Aven's Paranormal

Oh why did i miss this thread.

im liking these materials in here.

Will get back to it later.

No.
They are put away for now.
I thought about it, but didn't feel like having a mod have the decision whether I could post it.

But... on the bright side, you have the cards and the layout written down.

Well thank you for the reading. Some parts were accurate and some were way off. I'll write it down and then probably delete the post.

The last part was my interpretation.
I am fallable. Just screenshit and delete.
Doesn't bother me.

One time I was fasting.Just water .not for a long time. Maybe a day lol. Might have been 2…

Anyways .

Something happened

It was like a time line shift

I opened my fridge and it was just disgusting. I mean all the meat smelled like death and it was gross looking and it was ranchid. Like it was in there for months and months.

So I went out to have a cigarette. The cigartte brought me back down. And when I went back inside my fridge was normal

I don’t know if that counts as paranormal. But it happened

One time I was fasting.Just water .not for a long time. Maybe a day lol. Might have been 2…

Anyways .

Something happened

It was like a time line shift

I opened my fridge and it was just disgusting. I mean all the meat smelled like death and it was gross looking and it was ranchid. Like it was in there for months and months.

So I went out to have a cigarette. The cigartte brought me back down. And when I went back inside my fridge was normal

I don’t know if that counts as paranormal. But it happened

Were you alone in your house at the time?

You just might be one of …..US!

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https://imgur.com/a/LkFar3Y

Yes I was the only one home.

Did you feel a lapse in time?

Meaning did you lose time?

Not in that particular moment.

However what you are saying I have experienced before

Usually before I have visions

My first thought upon reading was that you might have blacked out

If I blacked out does that mean I imagined what I experienced and snapped out of it and had a cigarette ?

This is a story of one of my very first true experiences with meditation. To this day I have no real words to adequately describe the experience. I wrote it all down immediately after it happened so I would not forget the details. That began a practice that I continue to this day.

I had spent a couple of weeks trying to meditate and I couldn't. For whatever reason, I couldn't get my mind settled. I couldn't relax and I could barely sleep. I was at a point of extreme frustration and pushing only made it worse. After a couple weeks I just said enough of it and decided to 'take a break' from meditation completely.

When you stop pushing, things happen.

Sometime later, I got home late one night and I was feeling really tired but I had so much to get done so I decided to just power through. I sat at my desk and started doing paperwork and working on the pc. It was around 10:30 at night. But, I was so distracted that I could barely concentrate. I sat back in my chair, closed my eyes and started rubbing my temples. That was when my experience began.

Now, I have to break this down in segments so it will make sense.

Part 1.

I was sitting at my desk like I described. For some reason, I had the strong desire to get up and walk outside onto the patio behind my office. All of a sudden and without warning, I was in two places at once and aware of both "Avens" - I was aware that I was still sitting in my chair and that I had never left. But I was also standing outside on my patio, looking back through the doors at me sitting in the chair. I was aware of both perspectives at once. There is no way for me to describe the feeling to where it can be sufficiently explained. I was me looking at me on the patio, and I was me looking at me on the patio looking at me sitting in the chair.

It only lasted for a second and then for lack of a better word, I was 'jolted' back together. And it hurt. I had such a headache that it nearly doubled me over and for a few seconds I literally could not breathe and I did not know who or where I was. I was the only one in the house and I actually called my son to come check on me because I was afraid I might be having a stroke or a brain hemorrhage. Thankfully the headache went away quickly and I recovered. So after this episode I decided that the paperwork could wait and I went and stretched out on the couch.

Part 2.

I'm laying on the couch. The headache had completely gone away by now. I was also completely wide awake and nowhere near on the verge of sleep. My brain was going 100mph. I started to do some slow breathing techniques and grounding visualizations to help 'pull myself back together' I probably did this for about 15 minutes. I felt myself finally start to relax and center, when I 'dropped'. That is my word to describe the feeling. The sensation is almost like being submerged completely except that your face is just above the water. All you feel is the oval of your face and everything else is under the surface. I recognized the feeling so I just let go and went with it. It's the first sensation of entering into an altered state.

So I went under. I lost a part of my consciousness, but a part of me was aware and extremely focused. I was in a place of almost complete darkness. I say almost because I could make out vague shapes. It was like being in a dark room and then your eyes adjust enough to see slightly.

