OP, yes. But at the same time they see you're dying inside and they want to save you. In a way it's nice that your beauty is the same as your pain. However, to save your legacy of magnitude you should let go of your pain and anger towards the innocent. We cannot carry your burden across the threshold another day longer. Let go of your burning reach to displease everyone, this is your last leg of your journey to be the warrior you started off as. Be at peace with your pain and save it for your death song when you reach 88.