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Anonymous Coward User ID: 80922668 Costa Rica 08/10/2022 02:23 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? Last November I had an profound experience that changed my life. I was doing some digging into the Travis Scott Astroworld tragedy and found alot of evidence that this show and the deaths were some sort of satanic sacrifice. There are numerous parallels to satanic imagery, portals and demons contained within this concert. However, I never believed In God and considered myself atheist for my whole life. This still didn't sit right with me. I found an image of the stage taken from an aerial view, it was of an inverted cross, a portal, and mountains behind the portal. I took a screenshot on my phone and was about to send this image to my girlfriend and show her. I edited the picture circling around the inverted cross and portal and mountains and then I experienced something that changed my life. Everything started shaking, it felt like there was an earthquake, and I was in my car at the time, I put the windows down to see if the ground was shaking, but it wasn't it was completely still. Then I look at my hands and they are shaking uncontrollably. I then had this overwhelming amount of anxiety come over me and I felt like I was having a panic attack, which I've never experienced in this intensity before. I started having shortness of breath and felt like my chest was being compressed. And then I look down at phone on my center console. The image of the stage was glowing and then I could feel what I could only describe as extremely heavy bass like at a concert pulsating throughout my body, as if it were sucking my soul. And I could hear it too, and it sounded as if a enormous portal was directly in front of me. At that point I realized whatever I was experiencing was because of that image I circled, and in that moment I started believing in God and in evil supernatural forces. I deleted the picture and erased all the history of the Travis Scott on my phone and I started pacing around outside. I began crying and fell to my knees begging God for His forgiveness. I lived my life up until this point as a very sinful human. I was not a good person and caused much suffering for many people around me. My father left when I was very young and I was raised in a trauma enduring household, and i began getting into the wrong crowd and doing bad things at a young age. My mom tried to instill Christian values on me but i rebelled, began engaging in many addictive behaviors like overeating, fantasizing about sex and pornography, and playing video games for most of my time. I eventually started binge drinking alcohol, and stealing it from stores. I started listing to satanic death metal and would spend my high school years harassing people, vandalizing homes and cars, and even once tried to burn a church down with a molotov cocktail. I then joined the Marines after high school and deployed to Afghanistan when i was 19 years old. I endured a lot of mental trauma during my time in and began spiraling further downward into these addictive behaviors to cope with the PTSD, depression, and anxiety. Later i fell into more addictions, with social media prominence, drug usage, and promiscuous sex with many women. I began using many other drugs regularly including cocaine, ecstasy, LSD, mushrooms, and xanax, and sterois, sometimes many at once. I had no care for myself or others around me. I essentially worshipped myself and engulfed in many sinful pleasures and little did I know that I was completely enslaved by it all. I stopped drinking alcohol and using hard drugs 5 years ago this October In 2017 after my 3rd arrest in that year, which was a 2nd DUI. I've made many mistakes in my past however I have already turned away from many of these things in the last few years. In the moments after I begged God for His forgiveness, I could feel this tremendous weight lifted off of me, and I felt a dark cloud leaving me. The shame, guilt, and pain of my past had left me and the shackles were released. I then looked at the sky and a huge sense of gratitude came over me and a thought of how beautiful it is came into my mind. I could finally see. Later that day I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and asked for His Spirit to fill me. And I feel His Spirit all the time. Whether it's a thought in my head that would get me to do something incredibly nice for someone I don't know, or if it's a sense of peace when I'm feeling anxious. The Spirit is always here with me now guiding me. Before being saved I was undoubtedly deserving of hell for all the sins I committed. I was a depressed, lost soul, no longer able to enjoy life. But now, I've been filled with the fruits of the Spirit: Joy, Gratitude, Peace, Love, Kindness, Gentleness, Patience. I was once very anxious, angry, negative and scared for the future. But now, even with how crazy the world is, I have the greatest sense of joy and peace that rests in my soul. I believe because I was searching for the Truth, that God revealed hell to me. That few seconds was all it took for me to realize hell exists and this is no place I want to be. Nothing had ever terrified me more in my life. Nothing could ever make me go back to the way I was now knowing what I know and believing what I believe. I went from a full blown atheist to without a doubt knowing that He exists in a second. The greatest trick the devil ever played is making the world believe he does not exist! God Bless you all! 