the Egyptians/Muslims are now threatening me with starvation

my enemies(Egyptians/Muslims/feminist/copts) the entity that lead them and/or the crazy thing that they worship -Allah- now has become insanely powerful, inanely angry and insanely agitate against me

they now either damage my psyche/mind/dignity/manhood by treating me disrespectfully as mentally-ill/village-idiot, while they give my governmental aid food, or they refuse to give the aid to me
my uncle refuse to give me the Little rents that he collect from the renters of the stores in my family buildings, he refuse to talk to me and he claim that they did not pay the rent to him
and al-sisi keep hinting in his media stamens that he will cancel the governmental aid/subsides that i live by

i simply can not fight them like this, at-least not while i am poor like this
it is mathematically impossible to defeat or even survive an enemy that you depend on for money(food/drink/shelter/warmth/electricity/internet/medicine​) and that besiege you whenever you go or live, that monitor and predict your thoughts and that rule you with it's laws

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they want me to thankful for the hell they put me in and that they consider it my rightful place, since they insist to deceive themselves and conceive me as things like village-idiot/mentally-ill, gay/woman criminal/sexual-harasser and unskilled
but all this make all sense in the world, simply since they are my enemies and since i live completely under their mercy
i live among them, they are the majority in my country or they even could be everyone, they are the ones who rule me with their crazy laws, they besiege me, monitor me and can even manipulate me or predict my movements/actions/responses
if they was the ones who live under my mercy i would have done worse things to them

they exploit the fact that they are a nation that are rich and trained for psychological/psychical war and supported/led by a god, a hive-mind/AI and a government(army/laws/police) while i am poor alone, therefore i am always scared of them and are not able to make troubles with them

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they never was insanely against me like this before, even in 2013, i think that they are like this now because:

1-because they all now decided to use any silly excuse or any insignificant wrong thing they cause me to do, so they judge me as mindless mentally-ill village-idiot that they have the right to take away his money/dignity/manhood and harm him as they like, as they do to the mindless animals

2-because-of the harm corona did to them and because corona was hijacked by them, they now believed that they defeated corona and therefore defeated me forever and they now want to finish me off for good

3-because i refuse to surrender to the corruption/effeminacy that they try to make have and i now even become able to be a real-man and to live without any corruption or mutation all the time, for the first time in more than decade, despite that i still live in their hell

4-because i refuse be pacified by their pathetic laughable attempt to pacify me or to make me like them
and refuse to forget the hell they put me in and i keep trying to use my magic to torture/kill all of them

5-because their Islamic/feminist leader al-sisi has now manged to unite all of them, even the ones that used to be neutral and/or conservative, to be with his side against me
and he now managed to make them all more religious/liberal(feminist/capitalist) and he keep spreading Islam, islamizing everything/everyone and keep spreading the mentality/matrix of the Egyptians worldwide
and because he seem to be unstoppable/unrivaled, he keep ruling, keep wining and keep making them happy and prosperous
all on my expense

6-because it seem that Biden are their ally, or even belong to their type, therefore his regime is strengthening them

7-because i keep praying to the great real gods for help, while i refuse to let go of my humanity, mind/logic, sexuality, love for truth, freedom, goodness, manhood, dignity to become a masochist slave for the insane, selfish, self-deceptive, weak, evil, sadistic, AI-like, human-like, tyrannical liberal/feminist enemy creature "Allah" that they worship, a slave who only live the way that Allah want and who blindly believe the contradicted nonessential bullshit of it's religions

8-because therefore they belibe that they are now
the non-Egyptians cults/organizations who used to support me has been infiltrated and stopped supporting me
and because they belive that i lost all or most of my magic poewrs,