I wish my mother would finally die

She's been living with a terrible chronic disease, lupus, vasculitis, and other auto immune disorders, which haveade her the sickest person in the world. There was an article about her on University of Miami medical magazine. Her disorders have affected me as a kid, seeing her so sick that every movement just hurt her so much. My dad was the first to snap at having a sick wife, having to stop work,and with me still in school, he had to be the main breadwinner. I started using drugs to forget of how sick a mom I had, and after a failed marriage had to move back in w them. I'm 29, addicted to heroin, am a victim of Gangstalking/Project Unity, and my life is being systematically torn apart. I hate my life. My parents told me to come clean about why I'm so sick sometimes ( dopesick ) and I came clean and told them about my heroin use after the divorce. She got half of my bank balance which I worked hard to save up to buy a car and down payment on a property, but my exs plan was to divorce me and basically rape me in court, and she showed her true character. I was convinced she was an agent sent my way to stope from digging down the rabbit hole and to get me to stop w the conspiracies as well as to get me to commit suicide. I was harassed by my ex's friends, all of them saying I should go kill myself. Everyone at college treated me like shit because of the lies/gaslighting she would do.

And this heroin thing is another ptb sub plot point in my journey, tptb love getting people hooked on powerful drugs, it slows their life progress, combination with Gangstalking and you have a psy op, no, a spiritual war, on those who are psychically enhanced!

They hate people like me, those nasty parasites. They all flock to each other like flies onto dung but when a genuine person appears and is not phased by their 'Matrix' they all gather to systematically kill that person's life. I still have a job, a roof, for now.

I am not going to give them the satisfaction of killing myself, if they want me dead, they better hire a hitman.