Panic attacks/A little story of me/Need help

TOXINS could be the reason for your panic attacks.

have your liver checked.

I pers. would n o t take any xanax.

speaking from my own experience!

Hello!!
I pulled myself out of extreme anxiety pretty much by accident. Meaning I didn't know I was doing it at the time.

My anxiety was caused by my doing a stupid action which caused legal and personal repercussions which lasted for years and were personally shaming and humiliating for me, let's not even mention extremely expensive, life-altering and destabilizing in every way.

I did have panic attacks but a huge part of my problem was terrible insomnia, I would wake up in a panic and not be able to get decent rest. This was ongoing for years, because the repercussions were ongoing and could have become exponentially worse at any time, not fully under my control.

First thing sound a little 'out there'. Because I had an interest in figuring out how it was that countries became fascist, I began watching documentaries about WWII in the middle of the night when I would awaken. This did a couple things: It reminded me that humans could survive horrific circumstances and that I actually had very many advantages present in my life.

And so I became grateful for those advantages, from the fact that my boots and feet were dry and I was warm to I could simply go to the pantry and prepare a meal, etc, etc., etc.... .

Before I knew it, this gratitude comprehension became a habit. The more I saw the more I saw.

Well into all this, I came upon a video by a neuroscientist who had done the imaging to map out our emotional states. He learned that feeling gratitude made the brain create a bump of serotonin, which in turn created its own dopamine.

So, without knowing it, I had retrained my brain.

So this doesn't mean that my world didn't suck at some very memorable times. But what it did do was it gave me a completely different baseline.

This has continued very wonderfully even all these years later. I consider myself one of the more grateful people I know. I see the world differently. I think I did a brain reset on myself and went through some brain training that created a happy life for myself. I know that every person can do this and the fact that you wish for a different life than you have now gives you an incentive to make that change. You can be happy. It is true that I was so miserable that for the first time I understood the concept and reality of Jesus. That is up to you and not necessary to created a happier brain.

My best to you!!!

I recently had a check up and I m perfectly fine.

Do u wanna share your experience from Xanax?

There was an event when I was 11 years old
that turned my life upside down... I felt lost closed to myself, developing gradually depression and suddenly on 16 I had the first panic attack. I was forced to quit high school because stress was eating me alive, panic attacks developed to agoraphobia and I was for years inside my room spending my time playing computer games or making music. My parents were pushing me to see a doctor... I denied any kind of help because I thought I was crazy and nobody could understand the hell I was living.
Anyway, 3 years of hell when suddenly at 18 or 19 years old I took the decision to see a doctor. Therapy sessions in combination with antidepressants helped me take my life back again. I learned a lot about myself on those sessions, I learned a lot about the human psychology. I was diagnosed with regular stress disorder/post traumatic stress disorder and and manic depression.
So I took the decision to start high school again, graduating finally, then I got into the university as a Sound Engineer since making music was always my passion and graduated with the best grades in my classroom... All these years going to school and working to random jobs at the same time.
I never managed to find a standard job as an Engineer where I live, so I continued doing shitty jobs to fulfill my personal goals.
I m 30 years old now, I have 2 dogs, a 6 years relationship, my dreams sports car but I lost my job mid covid Era.
I didn't have any regular therapy sessions last 3 years, maybe once a year, I didn't have the need to. This summer I took the decision and doctor seemed to agree and I finally stopped antidepressants, first weeks were a bit weird, but I got through them and trust me... I was so happy that I finally stopped taking drugs.

Little did I know.. I made a huge mistake, sitting home doing nothing, becoming non productive again, reading news, researching, taking measures about what is coming behind the covid agenda while everybody pushing me to take the jab.

Slowly stress was coming back, lately I m having the same horrible panic attacks when I drive away from my territory. I m taking Xanax day by day to be able to feel better... I m falling to the same old mud again and I feel ashamed of myself.

I don't wanna take antidepressants again, this is the reason I refuse to speak with my doctor.
Please, if somebody experienced this before, share some ways to fight it without taking drugs again.
I need to be strong because we are living in times we are getting heavily attacked and WE HAVE TO BE STRONG, for us, humanity and the people we love.
Thanks in advance.
God Bless you.

