i am, but i've gotten to where i can somewhat keep it in control and under moderation...


some back history.. i was a heroin addict for a long time, 15 years...i quit all that 10 years ago, then i went through a xanax phase for a few years.. then i quit that. (prison)


now i drink 1 steel reserve 40oz 8.1 beer, every day.


i can't take xanax anymore, it makes me do stupid stuff.
i definitely can't do heroin anymore.. it will kill me (nearly did)

i smoke pot, and need it daily (for anxiety/ptsd from prison

i drink my 1 40oz every evening... i stay pretty much completely sober throughout the day and only get a little drunk every night... then all the way sober again before bed (and i only drink water besides the beer)