Whatever you decide on, take the time & pay the extra bucks to learn how to use it.

Hire an instructor @ the range an read up on pistolering articles.

Get used to the knowledge that yes when you pull the trigger the gun "IS" going to buck in your hand & make a loud noise.

Get accustomed to it & expect it. Do not be afraid.

And most importantly remember you get what you pay for especially when it comes to firearms & ammo.

If you get a cheap firearm & cheap ammo that is a recipe for disaster.