🙏 Quoting: Benjamin 83719617 |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 83037091 United States 08/10/2022 02:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? New International Version I form the light and create darkness, I bring prosperity and create disaster; I, the LORD, do all these things. n I create the light and make the darkness. I send good times and bad times. I, the LORD, am the one who does these things. English Standard Version I form light and create darkness; I make well-being and create calamity; I am the LORD, who does all these things. Berean Study Bible I form the light and create the darkness; I bring prosperity and create calamity. I, the LORD, do all these things. King James Bible I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things. New King James Version I form the light and create darkness, I make peace and create calamity; I, the LORD, do all these things.’ It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see that the way that is spoken of cannot be the way. Scrub your brain. It’s got a ton of junk in it. |
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User ID: 83813785 United States 08/10/2022 02:38 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? New International Version Quoting: Anonymous Coward 83037091 I form the light and create darkness, I bring prosperity and create disaster; I, the LORD, do all these things. n I create the light and make the darkness. I send good times and bad times. I, the LORD, am the one who does these things. English Standard Version I form light and create darkness; I make well-being and create calamity; I am the LORD, who does all these things. Berean Study Bible I form the light and create the darkness; I bring prosperity and create calamity. I, the LORD, do all these things. King James Bible I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things. New King James Version I form the light and create darkness, I make peace and create calamity; I, the LORD, do all these things.’ It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see that the way that is spoken of cannot be the way. Scrub your brain. It’s got a ton of junk in it. Pretty simple to understand, the lack of understanding is only because you have blinded yourself. |
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User ID: 83813785 United States 08/10/2022 03:58 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? I have experienced that exact same heavy bass feeling when I encountered a fallen angel, froze my body in place and I fell over like a block of wood. Quoting: Fiestyfiddle So I know your story is legit. I also joined the Marines at the age of 19 back in 07, platoon 1064. Thanks for sharing, there are more than a few of us. When I encounter someone that is demon possessed I also hear a deep buzzing in my ears. The energy also feels almost electric. The air gets heavy and thick feeling as well. I'm glad to see that people have turned to believing in God and Jesus after their experiences. There is always a chance that in the cloud of supernatural experience, people interpret incorrectly. I came to believe the Fallen angel was an Alien. I was very new age for years, it took unexplainable graces from Christ to finally reveal the Truth, that he is truly the only Way. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 74420774 United States 08/10/2022 04:04 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? Last November I had an profound experience that changed my life. I was doing some digging into the Travis Scott Astroworld tragedy and found alot of evidence that this show and the deaths were some sort of satanic sacrifice. There are numerous parallels to satanic imagery, portals and demons contained within this concert. However, I never believed In God and considered myself atheist for my whole life. This still didn't sit right with me. I found an image of the stage taken from an aerial view, it was of an inverted cross, a portal, and mountains behind the portal. I took a screenshot on my phone and was about to send this image to my girlfriend and show her. I edited the picture circling around the inverted cross and portal and mountains and then I experienced something that changed my life. Everything started shaking, it felt like there was an earthquake, and I was in my car at the time, I put the windows down to see if the ground was shaking, but it wasn't it was completely still. Then I look at my hands and they are shaking uncontrollably. I then had this overwhelming amount of anxiety come over me and I felt like I was having a panic attack, which I've never experienced in this intensity before. I started having shortness of breath and felt like my chest was being compressed. And then I look down at phone on my center console. The image of the stage was glowing and then I could feel what I could only describe as extremely heavy bass like at a concert pulsating throughout my body, as if it were sucking my soul. And I could hear it too, and it sounded as if a enormous portal was directly in front of me. At that point I realized whatever I was experiencing was because of that image I circled, and in that moment I started believing in God and in evil supernatural forces. I deleted the picture and erased all the history of the Travis Scott on my phone and I started pacing around outside. I began crying and fell to my knees begging God for His forgiveness. I lived my life up until this point as a very sinful human. I was not a good person and caused much suffering for many people around me. My father left when I was very young and I was raised in a trauma enduring household, and i began