OBE from fever dream during close to 105 covid fever, thought i was dead, met an entity which can only be described as something from the old testament, an apt description would be an orphanim, it could see everything, my life, my soul, my essence, but it didnt render the judgement, i judged myself and i was ashamed.

I was absolutely in awe and terrified of it/them, it seemed like each eye/crystal/wing was a consciousness of itself, it explained it meant no harm, that it wasnt my time, but that it was important i be informed and humbled and guided because bad things are coming aliens/demons and i need to prepare myself and i have a job to do, i wasnt sure if id met god, or the devil or aliens, i begged and prayed to jesus and god... and said id endure 1000 years of this feeling if it meant the people i loved who i think are good innocent people were spared from harm, and that i promised if the end times are coming i will do my best to protect the innocent, this seemed to satisfy it... i think it conveyed the message that what matters is our heart.

its impossible to explain in any way which seems rational or scientific, maybe my brain flooded itself with DMT i dont know.. anyway it told me some stuff but i forgot a ton of it, the gist of it was that god is going to allow evil to spread unchecked as a test of our character because it is peoples free will and choices and their own judgement that is important for us to grow and learn spiritually. I think we chose to be here, and even to suffer as silly as it sounds because its a test. These things see truth and see right through us, even if we are lying to ourselves, they see all.

Ive done psychedelics before and this was something else, it felt real, it felt like i went somewhere else, another dimension perhaps, im basically an agnostic atheist and kind of still am, i think the biblical and spiritual texts and legends are some kind of allegory for something more that is almost impossible to explain with written language.. Absolutely convinced our soul/essence is immortal and we chose to be here now, it took me over 6 months to be able to even talk about this because i was still getting upset and tearful thinking about it.

I've asked for it to come back and got absolutely blasted on marajuana and stuff and nothing. Im lost.