i deserve to be in heaven/paradise not this hellish/shitty life

i am the most manly, righteous, pure, magically-strong, educated, honest, loving, sexual, intelligent, good-hearted man in the world
i am like real human man in a world of programmed robots
but instead of putting me on the top of the social/economical/governmental pyramid, by making me the ruler of the world and/or the richest man in the world
humans/Egyptians and there god/system/matrix keep toying with me treat me as idiot/mentally-ill, criminal/sexual-harasser, gay/woman, valueless/unskilled and either put me in the button of social/economical/governmental pyramid just above hell, or put me in the top levels of hell and ask me to be ever thankful/forgiven or else they will put me deeper in hell by imprisoning me, making me ill, castrating me, or making me starve and throw me in the streets by taking from me anythings that they still let me have/use