getting into the wrong crowd and doing bad things at a young age. My mom tried to instill Christian values on me but i rebelled, began engaging in many addictive behaviors like overeating, fantasizing about sex and pornography, and playing video games for most of my time. I eventually started binge drinking alcohol, and stealing it from stores. I started listing to satanic death metal and would spend my high school years harassing people, vandalizing homes and cars, and even once tried to burn a church down with a molotov cocktail. I then joined the Marines after high school and deployed to Afghanistan when i was 19 years old. I endured a lot of mental trauma during my time in and began spiraling further downward into these addictive behaviors to cope with the PTSD, depression, and anxiety. Later i fell into more addictions, with social media prominence, drug usage, and promiscuous sex with many women. I began using many other drugs regularly including cocaine, ecstasy, LSD, mushrooms, and xanax, and sterois, sometimes many at once. I had no care for myself or others around me. I essentially worshipped myself and engulfed in many sinful pleasures and little did I know that I was completely enslaved by it all. I stopped drinking alcohol and using hard drugs 5 years ago this October In 2017 after my 3rd arrest in that year, which was a 2nd DUI. I've made many mistakes in my past however I have already turned away from many of these things in the last few years. In the moments after I begged God for His forgiveness, I could feel this tremendous weight lifted off of me, and I felt a dark cloud leaving me. The shame, guilt, and pain of my past had left me and the shackles were released. I then looked at the sky and a huge sense of gratitude came over me and a thought of how beautiful it is came into my mind. I could finally see. Later that day I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and asked for His Spirit to fill me. And I feel His Spirit all the time. Whether it's a thought in my head that would get me to do something incredibly nice for someone I don't know, or if it's a sense of peace when I'm feeling anxious. The Spirit is always here with me now guiding me. Before being saved I was undoubtedly deserving of hell for all the sins I committed. I was a depressed, lost soul, no longer able to enjoy life. But now, I've been filled with the fruits of the Spirit: Joy, Gratitude, Peace, Love, Kindness, Gentleness, Patience. I was once very anxious, angry, negative and scared for the future. But now, even with how crazy the world is, I have the greatest sense of joy and peace that rests in my soul. I believe because I was searching for the Truth, that God revealed hell to me. That few seconds was all it took for me to realize hell exists and this is no place I want to be. Nothing had ever terrified me more in my life. Nothing could ever make me go back to the way I was now knowing what I know and believing what I believe. I went from a full blown atheist to without a doubt knowing that He exists in a second. The greatest trick the devil ever played is making the world believe he does not exist! God Bless you all! 🙏 Quoting: Benjamin 83719617 OMG!! This is the worst thing I have ever tried to read. Dear God man, paragraphs!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Unreadable and that is too bad because I was truly interested in reading it! |
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User ID: 83813785 United States 08/10/2022 04:08 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? Last November I had an profound experience that changed my life. I was doing some digging into the Travis Scott Astroworld tragedy and found alot of evidence that this show and the deaths were some sort of satanic sacrifice. There are numerous parallels to satanic imagery, portals and demons contained within this concert. However, I never believed In God and considered myself atheist for my whole life. This still didn't sit right with me. I found an image of the stage taken from an aerial view, it was of an inverted cross, a portal, and mountains behind the portal. I took a screenshot on my phone and was about to send this image to my girlfriend and show her. I edited the picture circling around the inverted cross and portal and mountains and then I experienced something that changed my life. Everything started shaking, it felt like there was an earthquake, and I was in my car at the time, I put the windows down to see if the ground was shaking, but it wasn't it was completely still. Then I look at my hands and they are shaking uncontrollably. I then had this overwhelming amount of anxiety come over me and I felt like I was having a panic attack, which I've never experienced in this intensity before. I started having shortness of breath and felt like my chest was being compressed. And then I look down at phone on my center console. The image of the stage was glowing and then I could feel what I could only describe as extremely heavy bass like at a concert pulsating throughout my body, as if it were sucking my soul. And I could hear it too, and it sounded as if a enormous portal was directly in front of me. At that point I realized whatever I was experiencing was because of that image I circled, and in that moment I started believing in God and in evil supernatural forces. I deleted the picture and erased all the history of the Travis Scott on my phone and I started pacing around outside. I began crying and fell to my knees begging God for His forgiveness. I lived my life up until this point as a very sinful human. I