how can you even retain such a negative view of reality through the experiences with psychedelics
weren't you paying attention? didn't you learn anything?
Quoting: Anonymous Coward 55665504 Psychedelics by-and-large are not 100% pure and godly experiences, and are HIGHLY subject to the stimulus one is subjected to during the experience.
Bad trips are a real thing.
To put the experience in terms of -10 -- 0 -- +10:
During the eclipse and peak, I was at about a +7.
I felt so close to "god".
After the moon set, and I came inside and started exploring the doom-laden internet, this level immediately shot down to a -8 and wavered from -8 to -2 for several hours.
Yes, these numbers are incredibly relative terms, but they are the closest I can get to describing the feeling.