though, which can go either way.  Then the Conure - I was so sure was male and named 'him' Oscar... but then 'he' laid an egg a few years in... sooo....  we tried to go to a different name, but it was difficult to make the switch and she's still Oscar.

  
River, we still don't know, but I continue to lean female.  She's very reserved and has only ever learned a few words and never any tunes.  She's never had a nest-type place, so I wouldn't expect her to lay eggs.  Oscar had a hanging fabric "happy hut" that inspired her egg-laying.  Removing the hut put an end to it.


I look forward to hearing more of your story.
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I will do my best. It's a bit funny, but in the morning is always a good point to begin new things. Let's see how I do. I will attempt a start in the morning.

For the Parrot story I will start that dissertation later this evening. I must go finish refurbishing the garden for planting then eat dinner.

Hope you have a good evening.

Thanks for the reply.
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good luck!
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Solid wordcraft OP.

Well done & true.
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Thank You.....Generally it is my way of expressing my feelings, in this poem it is about losing our freedoms.
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Truly moving poem, thanks for sharing
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You're welcome. I think we all need to get moving.....even though in my heart of hearts I tend to think we are far too late.
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Back in early 90's I had mentioned several times to my wife that I really loved birds and preferred that over a dog or cat. Before we could go look she comes home one day with a Jenday Conure in early 94, I believe, from a person where she worked. It was an adorable creature, already almost a year old. We named what we thought was a male....Frenchy.

Frenchy though definitely bonded to my wife, leaving me a bit disappointed over time. Then, as a surprise, one day my wife comes home with an African Grey, also from a person where she worked. This time what we thought was a female we named Elise. I had my suspicions that she was a he because of the vocalizations.....I could whistle a tune daily for a week and Elise could repeat it.

 Quoting: scimitar


Continuing.....

Elise also loved to play, I would take a sock and hang it in front of her and she(?) would grab it and I would spin her around. If we were barefoot she would chase our toes trying to get them.... always made my wife scream like she was being chased by a mouse.

The previous owner had clipped her wings which sounds like reasonable thing in retrospect, but after awhile we decided not to continue. There were issues as the new flight feathers started coming in though so it took a long time. In the beginning she would drop like a rock if she tried to fly, eventually her glide path begin to increase.

I mistakenly took her outside one morning believing that if she did try to fly it would only be a few feet. She got startled at just the wrong moment when a strong breeze came by and took off. She immediately lofted to about 20 feet and was making a big circle around the house and was trying to get back to me. She had almost completed the 360 when a large crow started chasing her, she was close enough that I could see her look down at me with fear, as though she would yell out what do I do now? I watched in terror as she then flew a straight line farther and farther away even after the crow stopped chasing her. I began to run after her like a maniac, but there were too many fences in the way in our neighborhood. I spent the remainder of the day searching and asking everyone but to no avail.


More later......Honey dews
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Just curious for those out there that are angry with what is happening to the world. How do you calm your mind so you don't stress out over the emotion?.....I'm not referring to fear, for some reason I'm not afraid just angry.
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The easiest way to calm your mind is to admit that the genocidal ones are right. We do need to thin the herd.

Have you met the population?
I don't know what lies they told you, but I can promise they were lies.

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Just curious for those out there that are angry with what is happening to the world. How do you calm your mind so you don't stress out over the emotion?.....I'm not referring to fear, for some reason I'm not afraid just angry.
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The easiest way to calm your mind is to admit that the genocidal ones are right. We do need to thin the herd.

Have you met the population?
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I don't have a problem with "thinning the herd". I just vehemently disagree with the methodology employed.
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Just curious for those out there that are angry with what is happening to the world. How do you calm your mind so you don't stress out over the emotion?.....I'm not referring to fear, for some reason I'm not afraid just angry.
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The easiest way to calm your mind is to admit that the genocidal ones are right. We do need to thin the herd.

Have you met the population?
 Quoting: TlvmmCpoft


I don't have a problem with "thinning the herd". I just vehemently disagree with the methodology employed.
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What effective methodology would you prefer?

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Back in early 90's I had mentioned several times to my wife that I really loved birds and preferred that over a dog or cat. Before we could go look she comes home one day with a Jenday Conure in early 94, I believe, from a person where she worked. It was an adorable creature, already almost a year old. We named what we thought was a male....Frenchy.

Frenchy though definitely bonded to my wife, leaving me a bit disappointed over time. Then, as a surprise, one day my wife comes home with an African Grey, also from a person where she worked. This time what we thought was a female we named Elise. I had my suspicions that she was a he because of the vocalizations.....I could whistle a tune daily for a week and Elise could repeat it.

 Quoting: scimitar


Continuing.....

Elise also loved to play, I would take a sock and hang it in front of her and she(?) would grab it and I would spin her around. If we were barefoot she would chase our toes trying to get them.... always made my wife scream like she was being chased by a mouse.

The previous owner had clipped her wings which sounds like reasonable thing in retrospect, but after awhile we decided not to continue. There were issues as the new flight feathers started coming in though so it took a long time. In the beginning she would drop like a rock if she tried to fly, eventually her glide path begin to increase.