was not a good person and caused much suffering for many people around me. My father left when I was very young and I was raised in a trauma enduring household, and i began getting into the wrong crowd and doing bad things at a young age. My mom tried to instill Christian values on me but i rebelled, began engaging in many addictive behaviors like overeating, fantasizing about sex and pornography, and playing video games for most of my time. I eventually started binge drinking alcohol, and stealing it from stores. I started listing to satanic death metal and would spend my high school years harassing people, vandalizing homes and cars, and even once tried to burn a church down with a molotov cocktail. I then joined the Marines after high school and deployed to Afghanistan when i was 19 years old. I endured a lot of mental trauma during my time in and began spiraling further downward into these addictive behaviors to cope with the PTSD, depression, and anxiety. Later i fell into more addictions, with social media prominence, drug usage, and promiscuous sex with many women. I began using many other drugs regularly including cocaine, ecstasy, LSD, mushrooms, and xanax, and sterois, sometimes many at once. I had no care for myself or others around me. I essentially worshipped myself and engulfed in many sinful pleasures and little did I know that I was completely enslaved by it all. I stopped drinking alcohol and using hard drugs 5 years ago this October In 2017 after my 3rd arrest in that year, which was a 2nd DUI. I've made many mistakes in my past however I have already turned away from many of these things in the last few years. In the moments after I begged God for His forgiveness, I could feel this tremendous weight lifted off of me, and I felt a dark cloud leaving me. The shame, guilt, and pain of my past had left me and the shackles were released. I then looked at the sky and a huge sense of gratitude came over me and a thought of how beautiful it is came into my mind. I could finally see. Later that day I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and asked for His Spirit to fill me. And I feel His Spirit all the time. Whether it's a thought in my head that would get me to do something incredibly nice for someone I don't know, or if it's a sense of peace when I'm feeling anxious. The Spirit is always here with me now guiding me. Before being saved I was undoubtedly deserving of hell for all the sins I committed. I was a depressed, lost soul, no longer able to enjoy life. But now, I've been filled with the fruits of the Spirit: Joy, Gratitude, Peace, Love, Kindness, Gentleness, Patience. I was once very anxious, angry, negative and scared for the future. But now, even with how crazy the world is, I have the greatest sense of joy and peace that rests in my soul. I believe because I was searching for the Truth, that God revealed hell to me. That few seconds was all it took for me to realize hell exists and this is no place I want to be. Nothing had ever terrified me more in my life. Nothing could ever make me go back to the way I was now knowing what I know and believing what I believe. I went from a full blown atheist to without a doubt knowing that He exists in a second. The greatest trick the devil ever played is making the world believe he does not exist! God Bless you all! 🙏 Quoting: Benjamin 83719617 OMG!! This is the worst thing I have ever tried to read. Dear God man, paragraphs!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Unreadable and that is too bad because I was truly interested in reading it! I can attest as a Crayon eating Marine, most of us did not do well in English class. Myself excluded. |
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User ID: 81536106 United States 08/10/2022 04:30 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? I have experienced that exact same heavy bass feeling when I encountered a fallen angel, froze my body in place and I fell over like a block of wood. Quoting: Fiestyfiddle So I know your story is legit. I also joined the Marines at the age of 19 back in 07, platoon 1064. Thanks for sharing, there are more than a few of us. When I encounter someone that is demon possessed I also hear a deep buzzing in my ears. The energy also feels almost electric. The air gets heavy and thick feeling as well. I'm glad to see that people have turned to believing in God and Jesus after their experiences. There is always a chance that in the cloud of supernatural experience, people interpret incorrectly. I came to believe the Fallen angel was an Alien. I was very new age for years, it took unexplainable graces from Christ to finally reveal the Truth, that he is truly the only Way. I believe they are fallen angels as well. |
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User ID: 83813785 United States 08/10/2022 04:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Has anyone experienced anything so supernatural that it caused them to repent and believe in God? I have experienced that exact same heavy bass feeling when I encountered a fallen angel, froze my body in place and I fell over like a block of wood. Quoting: Fiestyfiddle So I know your story is legit. I also joined the Marines at the age of 19 back in 07, platoon 1064. Thanks for sharing, there are more than a few of us. When I encounter someone that is demon possessed I also hear a deep buzzing in my ears. The energy also feels almost electric. The air gets heavy and thick feeling as well. I'm glad to see that people have turned to believing in God and Jesus after their experiences. There is always a chance that in the cloud of supernatural experience, people interpret incorrectly. I came to believe the Fallen angel was an Alien. I was very new age for years, it took unexplainable graces from Christ to finally reveal the Truth, that he is truly the only Way. I believe they are fallen angels as well. Indeed, it lead me down a path that showed me the framework of authority. You see this in the structure of the Bible itself. It led me down a path of testing the words of those who lead different Christian fellowships. Now, I am among the most hated and most popular of all Christian schools of thought. Maybe I'm wrong, but the scriptures kept screaming at me to look at the version of Christianity I disliked and argued against the most. Doesn't help that the current pope is the least Christlike version we've ever had. |
