One night I dreamed that I was a child, afraid of a monster under my bed. God came into the room as a loving parent, with a flashlight, a broom, and a box of supplies. He did not deride my fears or even contradict them. He had me hold the light while he swept out from under the bed until there was nothing underneath. Then he got under the bed with a stack of books, some juice boxes and string cheese and invited me to join him.

We stayed under the bed all afternoon, reading, playing games, and laughing. Then we played a game to see who could get out, over, and back under the bed the fastest. Around and around we went.

Then it was night time and he tucked me into bed. I lay there realizing that now being under the bed seemed cozier and safer than being on top. It made me laugh aloud. He had taught me to go into my fears with the light - with him, and find freedom in knowledge of every unseen corner.

I awoke and wrote the following song.

I AM ONE

I have walked the road of a lonely soul
Searching for a rest
From the hostile fray, trying to be safe
To find a quiet nest
Can compassion flow over wounds grown cold
Is there a way to heal?
Could I just be me — a minute incomplete
And find my real?

2)
By your side I’m brave, with an ounce of faith
We crawled beneath the bed
Faced down my fear, gripped the Devil’s beard
And cut off his head.
Mapped the vast unknown, of an infant soul,
Here I - I have begun
If you see a piece while I’m finding me
Cry, I am one!


3)
All the things I learned, kept me from the burn
Of darkest memories
And creation’s spark was my rescue ark
In the flood of me
Then when love arrived, I didn’t want to hide,
I wanted - wanted in.
When you kiss my scars, I feel that they are
Embedded gems.

Chorus:

I am one
I am just begun
I am kiln-fired hope
I am free to go
I am counted tears
I am conquered fear
I am just begun
I am one.