I almost let my divorce kill me……

You're using the wrong drugs for your problem.

Glad you're ok

You're more than a relationship, especially a bad one.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Been there, done that. Hang in there brother! Reach out to safe & sober friends/family or go a meeting. You need a support system right now.

you’ve done it before I believe you can sober up again!

. I believe in you!

I detach very easily.

opiates are the only drugs that take some pains away (for a few hours)...

glad you survived op. life sucks sometimes. i'm not going to lie to you and tell you it's going to get better. it's probably going to get worse for a while.

my only advice is to try and find the person you were before you met her. try to be happy. obviously that's practically impossible to do for a while but eventually you will find something that does it for you, if only for a moment.

that's all life is. a series of moments strung together. try to get one good moment and go from there. if you learn to find happiness you can make her regret divorcing you. nothing pisses women off more than knowing you are happy without them. that's the worst thing in the world to them after a breakup. they want to know they ruined you.

i've was an addict for 10 years so i get it. i did everything all day every day. i smoked DMT one day, met God, and never did drugs ever again. This last part wasn't related to your story, just thought you'd like to hear it (because of your user name).

Did you think that doing drugs was going to turn out good?

Be a man and stop wallowing in self-pity. You've wasted 12 years. Don't waste your life.

No reason not to.

depending on how you deal with this..


the best is yet to come


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That sounds ominous at 'best.'

while everything you say is correct, it's not something that will help an addict in their struggle. no one who does drugs wants to do drugs. they just want to feel better. addiction is usually masking pain. addiction is like covering a running water faucet with a water balloon. everyone knows the balloon is going to pop... we just want the water to stop dripping for 5 fucking seconds...

your water faucet isn't dripping and you're talking to someone with a constant drip... drip... drip... the drip becomes deafening... it's all you can see... all you can think of...

the best you can do to help is listen. all that the OP wants is for us to listen and not judge him right now. promise.

How does one start doing Fentanyl?

It's one of my only skills

I need u

No one needs anyone.

I thank my bio mom for that one.

Who op?

Nope.

Life is like this, ups and downs. Time moves us forward and we learn, or we don't and then it is more down then up.

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Jeremiah 17:14
Heal me, Lord, and I will be healed;
    save me and I will be saved,
    for you are the one I praise.


There is one that can save you.

That's because 'He who wounds and heals' is also the one who made me sick. No thanks.

Well at least she taught you early, everyone gets there eventually

Try some weed. No joke.

Yeah, who needs to learn how to form attachments in youth anyway?

op, that will cause you to fall down with a power
To wash away the pain, but, of 12 years of life

With nothing else to gain

:hug:

i did a double reply, sorry.

That's because there is nothing left to gain.

You don't, stay far away

Now I'm really intrigued. I've had too many character building experiences already. I think it's time for a Rake's Progress. They feel good apparently.

don't gain more struggle, or pain.

there's a contrast to even the most neutral tone.