Im so depressed I cant function

OP, I know this is not for everyone, and I'm not giving medical advice, just what worked for me.

I went to see the psychiatrist.

Now before many come at me with "psych is pharma's demonic arm", I do believe in the science of psychiatry.

I was a hot mess. I was so depressed and hopeless. I have CPTSD myself manifested in personality disorders. Same shit basically.

Anyway, I let the doctor know the symptoms and it's only been a month and I feel like a different person.

I am alone with my kids and shit is lonely and depressing. I'm in a new city where I don't know that many people, but it's not longer this existential debilitating can't manage depression and anxiety situation anymore. I'm more level headed and I feel confident I can handle life again, if that makes sense. The depression went from a 9 to a 3.

The emotions are more manageable and I don't feel the worst hopelessness I used to experience.

It's more like normal sadness or fear or anger.

No doctor has never asked me if I have a weapon, but I live in Florida. They don't ask or care here. At least with me.

Now rejection from the wife can be sad with meds or not. That's rejection that probably stirs up the PSTD, since allot of trauma is relational and when a loved one rejects you, it activates the nervous system and the post traumatic stress kicks in.

That's hard either way but it should be more manageable with some support for your body and mind.

OP - can you not even muster enough courage to respond to these helpful replies? Man up and make an effort for God’s sake.

Find a purpose and run with it. You say you’re retired so maybe go visit a animal shelter and volunteer. You can’t be sad while you’re there taking care of unconditional loving furry angels. Dogs will sooth your soul. Or help out at a homeless shelter. Giving is the gift of life.

Here is my all purpose advice. :)

1) Make sure you are taking a complete mineral supplement. Magnesium especially which is required for your heart to beat correctly. And Dr. Lugol's iodine, 3 drops a day in a glass of water. Everyone is deficienct in iodine. Iodine affects your metabolic rate., and many other things in the body (brain and eyes).

2) If you haven't done a deworming, you should do one. Our government or doctors should be recommending these things.
You can buy an extract of black walnut that kills worms, or just take a commecial dewormer like Ivermectin.If you have never done a deworming, you likely have at least one type of worm in you. People can live with worms, but probably better not to have worms eating you from the inside out. People get worms from eating salads, drinking water from outdoor water fountains, streams, just walking in bare feet, or swimming in a natural pond or river. If you have lived any kind of actual life, you have worms.

3) control just a few things in your diet. Reduce wheat intake, especially pizza. And of course avoid Fructose like the plague. (It used to be in just about anything sweet. That shit should be illegal.

4) Get out in the Sun at least 15 minutes each day.

5) If you can find a little time, practice Tai Chi.
just get a DVD or cue up an exercise show on a ROKU or something. Improves flexibility and stress levels.

6) If your back hurts, the Tai Chi will help a lot. And or go to a legit oriental massage place and get someone that knows their stuff to fix your back. Every joint in the back needs to move a little bit to prevent joints from "getting stuck". Stuck vertabrae cause pain, and just put you in a shitty mood. Get all those faceted joints mobilized and you will feel like you are floating on a cloud.

7) Coffee. Everyone should drink at least 4 cups throughout the day. (feel free to ignore that one. For me, it is essential, but others may not need it).

8) Allergies. If you are like most people, you have had endless inocualtions for all the stupid diseases they give shots for these days. These jack with your immune system, hypersensitizing it to... well anything. Immunize less, and try to baby your immune system.

9) Eat a thing of live yogurt or drink Kefir a couple times a week to rebuild your gut flora.

10) Heal your gut by cooking chicken stew. Put the whole chicken in the big pot and boil it gently for about 2 or 3 hours. Modern diet of fast food lacks collegen and dissolved animal cartiledge that is necessary to nave a healthy gut and also to keep your joints healthy.

11) Eat at least 3 whole eggs, gently cooked per day. And avoid statin drugs. Cholesterol is essential to life and brain function.

12) Eat a diet that resembles the paleo diet. Meat, fat, etc.

13) Minimize most vegetables and fruits. Most vegetables try to slowly kill you with Lectins. Broccoli and I think cabbage would be the exceptions. Learn to make stuffed cabbage and make it routinely, like every 10 days. Jennycancook on Youtube has a video reciipe that tastes great.
Many things like corn have been engineered to make their own internal pesticides. Call me old fashioned, but I try to avoid eating pesticides. Also, potatoes are sprayed with a pesticide/sprout inhibitor so they will last longer in storage. wash potatoes thoroughly, or buy organic, or minimize them in the diet. Some things like tomatoes are OK if cooked, but raw they have a lot of lectins that can harm you.

