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Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]

 
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Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
I have been following Ebola news for over a month now.
I have never been so concerned as I am now.

This morning I woke up super early for the eclipse. I took a psychedelic substance in order to "enhance" the experience of viewing said eclipse this morning.

In the hours following the eclipse (after reading headlines about a certain person dying during the eclipse), I have experienced what I am calling "psychedelic-enhanced paranoid-psychosomatic disease perception"

Bullshit sounding thing. And it is. But it really has been fucking with me.

The seemingly "physical" symptoms that have manifested all day today are really worrisome.

I don't know what I am trying to accomplish by posting this.

Maybe to see if other people are giving themselves panic-induced symptoms without drugs. I don't know.

I'm sorry.

-AK

Last Edited by ArmouredKitten on 10/08/2014 09:25 PM
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
the "physical symptoms" I am referring to:

periodic hot-flashes/fever-flashes

a sort of burning sensation in the veins/arteries in the neck, back of the head, shoulders, that general area (and the specific feeling/sense that that burning is a foreign intrusion of the immune system)

The rest of the symptoms are not perceived as physical, but contribute to the physical sensations, which are:

The inability to divert psychic attention from fear-inducing stimulus regarding Ebole

The overwhelming urge to discuss the Ebola "threat" with friends/family
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
I just spent 45 minutes at the 7/11 across the street from my house talking to my muslim buddy that works there.
(Only call him my buddy because he works all the overnight shifts and I always have tended to go there during those shifts, so we talk a lot basically.)

I ended up informing him about a few things regarding Ebola, and he told me a lot of things about his personal muslim beliefs (the discussion strayed toward religion/faith after the topic of fear of death from Ebola).

I don't know why/if any of this is important at all.
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
It's called "anxiety".
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
Try and look on the bright side, holidays abroad will be cheaper now, every cloud and and all that!
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
It's called "Ebola".
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 60702613


My uncle who works for NASA told me that ISIS has been mixing it with certain "psychedelic substances".

Sorry dude. You're fucked.
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Try and look on the bright side, holidays abroad will be cheaper now, every cloud and and all that!
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That WOULD be nice...if I had a passport.
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
" only call him my buddy cause" ..\


bro, don't make an excuse for having a " friend" of his persuasion, be glad hes there for you . just sayin , at my age we learn to cherish everything an everyone wholl give us of their time, cause well time is ones most valuable treasure... its goes oh so very, very fast , near the end .....hf
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
It's called "Ebola".
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 60702613


My uncle who works for NASA told me that ISIS has been mixing it with certain "psychedelic substances".

Sorry dude. You're fucked.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 54295826


Even though I know this is bullshit, I wish it were a certainty.

That way I could stop irrationally worrying about contracting it and get on to accepting certain death.
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I feel sorry for the guy at 711 who not only works a shitty job, but also is compelled to entertain the local drug addicts.
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" only call him my buddy cause" ..\


bro, don't make an excuse for having a " friend" of his persuasion, be glad hes there for you . just sayin , at my age we learn to cherish everything an everyone wholl give us of their time, cause well time is ones most valuable treasure... its goes oh so very, very fast , near the end .....hf
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Not that it was an excuse. It was more of an explanation as to how one could spend almost an hour at a 7/11 talking to the clerk.

Believe me, I am grateful for everything that comes my way.

The tenant below my apartment offered me free yoga classes today. I am so psyched to start that tomorrow
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I feel sorry for the guy at 711 who not only works a shitty job, but also is compelled to entertain the local drug addicts.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Actually, it is he that sparks conversation.

But I won't entertain this thought further because of your assessment of "drug addict" and "psychedelic" having any sort of relation.



Thanks anyway
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I feel sorry for the guy at 711 who not only works a shitty job, but also is compelled to entertain the local drug addicts.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Actually, it is he that sparks conversation.

But I won't entertain this thought further because of your assessment of "drug addict" and "psychedelic" having any sort of relation.