I mistakenly took her outside one morning believing that if she did try to fly it would only be a few feet. She got startled at just the wrong moment when a strong breeze came by and took off. She immediately lofted to about 20 feet and was making a big circle around the house and was trying to get back to me. She had almost completed the 360 when a large crow started chasing her, she was close enough that I could see her look down at me with fear, as though she would yell out what do I do now? I watched in terror as she then flew a straight line farther and farther away even after the crow stopped chasing her. I began to run after her like a maniac, but there were too many fences in the way in our neighborhood. I spent the remainder of the day searching and asking everyone but to no avail.


More later......Honey dews
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Oh my... at first I was like "this is a wonderful story" thinking you got her back... but now I'm thinking "two Greys?"... different names... oh no...
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Back in early 90's I had mentioned several times to my wife that I really loved birds and preferred that over a dog or cat. Before we could go look she comes home one day with a Jenday Conure in early 94, I believe, from a person where she worked. It was an adorable creature, already almost a year old. We named what we thought was a male....Frenchy.

Frenchy though definitely bonded to my wife, leaving me a bit disappointed over time. Then, as a surprise, one day my wife comes home with an African Grey, also from a person where she worked. This time what we thought was a female we named Elise. I had my suspicions that she was a he because of the vocalizations.....I could whistle a tune daily for a week and Elise could repeat it.

Elise also loved to play, I would take a sock and hang it in front of her and she(?) would grab it and I would spin her around. If we were barefoot she would chase our toes trying to get them.... always made my wife scream like she was being chased by a mouse.

The previous owner had clipped her wings which sounds like reasonable thing in retrospect, but after awhile we decided not to continue. There were issues as the new flight feathers started coming in though so it took a long time. In the beginning she would drop like a rock if she tried to fly, eventually her glide path begin to increase.

I mistakenly took her outside one morning believing that if she did try to fly it would only be a few feet. She got startled at just the wrong moment when a strong breeze came by and took off. She immediately lofted to about 20 feet and was making a big circle around the house and was trying to get back to me. She had almost completed the 360 when a large crow started chasing her, she was close enough that I could see her look down at me with fear, as though she would yell out what do I do now? I watched in terror as she then flew a straight line farther and farther away even after the crow stopped chasing her. I began to run after her like a maniac, but there were too many fences in the way in our neighborhood. I spent the remainder of the day searching and asking everyone but to no avail.
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Continuing...

I even put up reward posters all over the neighborhood, I was devastated. So much so that I put a reward of $1200....after it was too late I realized that was a big mistake. Where we lived was in the process of a nose dive with drugs and bad elements. I came to the conclusion that if the wrong people found her they would never believe I would pay a reward like that, but that the bird must be valuable and would likely sell her outright. I beat myself up mentally for years over my carelessness. All I could really do was pray someone took possession of her that loved birds.

So then we just had Frenchy. I must admit it took me a long time to get used to Frenchy being such an annoying squawker, such a piercing noise, my wife eventually lost some of her hearing range because he invariably do it right in her ears when sitting on her shoulder. Soon after that we also discovered as well that Frenchy was a she when the eggs started coming. In her whole life she must have laid at least 3 dozen.

about a year after losing Elise we moved to another house, much nicer in a gated community. That was late 97, at the time unknown to me, Felicia would be born in December. Yes, my wife did it again, in January of 98 she surprised me with another bird. From this point I could expand the story and write a book, but I will fast forward.

After 9/11, my eyes opened wide and I began really paying attention to the world around me and the future began to materialize in my thoughts... Where we are now has been in detailed planning for many decades. I knew I didn't want to go through what was to come in a high density population area, so at the right time we started looking for property. Oh and I found GLP in early 2004, took me awhile to learn about all the role playing going on...Hahaha!!

Anyway Frenchy and Felicia co-existed in their own cage right next to each other for the 14 years in that house, not perfectly.... but they tolerated each other.

Ooopps.....more local requests....later.
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I feel for you in losing Elise... what an awful ordeal.  You write really well.  It's a pleasure to read.
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04/29/2021 07:04 AM

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Re: Losing It
Back in early 90's I had mentioned several times to my wife that I really loved birds and preferred that over a dog or cat. Before we could go look she comes home one day with a Jenday Conure in early 94, I believe, from a person where she worked. It was an adorable creature, already almost a year old. We named what we thought was a male....Frenchy.

Frenchy though definitely bonded to my wife, leaving me a bit disappointed over time. Then, as a surprise, one day my wife comes home with an African Grey, also from a person where she worked. This time what we thought was a female we named Elise. I had my suspicions that she was a he because of the vocalizations.....I could whistle a tune daily for a week and Elise could repeat it.

Elise also loved to play, I would take a sock and hang it in front of her and she(?) would grab it and I would spin her around. If we were barefoot she would chase our toes trying to get them.... always made my wife scream like she was being chased by a mouse.

The previous owner had clipped her wings which sounds like reasonable thing in retrospect, but after awhile we decided not to continue. There were issues as the new flight feathers started coming in though so it took a long time. In the beginning she would drop like a rock if she tried to fly, eventually her glide path begin to increase.