14) Find something that interests you or some skill you need to live and maintain your home, vehicle, whatever. Fixing something yourself is rewarding. Youtube instructional videos are out there for just about everything.

15) Get a better mattress if you are not sleeping properly.

16) learn about herbal remedies and seasonings. There are herbs that will calm inflammation, give you a bit more energy, and just generally be healthier. Tonic herbs like Radix Astragalus, Atractylodes made like a 30 minute slow brewed tea, and seasoning like Turmeric which is good to add to fatty dishes.

Regardless of how ugly the world gets, try to brighten up your little corner of it. Try and help someone with something when you can.

Well, that should get you started.

(I originally gave that advice on this other recent thread.
Figured I would just cut and paste it rather than try to remember it all again. :)

Thread: Anyone else getting sick of feeling depleted of physical energy 24/7? (Page 4)

Last Edited by JustmeTX on 05/17/2022 11:59 PM

EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE

Nutritional Depression is real.

Your mind, body will not work properly if your diet is not optimal. Preservatives, chemicals, sugar, colorings, artificial stimulants, etc. all play a part in weakening your immune system, denying you of energy, a restful sleep and thus putting you in a depressed state. There are two brains, the mind and the gut.

A daily glass of lemon water will begin detoxing the liver and assist in hormone balance. Take note that the word Liver also contains the word LIVE.

Start journaling about your PSTD. Getting it out of your mind and on paper helps. When negative thoughts return, acknowledge them and then put them aside turning to better kinder thoughts. There may be helps groups on meetups.com or craigslist in your area that can be helpful.

Nature heals. Even if all you can muster is a short walk then do it! It clears the mind, allows you to see beauty, reconnects you to your community, gets the heart pumping.

A pet offers unconditional love and companionship as well as a purpose for you to take care of, love it back.

What is this Christian stuff? Why put unrealistic expectations on yourself?

You’re human, and like all of us, have ups and downs throughout life. Some of these ‘downs’ take a long time to work through but you can if you accept yourself without shame and see your own magnificence and know God is right by your side.

Shall I finish the job for you ?

Better yet, instead of sitting around trying to find the spine to put the bullet in your head

Join me in a noble quest, very dangerous,
You're chance of survival iffy, laurels & honor in case of success!

Between us ? These High priests have succumbed to overindulgence

Bad shepherds, lost in a world of ghosts

We're doing em a fuckin favor..

Sirusly bro, what happened to ur balls bruh

Washed up illuminated(more like darkened) pussies

Sit on this, cocksuckers:D





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So much insensitivity towards him. To the person that told him to “man up” and “don’t be a sissy,” (you misspelled sissy, which makes me think you’re a foreigner, probably a hateful, domineering, materialistic, superficial Asian or Indian female.) The guy sounds like he’s on the brink of suicide. It’s something you don’t even think of when you mindlessly tap away at keys, thinking you’re being witty or clever. You aren’t. No one in crisis mode appreciates that kind of demeaning talk and if you were in his frame of mind, you wouldn’t either. You sound like you’re incapable of empathy. Your words could directly cause him to harm himself which puts you on the level of not even being a human being. You aren’t even that same species as the rest of us. I don’t know what you are but whatever it is, you’re an aberration to whatever God you might or might not worship. An aberration to all of creation, in fact.

To the guy suffering and wanting to give up-a lot of us-male and female alike, are feeling the way you do right now. Sometimes it’s intermittent, and sometimes it seems to drag on and on.
I really like the advice to get exercise. Whatever your body can handle right now, do it. Most of my perceived problems seem to fester with stasis and inactivity. Go for a walk around your block. Spend time in nature. Try to understand that the feeling state you’re in right now is just that, a state. A transient emotion, like all emotions.

You said you don’t know how to be Christian anymore. I’m not going to tell you to go to church or even to read the Bible. What saved me, what ignited God’s presence in my life, were the saints and mystics. Study them. Study the visions they had and the encounters with God. There is such miraculousness and wonderment among them. Listen to the things they have to say about God, and believe them. Many had publicly documented supernatural powers and experiences like stigmata, levitation, healing abilities, and clairvoyance. Wild stuff.
There was a Saint and Mystic-St Joseph of Cupertino. His case seemed hopeless. He loved God but no one wanted him because he was believed to be disabled and would frequently fall into trances. The people ridiculed him. He was forced to live in the livestock barn of a monastery. This is where his life changed and his supernatural abilities and direct encounters with God became evident to everyone around him. It might be worth looking into. His story may save you. I tell you this because I love you, you are my brother. More importantly, God loves you and wants you.

