Uneasy

The global populace is largely all malcontented, neurotic, depressed or worse.

It's not just you. All of the reasons.

Yes and a bit of something else. Hope it goes away soon.

I don't know if I like who i am anymore

i don't know if I am just "holding on" and "weathering the storm" or just wasting my life

i don't know what I shoudl be doing about feeling rundown all the time

nothing feels fun... im always worried about "bad people", so I don't join in or enjoy activities... meaning I become the "Bad guy" myself because I just get so cranky being alone.

i don't know what to do.

I have a lot... or a huge amount of good and rare qualities... that makes me happy... so why change what I am doing... protecting myself.

but it doesnt quite feel right.

I feel fine blessed by the lord. Under his wing of guidance

Why not waste your life? Other people are in control of it and do not feel compelled to invest anything in you, or else to allow you to govern your own affairs unmolested. Now it is just suspense because that causes fear and that means better obedience through awe. Just sit there, that's what everyone is supposed to do. You can't stop it if they kill you, so why start any important projects or take any risks?

Then what's the point in living?

Love
Live
Learn

Configuration, still learning from that one however it might not be for everyone.

Boring...Get a Life dum Dum

Learn
Love
Live

Learn
Live
Love

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What are your hobbies OP? Can you get into a likeminded group? Go and get a metal detector for example.

Either join a group. Or go out solitary. It’s good for you in many ways. Exercise. Determination. Patience. And you will get rewarded for that with stimulating finds should you stick at it.

Just a suggestion. I can relate to what you’re saying. Once you find someone decent it’ll change your perception.

Have a good meal. Do some weights. Get a new shirt or whatever. Get a haircut. You should then feel better. Come back and tell us how it is then.

Chin up

Just start not giving a shit about anything. And start drinking and getting high every chance you get, at home, at work, all the time. Forget about all of your responsibilities and obligations. Just have fun. The world will end before the consequences of your actions catch up with you.

Lets just sit here and watch how we feel. try new things, that won't define you'r being... say fuck off at times. Uneasy .. play the eagles and then know nothing rules you but the moment.

Bhakti

^^^ All you need is right there. By focusing on the forces of evil as they unfold their planned global dominance will bring anyone down. Have no part in this world and focus on the coming King, you won't be sad or lonely no more.

I have this permanent feeling like I left the oven on, but I know I didn't.