Im going to stop communicating with my mom and I dont care what society tells me or if I look like a bad son.

At 40 years old, I finally have the guts to do it and thats end all communication with my mom.

I cant believe it took me this long to realise how wicked she is. Because it was my mother who clothed me, put food on the table, and raised me, those things she did casted a halo affect on me where I wouldnt dare see her in a negative light. Her authoritative figure and being raised to have respect for mom and dad blinded me from seeing how much of a pos she really is.

Now that i made this decision to cut her out of my life, im more angrier than ever, more so at myself for not doing it sooner. Im having flash backs of all our arguments, the shame and guilt she placed on me and im so pissed off at myself for not doing this sooner.

I remember one time she was supposed to go shopping with her in laws and she was on the phone with them. She was telling them how great they are and how she needed them to teach her this and that and how she could learn from them.

When she got off the phone with them, i shit you not, she literally said "that woman is so dumb" and went on to say why shes dumb. Then i said, "why would you say something like that after the good things you told them on the phone?"
"Oh you dont do anything, youre lazy, you sleep all day, you dont pay any bills, just go live with them then stupid!"

I was 15 at the time.

I also remember telling her sister how great her daughter is and seconds when they left our house, she literally said "her daughter is going to be a whore just like her."

I said, thats a mean thing to say after you said all those nice things to their face.

"Oh youre perfect! You can do no wrong. Which is why youre dumb and stupid!"

I shit you not, worse things came out of her mouth which makes those things seem nice. Its like as if demons from hell are speaking some of the most vile, evil, wicked thing.

Im over being mad at her because thats who she is and she cant change. Im pissed off at myself for not seeing her as a pos sooner.

Its so sad cause when I got close to some ppl i would sneak ask them about their moms behavior to see if their mothers acted like mine just to try to prove to myself that my mom wasnt crazy. I kept making excuses for my mom.

No more.

I told my brother, only talk to me about her when shes dying. Other than that, I dont care because if you look at the content that comes out of her mouth, its 95 percent trashing others and 5 percent talking about how great she is.

I dont care that she paid for my health insurance as a kid, worked to pay bills, put food on the table, blah blah blah, i dont care if the family turns on me and sees that im a pos son. If i told them what she said about them they would never forgive her.

Im just going to take the high road and leave and whatever rumors are said about me and whoever believes it, I dont care.