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Seekingtruthandhonor
 User ID: 58407701  United States06/01/2023 03:00 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Maybe you feel alone What if I told you, you are being set apart. You might be mad at God It’s better to be cold or hot than lukewarm. (Being mad at God in my opinion would be very cold or very hot if you believe that strong but are honestly mad with him) But let’s say you are lukewarm. Don’t stress. Don’t have anxiety. Don’t have shame. Just really sit down and see what you want to know by believing in God. And what it means that Jesus died on that cross 2k years ago. So you can be alive. Maybe you are despised and mocked by the world What if I told you, you are his. You are with Jesus Christ. Jesus said rejoice when you are laughed at or despised or mocked in my name. Why? Because you are living for Heaven. You have been chosen for eternal life. Maybe you don’t care to help others What if I told you, that perspective might change if you allow Jesus to help you get through life’s trials. To embrace Jesus healing hand in your life. When you see his Grace it changes a person. It’s humbling. It’s hopeful. Maybe you believe you don’t have purpose What if I told you, you are learning about the various spiritual gifts God has given you. It takes time to fully see this and trust this. —————— Being Happy is difficult. Even Jesus himself had moments of great sorrow. Great emotional pain. He asked his disciples to stay awake and pray. They fell asleep. You don’t think that brought sorrow to Jesus. He also had pain dying on that cross And also a sense of abandonment Even though he knew he was going to go the underworld and conquer death, and rise again 3 days later. He still felt abandoned. GOD. What I’m getting at is that even our Lord had sadness So he knows exactly, as a human, what it means to not be happy But he also knew what it was like to be happy I know I discussed this before but when the Roman guard showed Jesus great faith, Jesus was amazed. I know it’s difficult to be happy sometimes But allow yourself to be happy Read a good book. Listen to some music. Trust God. Trust he has a plan. And trust you are part of his plan. I noticed in my life when I started getting really down and not happy anymore, I was straying from my path with God. I see when I go back towards God. I feel new. I feel whole. So maybe you just need to pause and see what’s the best move forward with a good clean mind and a uplifted spirit loving God and others. In all things you do, do in love Please don’t be down on yourself that you might not be happy Just know God is the merciful loving Father. He wants you to be happy Heaven wants you to be happy I want you to be happy You are like the only one not wanting you to be happy! And I have been there many times! So keep moving forward. One day at a time. Be kind to yourself. Keep love on your mind God bless and hold onto Hope!  Last Edited by Seekingtruthandhonor on 06/01/2023 05:01 PM I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
| LTHN.
User ID: 85376707  Canada06/01/2023 03:04 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Last Edited by LTHN. on 06/01/2023 03:05 PM "A wise man listens to the message and uses his logic and discernment to process it, a fool negates the message by prejudging the messenger." "He whose centre is everywhere and whose circumference is nowhere." |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 03:08 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. Hello! Great that you are happy most of the time! Excellent to hear. Music is awesome. I go for like 1-2 hour walks just listen to music the whole time the walk is easy. I made a few new friends recently and it has made me more encouraged Have a great day! I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
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| LTHN.
User ID: 85376707 Canada06/01/2023 03:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. Hello! Great that you are happy most of the time! Excellent to hear. Music is awesome. I go for like 1-2 hour walks just listen to music the whole time the walk is easy. I made a few new friends recently and it has made me more encouraged Have a great day! Thanks, and you have a great one as well! Oh, and here is a beautiful piece of music for you! [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] Last Edited by LTHN. on 06/01/2023 03:21 PM "A wise man listens to the message and uses his logic and discernment to process it, a fool negates the message by prejudging the messenger." "He whose centre is everywhere and whose circumference is nowhere." |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
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| Gleichmut
Om mani padme hum User ID: 82616099  Austria06/01/2023 04:08 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. That's where it's at, people look too far, ask too much and wander off far too long, because of it, and don't comprehend the finer things, which cannot truly be seen by the noise and strife of this world  .Truth made names in the world, and without them we can’t refer to truth. Truth is one and is many, teaching one thing through the many... .It won't be seen or understood as something particular. Rather, the kingdom is spread out upon the earth, yet people do not see it.. |
| Arnie
