What do you expect. It's a secret language and the secrets are kept out in plain sight. I could name 100 books that would tell you a semblance of truth that once you piece it together, give you the big picture. Problem is, you have to be able to sparse fact from fiction. All these conspiracy books written in the form of a Jim Marrs "novel" are not really doing anything but spreading disinfo. HarperCollins anyone?

Ancient Aliens for example is about 10-20% true, but you have to frame that information in just the right way for it to have any validity.

There's tons of books out there. You have to have a willingness to take psychology and mythology seriously. You have to understand there are authors that write with the goal of being 75% misdirection so they can hide valid information in an absurd format so it can be easily discredited, but the wise know better. I can't hold your hand. You either have or you don't. You either get sick at not assimilating new info and have the mentality to retain the truth and discard fiction internally and the human brain doesn't do this naturally. It's one of our fallacies in thinking that we generally do not categorize fact from fiction very well and those that do are privileged to be able to do so, that and oversimplifications.