You obviously have a porn addiction. Close the curtains and pull out the Vaseline. That’s a bad habit and in all seriousness it will have spiritual consequences. All these beautiful women you fantasize about will be dust and bones and the only thing that will matter is if they knew the Lord or not. Your skin colour or beauty will mean nothing at the end of it all. When the flesh dies the soul ejects from the body and if you do not know the Lord you will die in your sins and perish. All these women have temporary praise from men who enjoy watching them but at the end of it all they would have wished they lived life the way they were created to live it, and that’s not whoring themselves around so vulnerable lust filled men can fall into their trap. Wake up dude. At the end of your life you will see how meaningless skin colour and beauty is.