I tried - really hard to learn hebrw but it was totally impossible for me ... but I was able to "sing" it ... so I created "songs" for the "chants" (hidden in the OT) that I thought useful to me ... and I was able to memorize all the ones that were used in our meetings - I think that it is important that we use the original language because it contains the exact TONEs needed for what we desire to create

I knew what I was saying ... but I wasn't saying it in English ...

what made me stop studying with the Kabbalist - was their insistance that it wasn't a RELIGION ... but all the "rituals" and dogma, and attention to minuet detail ... the Mizpahs (rules -615 of them) ... omg - I no longer had a life of my own- hundreds of "holy days" through-out the year - even sex was regulated ... and everything was SOOOOOO expensive ...

and then I was led to the teachings of the Wingmakers ... which was like the glue that brought all the "dots" of information I had gathered in this life time - together - it was like the framework that allowed me to see the BIG PICTURE ... without getting lost in the details ... everything finally made perfect sense and my search for the truth has been satisfied ... what a long strange trip it has been - but well worth the effort