Found on page 291 "By the way, a curious side note - a GATE classmate of mine achieved a high degree of notoriety a few years ago, almost on a fluke, and had a spectacular and very public breakdown immediately after. I won't name names for his sake (or mine) because that's not really the point - the point is what happened to a GATE kid in those circumstances. It's possible many of us became underachievers as a defense against that exact scenario."


THIS


When I read this thread the above paragraph stands out the most. I have been aware of having an overwhelming fear of success, to the point that I feel it must have been planted in some way. I feel I am meant to stay under the radar and that if I try anything short of being an underachiever I will wildly succeed, so I better not do it. When I do start to succeed I immediately self sabotage and feel relived,like I just dodged a bullet. I have wondered while reading this thread if they used this program to stop the people who should have changed the world, I know how over the top that sounds, but I can't help thinking it.