THIS IS LIFE!!!...its TRUE meaning revealed.

Darkness....total silence.
Unaware that you exist.
No past..no future...just a "Now" that you do not even percieve...a "Now" that has stretched for many eternities in both directions...for all times are wrapped in the "Now" that you do not even percieve.

Gradually..a dull light forms..a light you see but yet do not perceive. You see it..but yet..it is meaningless...you have no faculties to give it meaning.

Time in this "now" moves on....

Ever so gradually you begin to hear...a rushing pulsing noise..throbbing..the pulse of life..but as yet it is still wrapped in the "Now" which you still cannot percieve.

A little more time passes in the "Now"..that frozen moment of countless ages...

You are aware..but have no memory of being aware that you are aware. You feel..yet you have no memory of feeling. You see..buy you have no words or concepts or memory of seeing..but yet..you see..you hear..and you feel.

Suddenly your world of endless "Now" is shattered...and you feel without feeling..a terrible constriction..growing stronger...more insistent.

Suddenly..after another eternity of "Now"...light..cold hard ligt..and a cold chill envelope you...you scream out..not knowing...not aware...yet knowing and aware..but not able to form the concepts...except a primal instinctive and savage terror..and even that you cannot understand..all you know is cold and light and a sudden pain..

Welcome to planet earth.

More time passes in the "now"...gradually your world opens up...you begin to make sense of the noises..the feelings..but as yet all you can make of them is hunger..cold..pain..inflection. Dim concepts...forming in the "Now"..that will be the basis of what you will become..who you will be.

Five years of "Now" time passes...in this space you have learnt what pain is...learnt what love is..or is not..depending on who sparked your "now" in the first place.

You have made sense to a degree of life..that life is pain...life is love..life is rejection..life is laughter..life is fun..life is terrible..life is "Now"

More time in the "Now" of life passes. You continue to grow..gradually adding to your knowledge and your awareness. You have clear memory now..you can fathom concepts easily..you are becomeing a self awaye and self determined entity..born from the "Now" of eternity.

20 years have passed in the "now"..although you measure "Years"..time is an illusion we construct for ourselves in order for our three dimensional bodies to make sense of a three dimensional world floating in a fifth dimensional universe.

Time..is relative..and keeps passing. By now you have seen a few things..learnt how to function..or disfunction. Knlowledge..always increasing..the urge to set another spark in motion...to bring forth yet another entity from the vast and eternal abyss of the "Now"..to repeat the same process.

You grow..you love..you hate..you build..you destroy..you fail..you succeed...you give life..you take life.

More time has passed in the "Now"

You look over your time here in this world...you look at what you have done..and at the sparks you in turn have set in motion.

And you realise as you see the horror of this world..all its pain..all its vanity..all its brutality...all its war and death...

That its all been a complete waste of time.

For your life..this flicker in eternity..this "Now" you have endured and lived through..had made almost no difference.

Unless of course you are one of the sparks of life that invented DOOM..such as the atom or hydrogen bombs.

THEY certainly made a difference.

DOOM gets noticed...DOOM makes a REAL difference in this world..

Peace does not..for it is but a breathing space between outbreak of carnage and death....Peace..the moment of "now" used to stock up on DOOM for the next war...and so it goes..and so it has always gone.

You look over this world..this comedy show of DOOM..and ask ....WHY?????

But answer comes there none....more time passes....

You are now 80 years old....your time in the "Now" is almost up..and you are no closer to making any sense of it all than you were 50 years ago...you still ask...WHY???

If anything...wisdom of age is a curse...because you know TOO much..and in the knowing..realise that ther ARE no answers...only DOOM...endless DOOM...for that is all mankind seeks...just DOOM...and new ways to MAKE more DOOM.

Its all so meaningless...

You struggle all your life..always questioning..and hearing the silence...or a billion crazy explainations..all in the end..having no meaning..for all the other sparks are asking the very same question..all the while killing and maiming...loving..hating..bleeding..dying...but getting nowhere.

Gradually awareness fades...you seep back into that comfortable blank "now" that you began with...

Memory fades..and with it..knowledge. All your knowledge and wisdom you have attained means nothing..for it is erased entirley....

All you own..all you built..only existed for you while you were aware of it. With fading awareness...all you built and all you knew fades with it. Your entire world recedes back into the blakness..the silent darkness from which you sprang.

Fading...fading...all you percieve is a faint pulse..slower...slower still...gradually weakening..and then...nothing.

And for WHAT?????

While you lived...you percieved love..hate...war...peace...all the things this life is made of. While you lived..you built..you destroyed...you procreated..and you killed...

But in the end..what did it amount too??

Just another spark extinguished in the dark realms of DOOM..the fate of all mankind..the fate we so joyfully rush towards and have always done..

For we long to be taken by the darkness...tp return back to the endless "Now" from which we came..for it was our home for millions of eternities..and we long to return. If we did not..WHY do we spend SO much money and time building MORE DOOM every day to speed our passage back to the endless now"??

Life IS meaningless....as far as life itself goes..

But DEATH on the other hand...HAS meaning..for we pursue it with reckless abandon..total enthusiasm..

We empty treasuries to have the latest bomb..the deadliest gas..the nasties virus..

Yes...

IF there was said to be a meaning in life...

It is the PURSUIT OF DEATH!!!