Real true prayer and repeated constantly ask and keep on asking.

Hey.

I know how you feel.

I don't know what to do about it either.

I see the same spinning wheel of endless useless fixers.

None of it helps me either.

I'm not Christian. I don't have that dilemma but I was raised by Christians.

I'd cut off someone's ear (probably trying to chop a head and missing, but whatever) like Peter but christ would still love me.

I'd pray God to smite my enemies like King David and God would still consider me a friend.

My point is that being a goody two shoes is not Christian and there isn't any such requirement, but actually, it's just that God loved you anyway even if you're a wicked piece of garbage.

That aside it doesn't mean you'll inherently be forgiven for any old thing. But it surely means you don't have to try so hard to be "good" or "right" or "perfect".

Loving the goodness of what is right must be enough for an all knowing Supreme divine creator who can see the ones that yearn for purity and the ones who constantly seek excuses.

Open up to what you are and be it. God sees the sincerity you show.

It's okay to be damn sad and even to whimper. It's fine to cry.

Just find a good place to stop.

Whenever I cry without lying to myself about how I feel, without trying to be something I'm not, the way I see gets transformed. I mean literally, I see differently. My vision clears.

I haven't written this to tell you what to do or think or believe. Just - it's okay. I understand.

It's hard. I don't pretend it isn't.

Pretending doesn't help.

But hey, I'll level with you and say that I also am no stranger to depression

Only advice I believe is worthwhile is to simply look on the bright side

And this too shall pass

Godspeed

Uh, maybe the Military?

Matthew 24 13 But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

This is not a game you have to win, it's just one you have to play - until the end. You can do it.

How do you talk to counselors anonymously?

Good post, great information. Thanks. Inflammation is a bitch!

The only help they have is bad drugs that fuck up your brain.

If you're not depressed, you aren't paying attention. We are all in this boat because we care.
Diet helps. MSG is a bad stimulant for your brain so avoid all junk food and flavored chips. Eating blood is not good. Being a vegetarian helps me. Pot helps. Talking with Jesus helps. We are facing the worst time this planet has ever seen, and it's hard to face the future knowing what is inevitable.
I handle it by telling myself we all die anyway, why not go in a big event instead of lying sick in a bed?
As for your wife, she's probably scared, too. I agree, talk with her. She is rejecting you because you have done or said something to alienate her. You can undo that, it just take humility and actual love on your part.

ps. My ex came back to be forgiven after 25 yrs. He wants his family back. We have two grown sons. He abandoned me when I needed him most and raised the boys alone. Now he wants our love and has returned in full humility. It was hard, but for the sake of healing of my sons' hearts, I have accepted him back. We can never be intimate again, but we can be family. God knew that we needed to be together for what is coming.
If God can make my ex see the error of his ways and humble him, He can do it for anyone. He told me to just obey and love because there are things coming that I can't see and I just have to trust God in this.

No, no .. talk to "ber" too.

anyone suffering from depression to anxiety long term
god bless you.

Read this and get the supplements posted:

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I suffer from terrible, debilitating depression as well- and I also take Kratom. I take it for some chronic pain conditions, but it doesn't really help my depression. It tends to make me very angry, like opiates did when I used to take those. The best Kratom might do is give me a bit of a boost in the morning, but after taking it numerous times throughout the day, I find that lift is mostly gone.

I have the same issues you're describing, but I've been resisting the medication route. Are you saying that5 what you tried, or just counseling?

You should also read that article I posted in the post above yours.

"to be a Christian any more" - you don't have to try brother, just be.

What's scary is, I've said these EXACT words today... and felt the same feelings you express in your thread body as they've been getting consistently beyond beyond beyond overbearing the past 6 months... There's no words to describe this pit of a feeling...
When you've thought you've reached rock bottom... don't be so sure because from the sound of it... OP and I reside a couple hundred feet below rock bottom...

That mystery "gravity" sure has the effect that they explain it to be on us, just chin scraping along the paths of Sheoul..

Don't give up man.

If you're anything like me you know that there's nothing here for you and the darkness wants nothing more for you to give up and not pass our test..

We might not get our credit where it's due here, but one day we shall and we know it.

Push on brother.. if you want to talk email me...

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Yeah I catch your drift. Sounds pretty un-Christian like, huh?
It's not how he meant it though I'm pretty sure.
I understand what he meant.

God bless and godspeed my friends.

Being a jihadi?

You should cleanse yourself of the Christian programming and give it life to Lucifer. The truly righteous god that'll save us all from the false cults of our world.