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| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 05:03 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I cannot be happy by the traditional sense... But I can be very very grateful. Grateful is simply happy with a backout clause. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 62664388 Gratitude is a great remedy for depression! I try to be grateful every day but sometimes I forget Thanks for the reminder. I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 05:04 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I've never asked that question or whether I was unhappy. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 85907823 I fully expect and accept both. Nobody bats 1000 and nobody gets on base every time at bat. Streaks always disappear. So you are telling me take the under for tonight’s baseball games? LOL Joking No but seriously. Under? Joking. But you make a great analogy and I’m glad I got to read it. Thank you! I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 05:07 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I have two pusses that make me happy. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 85916525 No one and nothing else. Just two pusslets who are so loving and sweet. My cat was my best friend I miss him :( But I smile thinking about him! He was goofy. He would make me laugh when I was down and just do funny stuff He was awesome! One day I will adopt another cat. I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
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| cosmicgypsy
User ID: 85788705 United States06/01/2023 05:13 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. Despite all the horror I see on GLP, I find myself growing happier by the week.... And I know, youse guyses, some are thinking, 'How can anyone be happy in this climate of people pushing hard on us like they are?' The thing is, if you can't find happiness WITHIN YOURSELF, then TPTB are really winning, and you're falling right in line with their goal. One of the very reasons we're pushed on so hard is because they want us stressed and giving up on OURSELVES! Don't do it! Whatever brings you joy, hold onto it like your life depends on it.... As well, I'm going to suggest a lil experiment. If you're a person who in this very moment is feeling unhappy, I want you to ask yourself this question, out loud-- "Why am I now so happy?" --g'head, see what happens....  We are able to tap into our subconsciousness, and "reprogram" ourselves to better mental and physical health through these questions we ask ourselves, you see. These questions we can ask of ourselves are called an "afformation." This is not to be confused with an "affirmation" (a statement)....there's an I and O difference in the words that sometimes confuse people. The mind automatically jumps to affirmation, because it's so much better known than is an afformation. Afformations are kinda like a new toy for the subconscious, because it has something new to work with, and in the case of unhappiness, all it has in its dark quarter is what caused the unhappiness in the first place. How many of you are aware that it's your subconscious that runs your life, not your conscious and awake mind?....heh, that's just along for the ride your subconscious is taking you on....and if this is the first time for you knowing about this, it should freak you right the fuck out....for sure, lol, because so few of us know what's going on in that dark quarter of our psyches. So give it a go, ask yourself, and see what happens....you could feel happiness spread all within you with just six little words, and in a moment. I've seen it happen many times. Folks ask the question, a smile spreads across their face, and some say they even start laughing. Ask yourself why you're now so happy multiple times a day, for weeks on end, and the happiness produced is astounding! That effort will completely reprogram your subconscious to a permanent state of happiness, despite the kwap in your life....  You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
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| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 05:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. Despite all the horror I see on GLP, I find myself growing happier by the week.... And I know, youse guyses, some are thinking, 'How can anyone be happy in this climate of people pushing hard on us like they are?' The thing is, if you can't find happiness WITHIN YOURSELF, then TPTB are really winning, and you're falling right in line with their goal. One of the very reasons we're pushed on so hard is because they want us stressed and giving up on OURSELVES! Don't do it! Whatever brings you joy, hold onto it like your life depends on it.... As well, I'm going to suggest a lil experiment. If you're a person who in this very moment is feeling unhappy, I want you to ask yourself this question, out loud-- "Why am I now so happy?" --g'head, see what happens.... We are able to tap into our subconsciousness, and "reprogram" ourselves to better mental and physical health through these questions we ask ourselves, you see. These questions we can ask of ourselves are called an "afformation." This is not to be confused with an "affirmation" (a statement)....there's an I and O difference in the words that sometimes confuse people. The mind automatically jumps to affirmation, because it's so much better known than is an afformation. Afformations are kinda like a new toy for the subconscious, because it has something new to work with, and in the case of unhappiness, all it has in its dark quarter is what caused the unhappiness in the first place. How many of you are aware that it's your subconscious that runs your life, not your conscious and awake mind?....heh, that's just along for the ride your subconscious is taking you on....and if this is the first time for you knowing about this, it should freak you right the fuck out....for sure, lol, because so few of us know what's going on in that dark quarter of our psyches. So give it a go, ask yourself, and see what happens....you could feel happiness spread all within you with just six little words, and in a moment. I've seen it happen many times. Folks ask the question, a smile spreads across their face, and some say they even start laughing. Ask yourself why you're now so happy