Hi,

I was raised in a Christian home growing up. I can remember from a little age, I used prayer, as I was taught. I always had this voice inside me guiding me here and there. I always thought that this was God's will from what I was told. After leaving home, I didn't follow any church or religion but just to say existed but always listening to the voice inside me. You could say I was always using defense to protect me without knowing. I used prayer but not like traditional prayer, where you get on your knees and bring your hands together. More like just wherever I was, closing my eyes and focusing on the thought of what I was
achieving. Most would come to fruition but sometimes, nothing or different outcome.

A few years ago, I discovered meditation in the sense that you sit quietly, close your eyes and focus on your breathe. I would envision my breathe in each of my muscle groups from head to toe. Where I would differ, is, I would do this separately from my prayers/manifestation. I have never incorporated this with nature. So I tried your experiment of sitting outside and letting the thoughts come and go. For me, it was the generally the thoughts as I receive from the voice inside me. When I say voice inside me, I think gut feeling or instinct/intuition. Perhaps, a better way to explain, is this is the frequency I operate on.

I have observed this thread for a little while because I'm curious how others interpret the energy. I have no formal training, read no books on how to use energy. I always just did what felt right (energy wise). I have never incorporated moon cycles, nature (other than using herbs) to increase energy. This is something I'm curious about.

I believe this world has many secrets and I believe most are hidden or we are not suppose to discover.
The question that is or open for debate - is how does one deal with energy that doesn't line up with one's thoughts? Can you only receive/send energy that lines up with what your mind can comprehend? Sort of like an out of body experience, if you saw it or perceive it to be true. Does one reject this energy, using mind over energy. For me, this is how I grow, is when I receive energy that directly challenges what I have been told to be true. Does anyone else experience this?

I personally use this type of energy to pursue more knowledge and if I can't disapprove it, I must retain it. I always choose the voice inside of me, over my mind. I believe my mind has gaps and can be tricked. If not, then how would magicians magic tricks work. I think we all use the same energy but maybe call to it in different ways. Is one way better than another or is each person suited to how they interpret the use of energy?