Thanks anyway
 Quoting: ArmouredKitten


Oh, they do my, my friend. It is apparent in your post that you are addicted.
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I feel sorry for the guy at 711 who not only works a shitty job, but also is compelled to entertain the local drug addicts.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Actually, it is he that sparks conversation.

But I won't entertain this thought further because of your assessment of "drug addict" and "psychedelic" having any sort of relation.



Thanks anyway
 Quoting: ArmouredKitten


Oh, they do my, my friend. It is apparent in your post that you are addicted.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Thanks for the bump
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I feel sorry for the guy at 711 who not only works a shitty job, but also is compelled to entertain the local drug addicts.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Actually, it is he that sparks conversation.

But I won't entertain this thought further because of your assessment of "drug addict" and "psychedelic" having any sort of relation.



Thanks anyway
 Quoting: ArmouredKitten


Oh, they do my, my friend. It is apparent in your post that you are addicted.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Thanks for the bump
 Quoting: ArmouredKitten


I feel sorry for the guy at 711 who not only works a shitty job, but also is compelled to entertain the local drug addicts.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Actually, it is he that sparks conversation.

But I won't entertain this thought further because of your assessment of "drug addict" and "psychedelic" having any sort of relation.



Thanks anyway
 Quoting: ArmouredKitten


Oh, they do my, my friend. It is apparent in your post that you are addicted.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56628226


Thanks for the bump
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You're welcome. Now, are you sober...or straight....or in reality....or coherent now? Or are you still "enhancing", or whatever you choose to call it.
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
what is there to worry about?

you already know your physical body is definitely going to die someday

why does it matter when it happens?
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
It's called "anxiety".
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
I came down from the acid completely at around 5PM EST. Almost 5 hours ago.
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
It's called "anxiety".
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Gonna have to agree with this.
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
It's called "anxiety".
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Gonna have to agree with this.
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In no way do I disagree.

But I think the phenomenon important enough to be noted.
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
what is there to worry about?

you already know your physical body is definitely going to die someday

why does it matter when it happens?
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This is the problem I am facing though.

When it happens matters absolutely nothing to me.

I have been living for the past couple of years as though I were already dead, but too lazy or afraid to do the work of dying.

Like a lot of us, I am sure, I have hoped for some sort of doom which involves the possibility of a swift and relatively painless death (environmental, war, whatever), yet I had never even calculated the risk of the possibility of such a pandemic that is occurring in the US.
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how can you even retain such a negative view of reality through the experiences with psychedelics

weren't you paying attention? didn't you learn anything?
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
how can you even retain such a negative view of reality through the experiences with psychedelics

weren't you paying attention? didn't you learn anything?
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Psychedelics by-and-large are not 100% pure and godly experiences, and are HIGHLY subject to the stimulus one is subjected to during the experience.

Bad trips are a real thing.

To put the experience in terms of -10 -- 0 -- +10:

During the eclipse and peak, I was at about a +7.

I felt so close to "god".

After the moon set, and I came inside and started exploring the doom-laden internet, this level immediately shot down to a -8 and wavered from -8 to -2 for several hours.

Yes, these numbers are incredibly relative terms, but they are the closest I can get to describing the feeling.

Last Edited by ArmouredKitten on 10/08/2014 10:20 PM
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
doesn't that experience in itself tell you some very important things about reality?

like, reality itself is completely flexible based on your mental and emotional state, and it can be EASILY changed?
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It is contagious.
live only for today.
being honest is above most people.
before i go, i want you to be happy.
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Re: Am I worrying too much? [A fear-induced panic symptoms thread]
I very rarely get high but I was watching the BP oil spill live feed on TV while high and I cannot express in words the HORROR that I felt, such an incredible profound horror. All that oil gushing and gushing and they had no way to turn it off, how can we be such fuckwits? It was a really awful profound feeling

That memory is probably always going to be there as a potent memory for me. I think the being high really brought me in tune with my feeling and unfortunately it was a pretty negtive feeling. Sounds like the same thing happened with you and ebola.

The good news is it's just a memory, an emotional memory but not like I go around feeling that horror all the time. It faded substantially within a few days.

You will probably start feeling better in a little while.





GLP