multiple times a day, for weeks on end, and the happiness produced is astounding! That effort will completely reprogram your subconscious to a permanent state of happiness, despite the kwap in your life.... Why do you say the subconscious runs our lives? I politely disagree Our conscious awake life is our life. Our free will choices. These things are what make up our life. What we think. How we live. What we say. In fact I think that our conscious awake mind effects what goes into our subconscious. We can allow peace to enter our conscious awake mind and send peace to our subconscious. Same with love and mercy and kindness. I asked myself why am I Happy right now. First thing that I thought was that I am grateful Jesus went on that cross for me. It does make me happy. That he would do this for me. It’s very humbling. And sometimes brings me to tears. Thank you! I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 05:51 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. That's where it's at, people look too far, ask too much and wander off far too long, because of it, and don't comprehend the finer things, which cannot truly be seen by the noise and strife of this world You mention noise and strife of this world Sometimes all we need to do is silent our minds and just listen Silence our minds and have peace Silence our minds and meditate on love Silence our minds and talk to God We also need to be aware and stay observant at all times! See what God is teaching us. What he is doing for us in our lives. And in others lives too. Last Edited by Seekingtruthandhonor on 06/01/2023 05:51 PM I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 85916525 Australia06/01/2023 06:03 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I have two pusses that make me happy. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 85916525 No one and nothing else. Just two pusslets who are so loving and sweet. My cat was my best friend I miss him :( But I smile thinking about him! He was goofy. He would make me laugh when I was down and just do funny stuff He was awesome! One day I will adopt another cat. These cats adopted me. Their mother was wild. She brought her kittens inside the house. Two remained wild and left home. But two stayed and became my friends. They arw so cheeky and cute. And great hunters. Havent seen a mouse anywhere sinve Tigger and Tiggress have been on patrol. |
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| cosmicgypsy
User ID: 85788705 United States06/01/2023 06:12 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. Despite all the horror I see on GLP, I find myself growing happier by the week.... And I know, youse guyses, some are thinking, 'How can anyone be happy in this climate of people pushing hard on us like they are?' The thing is, if you can't find happiness WITHIN YOURSELF, then TPTB are really winning, and you're falling right in line with their goal. One of the very reasons we're pushed on so hard is because they want us stressed and giving up on OURSELVES! Don't do it! Whatever brings you joy, hold onto it like your life depends on it.... As well, I'm going to suggest a lil experiment. If you're a person who in this very moment is feeling unhappy, I want you to ask yourself this question, out loud-- "Why am I now so happy?" --g'head, see what happens.... We are able to tap into our subconsciousness, and "reprogram" ourselves to better mental and physical health through these questions we ask ourselves, you see. These questions we can ask of ourselves are called an "afformation." This is not to be confused with an "affirmation" (a statement)....there's an I and O difference in the words that sometimes confuse people. The mind automatically jumps to affirmation, because it's so much better known than is an afformation. Afformations are kinda like a new toy for the subconscious, because it has something new to work with, and in the case of unhappiness, all it has in its dark quarter is what caused the unhappiness in the first place. How many of you are aware that it's your subconscious that runs your life, not your conscious and awake mind?....heh, that's just along for the ride your subconscious is taking you on....and if this is the first time for you knowing about this, it should freak you right the fuck out....for sure, lol, because so few of us know what's going on in that dark quarter of our psyches. So give it a go, ask yourself, and see what happens....you could feel happiness spread all within you with just six little words, and in a moment. I've seen it happen many times. Folks ask the question, a smile spreads across their face, and some say they even start laughing. Ask yourself why you're now so happy multiple times a day, for weeks on end, and the happiness produced is astounding! That effort will completely reprogram your subconscious to a permanent state of happiness, despite the kwap in your life.... Why do you say the subconscious runs our lives? I politely disagree Our conscious awake life is our life. Our free will choices. These things are what make up our life. What we think. How we live. What we say. In fact I think that our conscious awake mind effects what goes into our subconscious. We can allow peace to enter our conscious awake mind and send peace to our subconscious. Same with love and mercy and kindness. I asked myself why am I Happy right now. First thing that I thought was that I am grateful Jesus went on that cross for me. It does make me happy. That he would do this for me. It’s very humbling. And sometimes brings me to tears. Thank you!  ....oh my dear, the subconscious does most indeed runs your life. I know that's hard to swallow, but it is immutable truth.But you see, your subconscious brought up what makes you most happy, your savior.... Heh, it passed into your consciousness FROM your subconscious, because that's what you have in your subconscious, love and gratitude and respect for your savior. Not everyone's subconscious is a complete unholy mess, eh? You've programmed yourself, or have been programmed, to love Jesus with all you've got, so therefore that is what makes you happy, and why that thought crossed your mind upon asking the question. But you don't have to believe me or the research of many that's gone into knowing that the subconscious is indeed what runs our lives. It's going to happen whether or not you recognize it, ya know? Your subconscious is a part of you too, yes? Why would you think it has not any affect on you? You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 06:25 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The era of Jesus is over. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 85917254 There’s no Heavenly Father who loves all of us, only the I AM Presence of our own selves. I don’t believe any more that it wants me to be happy. Jesus is always with us The Hope of Glory, Christ in us. I believe there is a Heavenly Father , and he does love us Only Jesus is Jesus It is not our own selves, that is I AM. It’s Jesus who is I AM. And his Spirit lives with us. Why do you think the Spirit does not want you to be happy? Try to stay encouraged and don’t let the world make you sad Try to smile Try to see the good in your life, and in you! God loves you! I know it to be true. I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 06:32 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nah, I find happiness in small things, some music, friendships, I’m usually happy most of the time. Quoting: LTHN. Despite all the horror I see on GLP, I find myself growing happier by the week.... And I know, youse guyses, some are thinking, 'How can anyone be happy in this climate of people pushing hard on us like they are?' The thing is, if you can't find happiness WITHIN YOURSELF, then TPTB are really winning, and you're falling right in line with their goal. One of the very reasons we're pushed on so hard is because they want us stressed and giving up on OURSELVES! Don't do it! Whatever brings you joy, hold onto it like your life depends on it.... As well, I'm going to suggest a lil experiment. If you're a person who in this very moment is feeling unhappy, I want you to ask yourself this question, out loud-- "Why am I now so happy?" --g'head, see what happens.... We are able to tap into our subconsciousness, and "reprogram" ourselves to better mental and physical health through these questions we ask ourselves, you see. These questions we can ask of ourselves are called an "afformation." This is not to be confused with an "affirmation" (a statement)....there's an I and O difference in the words that sometimes confuse people. The mind automatically jumps to affirmation, because it's so much better known than is an afformation. Afformations are kinda like a new toy for the subconscious, because it has something new to work with, and in the case of unhappiness, all it has in its dark quarter is what caused the unhappiness in the first place. How many of you are aware that it's your subconscious that runs your life, not your conscious and awake mind?....heh, that's just along for the ride your subconscious is taking you on....and if this is the first time for you knowing about this, it should freak you right the fuck out....for sure, lol, because so few of us know what's going on in that dark quarter of our psyches. So give it a go, ask yourself, and see what happens....you could feel happiness spread all within you with just six little words, and in a moment. I've seen it happen many times. Folks ask the question, a smile spreads across their face, and some say they even start laughing. Ask yourself why you're now so happy multiple times a day, for weeks on end, and the happiness produced is astounding! That effort will completely reprogram your subconscious to a permanent state of happiness, despite the kwap in your life.... Why do you say the subconscious runs our lives? I politely disagree Our conscious awake life is our life. Our free will choices. These things are what make up our life. What we think. How we live. What we say. In fact I think that our conscious awake mind effects what goes into our subconscious. We can allow peace to enter our conscious awake mind and send peace to our subconscious. Same with love and mercy and kindness. I asked myself why am I Happy right now. First thing that I thought was that I am grateful Jesus went on that cross for me. It does make me happy. That he would do this for me. It’s very humbling. And sometimes brings me to tears. Thank you! ....oh my dear, the subconscious does most indeed runs your life. I know that's hard to swallow, but it is immutable truth.But you see, your subconscious brought up what makes you most happy, your savior.... Heh, it passed into your consciousness FROM your subconscious, because that's what you have in your subconscious, love and gratitude and respect for your savior. Not everyone's subconscious is a complete unholy mess, eh? You've programmed yourself, or have been programmed, to love Jesus with all you've got, so therefore that is what makes you happy, and why that thought crossed your mind upon asking the question. But you don't have to believe me or the research of many that's gone into knowing that the subconscious is indeed what runs our lives. It's going to happen whether or not you recognize it, ya know? Your subconscious is a part of you too, yes? Why would you think it has not any affect on you? I have an effect on my subconscious mind. It does not rule over me or dictate my destiny. My subconscious didn’t make me have love for Jesus It’s my conscious active awareness of seeing his Grace daily and being awake and alive in him. It’s his steadfast love that makes me love him From daily experience I have not programmed myself to believe in Jesus I see him every day It’s real and it’s forever I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
