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OP, I am 10,000% confident your son is not looking at you with contempt for needing money.

He likely feels terrible that you’re in the position you’re in, knowing you made enormous sacrifices for HIS benefit.

But whatever you do….

Do not EVER cause him to feel that he is somehow responsible for your situation (even if it’s true). It will alter his psychological foundation for the remainder of his life.

As men, we make sacrifices for our children.

As men, we take those sacrifices to our grave.

I wish you good health and good fortune in your remaining years.

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