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cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 80037766 United States 01/02/2023 01:38 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Jeebus fracking crust on a wet cracker.....the things found while doing a simple a net engine search In my mid-20s (1980's) I did cocaine and crank for 1.5 years. I then stopped on a dime....which I've been told can't be done, but I did. Although I did not use coke or crank, I did have nightmares wherein I found myself in front of a big mirror, with a big pile of cocaine on it, and a big fat line made up ready for me. I had those nightmares for six years, 10-12 of them a year. I never used in those dreams. Not a single time did I snort up that line. I would wake up drenched in sweat almost every time....to say it was an unholy challenge is an understatement. I prayed and intended for relief from those dreams for six years, all the time. I've told this story before on GLP, but it bears repeating-- I arrived to an Abnormal Psyche class early - off ALL the classes for this to happen in - and I sat down and put my books on my desk. There were a group of students across the room talking, and they were talking about Jeffrey Dahmer and cannibalism, because he had been murdered that day in prison. Because I had an aversion to cannibalism, I was gently tapping my forehead on my books, very quietly saying, "No, no, no"....I just really didn't want to hear it. I lifted my head back up, and there on my book was a little pile of white powder. I was incredulous in an epic way, lol, as you can imagine. I put my index finger in it, and rubbed it between my thumb and the finger, and it became instantly numb. I then smelled it, but no odor. I was so stunned, I got up and left the class, and walked around in a hazy daze for three days....heh, because shit like that doesn't happen everyday. It tears one's senses of the fabric reality wide open. But STRAIGHT UP, I never, ever had a cocaine dream after that, heh. I had become healed of the addiction still left in my cellular structure in that one moment of revulsion. Do you see, wherein like attracts like, the depth of the revulsion I felt about cannibalism matched the revulsion I felt about the cocaine dreams? I suppose in that moment of deep dislike for cannibalism, my spirit saw an opening, and the last addictive vestiges of the drug were repelled from my body in the form of a little pile of white powder....although it was a manifestation, and the powder didn't really come out of my body. That's how strong my aversion is to cannibalism, it's enough to knock the snot out of ANY addictive nature hanging on. Most of us know that addiction is a unholy bitch made of hell on earth. Somebody posted about "desensitization"....heh, I'll tell youse guyses true, I'll be the last person standing if anyone thinks I'm going to be desensitized to this most egregious activity of eating others of their own species, or ffs, eating themselves! Fuck me running, I have a hard enough time having to eat ANYTHING, because it was all at one time alive.... You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 80037766 United States 01/02/2023 01:53 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Jeebus fracking crust on a wet cracker.....the things found while doing a simple a net engine search For the life of me, where did this come from? What does this have to do with cannibalism? Ahhh, you must be one of those bots....those dumbass bots.... You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 84775315 United States 01/02/2023 02:46 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Jeebus fracking crust on a wet cracker.....the things found while doing a simple a net engine search So hard to grasp, slips away. How to change things? Our emotions, fears desires. So frustrating at times. Things fixing themselves, seemingly. Others seem to need a collision From another orbiting star. Wanting to run away, can't cause It's still with you, stopping you. Aaaaaahhh. Call to my Spirit guys but they seem busy. Years go by. Encourage me, Please. |
Broken Heart Survivor
User ID: 85016023 United States 01/02/2023 05:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Jeebus fracking crust on a wet cracker.....the things found while doing a simple a net engine search An example of how much cannibalism repulses me-- Quoting: cosmicgypsy In my mid-20s (1980's) I did cocaine and crank for 1.5 years. I then stopped on a dime....which I've been told can't be done, but I did. Although I did not use coke or crank, I did have nightmares wherein I found myself in front of a big mirror, with a big pile of cocaine on it, and a big fat line made up ready for me. I had those nightmares for six years, 10-12 of them a year. I never used in those dreams. Not a single time did I snort up that line. I would wake up drenched in sweat almost every time....to say it was an unholy challenge is an understatement. I prayed and intended for relief from those dreams for six years, all the time. I've told this story before on GLP, but it bears repeating-- I arrived to an Abnormal Psyche class early - off ALL the classes for this to happen in - and I sat down and put my books on my desk. There were a group of students across the room talking, and they were talking about Jeffrey Dahmer and cannibalism, because he had been murdered that day in prison. Because I had an aversion to cannibalism, I was gently tapping my forehead on my books, very quietly saying, "No, no, no"....I just really didn't want to hear it. I lifted my head back up, and there on my book was a little pile of white powder. I was incredulous in an epic way, lol, as you can imagine. I put my index finger in it, and rubbed it between my thumb and the finger, and it became instantly numb. I then smelled it, but no odor. I was so stunned, I got up and left the class, and walked around in a hazy daze for three days....heh, because shit like that doesn't happen everyday. It tears one's senses of the fabric reality wide open. But STRAIGHT UP, I never, ever had a cocaine dream after that, heh. I had become healed of the addiction still left in my cellular structure in that one moment of revulsion. Do you see, wherein like attracts like, the depth of the revulsion I felt about cannibalism matched the revulsion I felt about the cocaine dreams? I suppose in that moment of deep dislike for cannibalism, my spirit saw an opening, and the last addictive vestiges of the drug were repelled from my body in the form of a little pile of white powder....although it was a manifestation, and the powder didn't really come out of my body. That's how strong my aversion is to cannibalism, it's enough to knock the snot out of ANY addictive nature hanging on. Most of us know that addiction is a unholy bitch made of hell on earth. Somebody posted about "desensitization"....heh, I'll tell youse guyses true, I'll be the last person standing if anyone thinks I'm going to be desensitized to this most egregious activity of eating others of their own species, or ffs, eating themselves! Fuck me running, I have a hard enough time having to eat ANYTHING, because it was all at one time alive.... Hence, my becoming vegetarian. * Satya Love your Creator and love others, before self-preservation. |
XJDUB
User ID: 75816770 Canada 01/02/2023 05:37 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Jeebus fracking crust on a wet cracker.....the things found while doing a simple a net engine search Let the facts fall wherever, whenever, and however they may. INTP - The Logician. 'Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.' - Albert Einstein. |
Larry D. Croc
User ID: 70736097 United States 01/02/2023 05:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Jeebus fracking crust on a wet cracker.....the things found while doing a simple a net engine search I entered an engine search beginning with, "What is it called when you...." Quoting: cosmicgypsy I got that far, and the first or second hit that came up was, "What is it called when you eat yourself".....WHEN YOU EAT YOURSELF!!! ..... Not much freaks me out anymore, not much rocks me to my core, but cannibalism does, and now there's autocannibalism. It's not that I've never heard of such a thing, but what is it doing coming up as a high hit on a google search?....ffs. My stomach literally turned over, and I almost tossed my coffee when I saw that! I mean, how many hundreds if not thousands of return hits would've been more likely, more normal....just all around more applicable to humankind, to come up on top, than THAT one? Seriously, what the absolute fuck is that about?.... I think I know what it's about, but when I think about it too much, I'm heading into that area where I begin freaking out, and my core is startin' to rock....lol, YIKES!!! Cannibalism in all it's forms, just really very, very much begins to rip me up with even the slightest mention of it.... Anyone else have such the severe reaction to the idea of cannibalism? I agree, not a very appetizing subject. "Socialism only works in two places: Heaven where they don't need it and hell, where they already have it." Ronald Reagan The trouble with our liberal friends is not that they're ignorant; it's just that they know so much that isn't so." Ronald Reagan |