| ~metanoia~
truth seeks out the wise & the righteous User ID: 81556559 United States06/01/2023 06:45 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | i pray everyday for Him to take me back or to put me in my souls purpose I am a seer and i even hear Him and that still isn't enough for me to be completely happy in this world so far i can't stand this life or the abusers that have had their way with my kindheartedness i keep thinking, it is just my karma and i need to forgive, and it has been hard and i am still praying to be able to forgive them all - and to forgive myself i have Nembutal saved on my computer favorites, i keep searching for the quickest, painless and easiest way to go - my family is all grown up - no one depends on me, so it would not be a sin i heard in a dream back in 2013ish that i was a watcher - so i guess all this abuse i endured from before birth to now must be related to that - i need to research the watchers again - i have, in meditations, broken all oaths and contracts that were selfish in meditations - i imagined i burned them - maybe i should do that again - also in my life, i have lashed out and retaliated a little instead of allowed - so it is some of that as well no one knows, i put on a smile for everyone, but behind the smile is extremely deep sadness i am awakened by the Godforce though, i heard a few weeks ago - your group is still asleep - wtf.... whatever we do to others, we have to feel exactly what that is like - and i pray for constant grace and forgiveness and ask forgiveness from others that is why it is so much better to allow than to retaliate about 3-4 years ago i woke up in what i call the Abyss 3 times - after i had sex - that is where the Watchers were sent - it was a black space and i was all alone and just floating out there - content, but all alone - as a point of consciousness and could see all around me - 360 degrees - now, i am celibate Please, Our Creator, take me home to you or set me in my purpose Cayce and Jesus - the Kingdom is within us all 2046 Vogt's Sun Nova those who know, do not speak, there is more wisdom in the silence heaven won't accept impurity the heartbroken are the most wicked lead me back to heaven |
| Seekingtruthandhonor
(OP) User ID: 58407701 United States06/01/2023 08:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | i pray everyday for Him to take me back or to put me in my souls purpose Quoting: ~metanoia~ I am a seer and i even hear Him and that still isn't enough for me to be completely happy in this world so far i can't stand this life or the abusers that have had their way with my kindheartedness i keep thinking, it is just my karma and i need to forgive, and it has been hard and i am still praying to be able to forgive them all - and to forgive myself i have Nembutal saved on my computer favorites, i keep searching for the quickest, painless and easiest way to go - my family is all grown up - no one depends on me, so it would not be a sin i heard in a dream back in 2013ish that i was a watcher - so i guess all this abuse i endured from before birth to now must be related to that - i need to research the watchers again - i have, in meditations, broken all oaths and contracts that were selfish in meditations - i imagined i burned them - maybe i should do that again - also in my life, i have lashed out and retaliated a little instead of allowed - so it is some of that as well no one knows, i put on a smile for everyone, but behind the smile is extremely deep sadness i am awakened by the Godforce though, i heard a few weeks ago - your group is still asleep - wtf.... whatever we do to others, we have to feel exactly what that is like - and i pray for constant grace and forgiveness and ask forgiveness from others that is why it is so much better to allow than to retaliate about 3-4 years ago i woke up in what i call the Abyss 3 times - after i had sex - that is where the Watchers were sent - it was a black space and i was all alone and just floating out there - content, but all alone - as a point of consciousness and could see all around me - 360 degrees - now, i am celibate Please, Our Creator, take me home to you or set me in my purpose First off I just need to say. Endure. Endure until the end and receive the crown of life. These are words from Jesus. So please keep going. One day at a time. These principalities in higher places want us to suffer and be sad The best remedy to their oppression is to realize we are one with God and just live a life of peace and love and be kind to ourselves and others. If we can hold onto joy. It’s like a statement to the principalities we won’t give into their snares. We will see their deception. I also have experienced times where I hear God or see God around me and still am unhappy. I trust him more because of the experience. But still not totally happy And as that other poster said gratitude is very important. It helps us stay humble. I am kind also and many people have used me. It hurts. People I thought were my friends but used me and talked behind my back. It’s okay though. I forgive them. I just want everyone to move on to a life of love and compassion. I’m sorry you have deep sadness. I know what that’s like. It will get better Also you mention your soul purpose I believe God sees your thirsting for truth. Wanting to do his will. Wanting to be a light. Thrilled to be his hands and feet. Sometimes a souls purpose is just to love others and be there for the broken hearted and poor in spirit. Just take it one day at a time. Sometimes it’s a long road because God wants us to fully trust him. And to fully know he is with us. And please believe in HOPE. And FAITH. And LOVE. Last Edited by Seekingtruthandhonor on 06/01/2023 08:23 PM I will dwell in you. And you in me. And I will walk with my people . -GOD |