There was an event when I was 11 years old
that turned my life upside down... I felt lost closed to myself, developing gradually depression and suddenly on 16 I had the first panic attack. I was forced to quit high school because stress was eating me alive, panic attacks developed to agoraphobia and I was for years inside my room spending my time playing computer games or making music. My parents were pushing me to see a doctor... I denied any kind of help because I thought I was crazy and nobody could understand the hell I was living.
Anyway, 3 years of hell when suddenly at 18 or 19 years old I took the decision to see a doctor. Therapy sessions in combination with antidepressants helped me take my life back again. I learned a lot about myself on those sessions, I learned a lot about the human psychology. I was diagnosed with regular stress disorder/post traumatic stress disorder and and manic depression.
So I took the decision to start high school again, graduating finally, then I got into the university as a Sound Engineer since making music was always my passion and graduated with the best grades in my classroom... All these years going to school and working to random jobs at the same time.
I never managed to find a standard job as an Engineer where I live, so I continued doing shitty jobs to fulfill my personal goals.
I m 30 years old now, I have 2 dogs, a 6 years relationship, my dreams sports car but I lost my job mid covid Era.
I didn't have any regular therapy sessions last 3 years, maybe once a year, I didn't have the need to. This summer I took the decision and doctor seemed to agree and I finally stopped antidepressants, first weeks were a bit weird, but I got through them and trust me... I was so happy that I finally stopped taking drugs.

Little did I know.. I made a huge mistake, sitting home doing nothing, becoming non productive again, reading news, researching, taking measures about what is coming behind the covid agenda while everybody pushing me to take the jab.

Slowly stress was coming back, lately I m having the same horrible panic attacks when I drive away from my territory. I m taking Xanax day by day to be able to feel better... I m falling to the same old mud again and I feel ashamed of myself.

I don't wanna take antidepressants again, this is the reason I refuse to speak with my doctor.
Please, if somebody experienced this before, share some ways to fight it without taking drugs again.
I need to be strong because we are living in times we are getting heavily attacked and WE HAVE TO BE STRONG, for us, humanity and the people we love.
Thanks in advance.
God Bless you.

I don't wanna take antidepressants again, this is the reason I refuse to speak with my doctor.
Please, if somebody experienced this before, share some ways to fight it without taking drugs again.
I need to be strong because we are living in times we are getting heavily attacked and WE HAVE TO BE STRONG, for us, humanity and the people we love.
Thanks in advance.
God Bless you.

You need past life regression therapy to find out what is really going on in your subconscious. Sounds like a deep rooted fear from a past lifetime(s) triggered by an event at 11 years. Fear of something causing anxiety, that's for sure.

There was an event when I was 11 years old
that turned my life upside down... I felt lost closed to myself, developing gradually depression and suddenly on 16 I had the first panic attack. I was forced to quit high school because stress was eating me alive, panic attacks developed to agoraphobia and I was for years inside my room spending my time playing computer games or making music. My parents were pushing me to see a doctor... I denied any kind of help because I thought I was crazy and nobody could understand the hell I was living.
Anyway, 3 years of hell when suddenly at 18 or 19 years old I took the decision to see a doctor. Therapy sessions in combination with antidepressants helped me take my life back again. I learned a lot about myself on those sessions, I learned a lot about the human psychology. I was diagnosed with regular stress disorder/post traumatic stress disorder and and manic depression.
So I took the decision to start high school again, graduating finally, then I got into the university as a Sound Engineer since making music was always my passion and graduated with the best grades in my classroom... All these years going to school and working to random jobs at the same time.
I never managed to find a standard job as an Engineer where I live, so I continued doing shitty jobs to fulfill my personal goals.
I m 30 years old now, I have 2 dogs, a 6 years relationship, my dreams sports car but I lost my job mid covid Era.
I didn't have any regular therapy sessions last 3 years, maybe once a year, I didn't have the need to. This summer I took the decision and doctor seemed to agree and I finally stopped antidepressants, first weeks were a bit weird, but I got through them and trust me... I was so happy that I finally stopped taking drugs.

Little did I know.. I made a huge mistake, sitting home doing nothing, becoming non productive again, reading news, researching, taking measures about what is coming behind the covid agenda while everybody pushing me to take the jab.

Slowly stress was coming back, lately I m having the same horrible panic attacks when I drive away from my territory. I m taking Xanax day by day to be able to feel better... I m falling to the same old mud again and I feel ashamed of myself.

I don't wanna take antidepressants again, this is the reason I refuse to speak with my doctor.
Please, if somebody experienced this before, share some ways to fight it without taking drugs again.
I need to be strong because we are living in times we are getting heavily attacked and WE HAVE TO BE STRONG, for us, humanity and the people we love.
Thanks in advance.
God Bless you.

Kickboxing helped me a lot to get tired, be fit and healthy but unfortunately I broke some hand bones that forbid me from training again.
Does walking really helps? Sounds like a good idea.

I m only taking 0,25mg when I m not feeling good, doctor agreed its fine as long as I don't do it daily and don't take above 0,50mg. I know the dangers and trying to be careful.