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I edited the picture circling around the inverted cross and portal and mountains and then I experienced something that changed my life. Everything started shaking, it felt like there was an earthquake, and I was in my car at the time, I put the windows down to see if the ground was shaking, but it wasn't it was completely still. Then I look at my hands and they are shaking uncontrollably. I then had this overwhelming amount of anxiety come over me and I felt like I was having a panic attack, which I've never experienced in this intensity before. I started having shortness of breath and felt like my chest was being compressed. And then I look down at phone on my center console. The image of the stage was glowing and then I could feel what I could only describe as extremely heavy bass like at a concert pulsating throughout my body, as if it were sucking my soul. And I could hear it too, and it sounded as if a enormous portal was directly in front of me. At that point I realized whatever I was experiencing was because of that image I circled, and in that moment I started believing in God and in evil supernatural forces. I deleted the picture and erased all the history of the Travis Scott on my phone and I started pacing around outside. I began crying and fell to my knees begging God for His forgiveness. I lived my life up until this point as a very sinful human. I was not a good person and caused much suffering for many people around me. My father left when I was very young and I was raised in a trauma enduring household, and I began getting into the wrong crowd and doing bad things at a young age. My mom tried to instill Christian values on me but I rebelled, began engaging in many addictive behaviors like overeating, fantasizing about sex and pornography, and playing video games for most of my time. I eventually started binge drinking alcohol, and stealing it from stores. I started listing to satanic death metal and would spend my high school years harassing people, vandalizing homes and cars, and even once tried to burn a church down with a molotov cocktail. I then joined the Marines after high school and deployed to Afghanistan when I was 19 years old. I endured a lot of mental trauma during my time in and began spiraling further downward into these addictive behaviors to cope with the PTSD, depression, and anxiety. Later I fell into more addictions, with social media prominence, drug usage, and promiscuous sex with many women. I began using many other drugs regularly including cocaine, ecstasy, LSD, mushrooms, and xanax, and sterois, sometimes many at once. I had no care for myself or others around me. I essentially worshipped myself and engulfed in many sinful pleasures and little did I know that I was completely enslaved by it all. I stopped drinking alcohol and using hard drugs 5 years ago this October In 2017 after my 3rd arrest in that year, which was a 2nd DUI. I've made many mistakes in my past however I have already turned away from many of these things in the last few years. In the moments after I begged God for His forgiveness, I could feel this tremendous weight lifted off of me, and I felt a dark cloud leaving me. The shame, guilt, and pain of my past had left me and the shackles were released. I then looked at the sky and a huge sense of gratitude came over me and a thought of how beautiful it is came into my mind. I could finally see. Later that day I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and asked for His Spirit to fill me. And I feel His Spirit all the time. Whether it's a thought in my head that would get me to do something incredibly nice for someone I don't know, or if it's a sense of peace when I'm feeling anxious. The Spirit is always here with me now guiding me. Before being saved I was undoubtedly deserving of hell for all the sins I committed. I was a depressed, lost soul, no longer able to enjoy life. But now, I've been filled with the fruits of the Spirit: Joy, Gratitude, Peace, Love, Kindness, Gentleness, Patience. I was once very anxious, angry, negative and scared for the future. But now, even with how crazy the world is, I have the greatest sense of joy and peace that rests in my soul. I believe because I was searching for the Truth, that God revealed hell to me. That few seconds was all it took for me to realize hell exists and this is no place I want to be. Nothing had ever terrified me more in my life. Nothing could ever make me go back to the way I was now knowing what I know and believing what I believe. I went from a full blown atheist to without a doubt knowing that He exists in a second. The greatest trick the devil ever played is making the world believe he does not exist! God Bless you all! |