I'm convinced he's dead, fault or not, who knows.. but his final video sounded like his world fell apart. You could literally hear him speaking at the end of his patience. Some of his final words were, "..if I'm not back, it was an honor and a privilege.."

What I want to know is what did he do to feel like he betrayed everyone? He called himself a "bad guy" who did "something so f'ing bad" and he equaled himself to Judas.

What happened?