I was in darkness but I could feel a barrier with my hands, like reaching out and feeling a wall. It had length and width and I could barely make out light above and beneath this wall. Thin strands of light like the barrier was blocking a light on the other side. I could also hear voices on the other side. I distinctly heard two voices talking, one male and one female. It's like they were carrying a on conversation and they weren't aware that I could hear them. I started calling out to them and said that I couldn't get past the barrier. They stopped talking to each other and the female voice asked the male, "She can hear us?" I never heard the male respond. I asked, "How can I get past the wall? I can hear you but I can't see you!"

That was when I came out of where ever I was. I had that jolt again but there was no headache this time. I came out and I felt like someone was 'breathing' me. Like I was breathing but it wasn't me doing it. I had that same feeling of being outside myself and being the 'observer' watching me.

Part 3.

I was still laying on the couch. This time I was completely exhausted. Mentally and physically drained. I don't think I could have moved if I wanted to. At this point I actually fell asleep and slept for about 4 hours. During this point I had one of the weirdest dreams that I've ever had in my life. I woke up and felt really, really good and extremely relaxed. I decided to get up and go to the kitchen because I was starving. I got up, walked into the kitchen and grabbed a glass of tea and a piece of leftover pizza. I grabbed all the stuff and headed back to the couch.

And I saw myself laying there still asleep. Stretched out. Mouth open and snoring. Seeing myself is what woke me up. Me waking up and going to the kitchen had been in the dream itself. I woke up (for real) and walked into the kitchen to make sure I had actually not been in there.

Part 4.

I was sitting on the couch wondering if I was losing my mind at this point. I'm not kidding when I say I felt like I was losing my grip on reality. I was scared. Probably one of the scariest times of my life. So I sat back and did my breathing and centering technique again to calm myself down. It helped. At this point it was coming up on 6:00 in the morning so I just decided to get up and work through the day as I normally would. For me, work is what calms me down. If I can stay busy I can keep my myself together.

So I went through my day and gradually got myself together and had a semi normal day. I worked out, listened to music, did my busywork. Cleaned house. I didn't have any other weird things happen that day. I even made a point to go through the house where I saged and cleansed the whole area just in case I had some pesty spook trying to mess with my head.

Part 5.

The day went as normal and around 11:00 that night I went to bed. I did my breathing and calming exercise again and again, without warning I was out. It happened very fast. I had that sudden 'drop' again and this time I lost my awareness completely, like I entered a dream state.

I was again in that dark place but this time there was a light in front and just above my eyes. I felt like I was suspended and free floating in liquid. It was completely dark except for this bright spotlight. Like someone was standing above me and aiming a flashlight just at my hairline. I was completely frozen and unable to move. I couldn't even close my eyes. The light itself pulsed like a strobe light and kept changing colors. From white to blue to purple to indigo to green and red. It had a beat to it like it was moving to music. I had the impression that it was alive.

I had that feeling again that I was not in control and that I was being breathed. I also had that same submerged feeling. I started to move forward but I was not the one moving. It's like the 'scene' was moving towards me and I couldn't stop it. As I moved forward the light moved up and behind me and I could 'feel' it pulsing behind me. It faded as I got further away from it.

As I moved forward I started to 'lose myself' I have no words to explain it. But I knew if I kept going that I would vanish and not come back. I wasn't afraid but I knew that it was something that I didn't want. I said in my mind, "Stop. I want this to end."

Right back then I was back at the wall feeling the barrier. The darkness and the little strands of light but no voices this time. I still felt like I was free floating and I reached out to the wall to anchor myself. I had the thought in my head that I'd better find a way out of here or I'm royally screwed. That was when the experience ended and I sat up in bed. I never had such an experience again after that.

I've spent years trying to decipher the experience and I always end up with more questions.

Did I bi locate? Did I astral travel? Did I die and come back? Did I enter the 'void' ?
Who were the voices? What was the barrier? What brought on the experience in the first place?

Questions. Questions and more Questions.

To this day, I have no good answers. Did I pierce the veil l briefly and see something I wasn't meant to?

I'll probably never know until I get there. Again.

Your experience sounds truly remarkable and intense. It's not surprising that you've spent years trying to decipher what happened.

It's possible that you experienced a phenomenon like astral projection, lucid dreaming, or some form of out-of-body experience. The wall and the barrier you described could represent some kind of mental or spiritual boundary that you encountered.

The voices and the pulsing light are particularly intriguing. Some might interpret these as encounters with spiritual beings or entities.

To this day I still don't have a sufficient explanation.

Sometimes, our most profound experiences defy easy categorization and resist simple explanations.

What did the experience reveal to you about yourself?

How did it impact your beliefs, values, or perspective on life?

The big takeaway for me was just how little we understand ourselves, the afterlife and how much more complex it all is.