I can't even remember what I did in a hour ago all time.when I quit weed for a month.my memories come back and I get smater

There was only a few of us in some big cave,all sudden Jesus came out a cave within the cave.when Jesus was appearing there was a light behind him.jesus looked at me and I got scared.i felt like Jesus was going to take me to the other side of life.then I got scared,because I lived a sinful life n I knew I wasn't supposed to go heaven with Jesus because of my sinful life I lived.so I closed my eyes.when I closed my eyes.i could see human spirit's where Jesus was standing while my eyes were closed,then I woke up feeling scared