This world isn't believable at any level. How the fuck did I get in here?

There is no bat

Maybe Satin is a machine?

"I've been alive forever and I wrote the very first songs"
Barry Manilow ("I Write The Songs")

That's all?

I said 98%

Yes in my vision a machine

Secret super-computer

Collective Amesia

edit Amnesia. forgot how to spell it for a minute

It's a pretty shitty machine. Needs to be revamped

It was in Dark City movie. The aliens could control the machine

There are many paths that profess to lead you out of it, but there is only one true path. Your objective is to find it.

Maybe you sneezed?

Hi , My fucking reality just went , what the fuck , again , and I don’t know who to talk to because talking to the real life friends involves making plans , that I should regardless of any situation I may or may not be in , get into or waiting for them to fuckoff . Anyhow , I’m moving to San Diego . Am I high , you ask , Well hell yes I’m high but fuck this shit . I need to get high again , hang on .

Suicide is discouraged for a reason. Fences covering bridge walkways, suicide net under Golden Gate Bridge, helplines and them telling you it's selfish. Why would they do that when they're poisoning your food and your water and your skies? Why, if they're trying to kill you, would they be desperately trying to keep you from suiciding?

I lived in 7 years, 2 times separately. Just left there in 2022. Living in FL only for the warmth, for the rest it sucks

So, you can't find any path? I don't think you're really trying.

your parents fell for the trap

I told my companion already that somebody is trying to use me to get out of here. ;)
That's why they want me fasting, not fapping, not drinking...
They think they'll get out of here through me

I did say I was an 'in and out burger' and I have a 'get out of jail free card'.

I'm metaphorically speaking Mel Gibson in Thunderdome. "We don't need another He-Ro, we need life beyond Thunderdome" or something like that.

Maybe the body dying in the script sends me to where I need to be.

Why is suicide discouraged so much if they're trying to kill you? Does that make sense? Then they tell you it's selfish and they spend lots of money building protective fences or operating suicide hotlines, why?

Pair-rents?
I don't see how, there is no appeal to this shit, aside from sensory

how long have realised?

I always told my mother I got off at the wrong exit
I called people zombies in 1982
I called Dutch wind-up-dolls in 1995
I knew something was wrong when people bought into the 911 narrative

I think at some level I've always known. My brother Peter told me I'm not like everybody else

Then change what they get out of you?

How do you mean?

The only thing you can control in this world is your reactions…

Ps. The nets aren’t for the poor souls who jump .. they’re there for the ones who have to clean up the mess.

They spend money on suicide prevention to create the illusion that there is help available and that it isn't a healthy normal approved way to be wanting to end it and escape your fucked up relationships and environment

That way it appears we live in a caring society

Like all those news segments of people helping a homeless or ex prisoner so it looks like these wage slaves live in a caring society where people care but it's a lie

It's to help maintain the lie that good is stronger than evil, that "life is good" but really you're replaceable they want you sick enough to buy their pills but just alive enough to consume

But it's not a caring society

It's a society of sickos monsters and animals abusive sick freaks

Then there's the minority that are struggling to survive who do almost all the work and get seemingly the most of the shit.

It's all to control your perceptions and streamline human behavior more to their liking, makes for a well greased and lubricated slave/loosh farm.

There is nothing to clean up, they go out to the ocean

Nobody would spend $200 million on a suicide net when only 1500 people have died since the 1930s

Besides which, all you need to do is get a bike and go on the other side and you can jump there 24/7

It's not this world that's the problem, they want you to blame yourself. You are depressed or you have unresolved issues. No fucks, it's your abusing me in here 24/7 for 50+ years

They know I know so they don't try that shit with me. My stepmom told me "your 8 siblings are so concerned about you". I laughed on the telephone. They've never made any effort and could care less if I died

I still say suicide is the quick way out. I've been improving myself and waiting year after year. AS I HAVE EVOLVED MY SITUATION HAS DEVOLVED. WHAT'S BEHIND THIS WORLD IS STARVING MY ASS AND CONTROLS ANY MONEY I GET. I'M NOT GONNA BOTHER ANYMORE. PEOPLE ARE SO HIGHLY SCRIPTED I CAN'T EVEN SELL ANYTHING TO MAKE SOME MONEY. IT'S SO HIGHLY SCRIPTED YOU CAN GO INTO THE GOOD WILL AND YOU WON'T FIND RALPH LAUREN SHIRTS OR EVEN COLORS YOU WANT

When we've need things like pills at Dollar Tree it would take those things from the shelves and not restock. It will take stuff out of the grocery store that we like.

It's almost as if there is some psychopath behind a computer terminal messing with you in a simulation

Seems to me you fixate on self destruction.

No, I fixate on getting out of this abuse world