fuck false-love, i want to live in the paradise of sex/marriage/wealth like most others

fuck your false-love, love is not "my enemies live in paradise on the expense of them unjustly putting me in hell, while i love/enjoy my hell and live happily to serve/love everyone/everything including my enemies who put me in hell", love is "me only loving the ones who love me and sexually loving a wife"

what i want now is mainly real vengeance against my enemies(any my relatives and all or nearly all of the Egyptians) and the entity the turn them into a simulation that put me in hell and blame me for it

my relatives and people who belong to the their type of people that rule Egypt with their unjust-laws/false-religion, control it's media/social-media and besiege/haunt me are treating me like a lowly scary village idiot/homo/ they treated me like shit, cuckolded me tortured/damaged me with noises and scammed me fort my inheritance, they unjustly live in a paradise on the expense of unjustly putting me in hell
and i can not punish them or take back what they took from me so i get out of their hell, every time i try to do successful magic -or feel pleasure/comfort or think about sex- the entity them make instant automatic strategically timed noise that disconnect me away from my thoughts

and there are AI/fate-like self-deceptive entity that puppeteer me and the Egyptians -especially the ones who to make me waste/d my life me in hell, using indirect methods and bullshit excuses that make me look like the one who choose/deserve this and make them able to deny all this and accuse with harming them and being ungrateful for having such good life, therefore they must take away anything good they still let me have

the entity turned all Egypt/Egyptians into crazy simulation that treat me as lowly/scary village-idiot/homo/mentally-ill that is like this and that ignore/deny that if there are something wrong with me, then it is only because their simulation are making me live in hell since my birth

the entity gave me only 30 dollar monthly rent income that my uncle give to me as if he is giving a million dollar to village-idiot as charity, after the entity made my family and the rest of the Egyptians scammed/intimidated me for my land/inheritance and scared/disheartened me from finding descent job
the entity let me live in a timeworn apartment in unbearably noisy neighborhood that i co-own it with my evil enemy relatives and that it did not give me it's deed and it gave me another very-cheap/unfinished one, that are located in another city in the middle of nowhere and that are threatened to be taken from by the unjust Egyptian laws for being closed
then the entity keep showing that there are some females in it's simulation are compatible with me -only from his crazy retarded ignorant point of views- and mostly that happen only if somehow managed to weaken the illness/possession/corruption that the entity make me have by the hell it put me in

the entity keep repetitively do this and insist to ignore the fact of how the fuck someone like me can make my beloved wife live in a descent human life and how in hell i am going to pay for bills/descent food/clothes/medical treatment/transportation with 30 dollars monthly income and hoe the hell someone who love his wife and thus want to her to be secured in a decent life can agree to bring her to live with me under the mercy of my enemies in an apartments that my enemies legally own it with me and that too noisy to make mere "think about sex", nonetheless "have sex"
and it ignore the fact of what the hell i will get from marriage, if i have to pay for it by wasting most of my day working in the shitty hellish humiliating jobs that he want me to work in

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for decades and in an automatic and blindly-repetitive way, the entity use everyone/everything to send the same retreaded messages to me to convince me with utter nonsensical illogical unrealistic bullshit, like:
[anything bad in your life happen only because you chose/deserve it because you are mindless/evil... you need love not money, dignity/respect, marriage/sex and just-vengeance...humiliation is modesty and dignity is arrogance/false-pride...money is an illusions, pleasure/sex with a wife is bad or nothing at all, not vital desire/love...you live better than others because you still have some good things in your life -like sugar/bread and my apartments- that you must stop ignoring/not-enjoying it, or it will be justice to be taken from you- forget about money/sex and live without ego like zombie to love/serve everything/everyone including rich married people who unjustly put you in hell, because this is the real love not marriage/sex]
the entity even sent me two messages like this through songs that i was playing while i was writing this thread
like:
i noticed that the two songs are sung by singers with feminist tendencies and Egyptian one always sing about being light-worshipers

they say things like this to me, while all or nearly all who say this to me like Umm-Kulthum/maddona are married/have-sex and/or are filthy rich
motherfucking lairs is using love songs to brainwash us to accept the injustice of the society/system that made them rich/famous/sexual-satsdfied

the entity also keep manipulating me and manipulating reality/people to make it proof that this bullshit is truth, only proof it in his self-deceptive mind

Last Edited by him,,,, on 05/01/2022 09:42 AM