I mistakenly took her outside one morning believing that if she did try to fly it would only be a few feet. She got startled at just the wrong moment when a strong breeze came by and took off. She immediately lofted to about 20 feet and was making a big circle around the house and was trying to get back to me. She had almost completed the 360 when a large crow started chasing her, she was close enough that I could see her look down at me with fear, as though she would yell out what do I do now? I watched in terror as she then flew a straight line farther and farther away even after the crow stopped chasing her. I began to run after her like a maniac, but there were too many fences in the way in our neighborhood. I spent the remainder of the day searching and asking everyone but to no avail.

I even put up reward posters all over the neighborhood, I was devastated. So much so that I put a reward of $1200....after it was too late I realized that was a big mistake. Where we lived was in the process of a nose dive with drugs and bad elements. I came to the conclusion that if the wrong people found her they would never believe I would pay a reward like that, but that the bird must be valuable and would likely sell her outright. I beat myself up mentally for years over my carelessness. All I could really do was pray someone took possession of her that loved birds.

So then we just had Frenchy. I must admit it took me a long time to get used to Frenchy being such an annoying squawker, such a piercing noise, my wife eventually lost some of her hearing range because he invariably do it right in her ears when sitting on her shoulder. Soon after that we also discovered as well that Frenchy was a she when the eggs started coming. In her whole life she must have laid at least 3 dozen.

about a year after losing Elise we moved to another house, much nicer in a gated community. That was late 97, at the time unknown to me, Felicia would be born in December. Yes, my wife did it again, in January of 98 she surprised me with another bird. From this point I could expand the story and write a book, but I will fast forward.

After 9/11, my eyes opened wide and I began really paying attention to the world around me and the future began to materialize in my thoughts... Where we are now has been in detailed planning for many decades. I knew I didn't want to go through what was to come in a high density population area, so at the right time we started looking for property. Oh and I found GLP in early 2004, took me awhile to learn about all the role playing going on...Hahaha!!

Anyway Frenchy and Felicia co-existed in their own cage right next to each other for the 14 years in that house, not perfectly.... but they tolerated each other.
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The Truth of the matter is that it only gets worse.

Thread: A tragic question for pet owners

Sorry, but as I get closer to the end of the story the memories come back. Even though there is a lot more in between. The second link, I suppose was a tribute to an amazing part of my life.

Thread: A Little Life a little death

Even now the tears well up in my eyes.... Greys can be very jealous, especially if they are very closely bonded. Please take care to make sure this doesn't happen to you.

It can happen in the proverbial blink of an eye.
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04/29/2021 07:19 AM

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Losing It

I respond to losing it with a ratcheting rise of rage
As I ponder the precarious path if I turn the page.
I do savor the sensibility of the silent sage
And yet I gather the grip on a glorious gauge.

A quest lies waiting for us in the setting sun,
Shall we stand firm or will we turn and run?
If your lantern is not at the ready to light the way
The evil enemy eviscerates everything and makes you pay.

The seeds of nature lie in wait with a need
They require disciplined duty to nourish the deed.
Shall we succeed or will we fail at this mission?
Pray that we suffer not a great mortal attrition.

There is no security in clinging to the Status Quo.
We must desperately work against the raging flow,
For if we do not with fervor fight for choosing it
I can without doubt confirm that we will all be losing it.
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clappa

Boom

Keep it flowin
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Ooopps.....Another on I didn't respond to, I suppose it must be a senior moment. Thank You

I must admit the mind of mine that likes to write poetry has somehow slipped into the back round a bit. Years ago the words poured out like water coming from some unknown source, now if I want to express myself in that way I really have to work at it and that was never the point.
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04/29/2021 07:33 AM

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Just curious for those out there that are angry with what is happening to the world. How do you calm your mind so you don't stress out over the emotion?.....I'm not referring to fear, for some reason I'm not afraid just angry.
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Yep...and walk..avoid idiots.
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I see and how do YOU recognize the idiots?
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04/29/2021 02:47 PM

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The Truth of the matter is that it only gets worse.

Thread: A tragic question for pet owners

Sorry, but as I get closer to the end of the story the memories come back. Even though there is a lot more in between. The second link, I suppose was a tribute to an amazing part of my life.

Thread: A Little Life a little death

Even now the tears well up in my eyes.... Greys can be very jealous, especially if they are very closely bonded. Please take care to make sure this doesn't happen to you.

It can happen in the proverbial blink of an eye.
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Okay... I haven't yet clicked on those links. I will save for later. I'm thinking maybe Felicia hurt (killed?) Frenchie? No need to answer, I just want to be in a space and have the time to honor such a story...

The day we got Oscar (at the pet store where we had gotten River), a Blue and Gold Macaw had grabbed and flung Oscar's friend. The bird was okay, but traumatized, and we could tell Oscar was, too. We had been thinking about getting another bird and that event spurred us to take Oscar home that day... she seemed happy to leave the place where the trauma occurred.





GLP