Today I had a ridiculous dream and I finally said in the dream OH NO THIS IS NOT REAL and I woke up.

That's the hard thing, waking up from the ridiculous dream. My recurring dream is always the same. Losing purse, losing keys, can't find car, far away from an obligation. ALL my life the same thing.

This afternoon I had another one. I was on the West Bank of the river, which is a place I never went, and with friends. I lost track of them as we were walking to the car and couldn't find them again. I walked around and couldn't find them, shouting. Then I couldn't find my purse with money phone, etc. Then when I asked for help the cops wanted my ID which I didn't have, and I ran away. No money, no phone, no friends, no ID, feeling like a fugitive.

FINALLY I got to this place where I could catch the ferry but didn't have enough money to get on it, and as I tried to explain they called security. As they were asking me to empty my pockets I said... THIS IS NOT REAL. Nothing in my pockets was mine, and not a nickle or a dime for fare for the ferry. I said again THIS IS NOT real and I woke up, exhausted. WORST nap ever. It's hard enough for me to fall asleep without these horrible exhausting dreams. So here I am.