Joe, Joe Joe.

The other day, I asked you why you were on my thread. You evaded my answer repeatedly when I asked you again. I found this amusing.

I found it amusing because I knew the answer already. Also, I knew the real answer. The one even you probably don't realize.

You gave a half assed answer on the other thread. Something about caring for our souls in eternity or some such thing.

I found this amusing as well because even though you may tell yourself that, it's bs and we both know it. I let that one go.

You and several others have come onto my thread, like Z said, to mock and discredit under a guise of wanting to know.

I know this and I accept it for what it is.

But I also know there is another reason why you are here. It's a reason that you don't see, but I do. It's also the reason that I have not banned you.

There is something here. Something with me, this thread and the posters here that sticks in your gut. You don't know why but it does. Something pushing you on. Something like a compulsion that you can't explain but you have to pick at. I see it in your words.

Some people feel anger and direct that towards me because it's easier than trying to confront the internal dialog that is trying to break free.

And yet they can't explain the anger. But they feel something is amiss. Some mock to cover up the fear they feel. Some feel the need to tear down and attack because that validates their existing belief.

But you. I hear more in your words. Part of you is questioning what you've been told and there is a struggle going on just underneath the surface.

I hear it in your words. You doubt.

You came here thinking you'd play games but I think the universe has other plans for you. In your own way, you've begun a quest for knowing.

There are no coincidences. You are here for a reason.

Of course you'll deny everything I've said and probably come back with a Bible verse or two. And that's ok. It's the standard defense mechanism.

But I'm a witch, Joe. You think I don't see things? :)

I want you to do something for me tonight if possible.

I want you to go outside and sit in the dark. No noises or distractions. Just sit and think about what I've told you. Put aside your preconceived ideas of what should be. Just sit, be still and listen. Don't try to force anything. Relax and breathe. When random thoughts come, just let them go. Light a candle if you wish.

The point of this, is to get you to stop thinking externally for a moment and turn inward. For you to hear that small voice in the dark.

As another Christian would tell you, God can't tell you his story until you shut up and stop trying to tell him yours.