When A Christian Commits Suicide...This is how God Responded to me.

Ron, I watched the entire video

It was not easy for me to watch, especially the beginning. It was very difficult

I rarely watch long videos or read long articles

I watched the entire video out of respect for you

I am a Christian, I feel bad at what happened to you and I do not want to disrespect you

This is my opinion on almost every matter:

The pain and suffering of this world is temporary

And the Joy of God is eternal and will last forever

That is my opinion

Religitards ( self professing Christians, tares) and Religion have screwed the faith of many. "Standard Christian Thought" has and will, sent/send most people to hell.

I'd be interested in what you have to say.

You'll find out eventually

Religitards ( self professing Christians, tares) and Religion have screwed the faith of many. "Standard Christian Thought" has and will, sent/send most people to hell.

I'd be interested in what you have to say.

Sorry it made you cry. It's all Gods will....Be stubborn like me, refuse to move, and be like a horse that will not be trained and God has no choice, but to brake us, because He loves us. I would NEVER GO BACK to looking and speaking normal, my life has changed that much...Does it mean this is easy? No.

Hey! OP this is for you:

Is it possible some have no spiritual or higher purpose for being here? What is God’s issue with suicide, especially if no one asked for a physical existence where they’re forced to sin?

Thank you, brother. So much.

God has done so much stirring in my heart lately. Although satan is causing his own stir and igniting my anger as well, God continues to push on me.

Your videos really reminded me of this. Bless you, sir.

I agree with you 100%. I’m stirred both way. It’s hard to follow the LORD sometimes even though I know it’s right. I would do anything to hear him speak to me the way he has with this man.

Seems your “faith” might be screwed as well

See, this is exactly why I hate religion, Faith, spirituality ... Whatever you wish to call a schizophrenic affliction that's nothing more than superstition at best ... or a horrendous mental virus that makes people feel inadequate, sinful, wrong ... and turns them into the masochistic victims of real psychopathic scumbags without so much as a grain of empathy or remorse.

A capricious god that inflicts torment and death because he can or feels like it, is a psychopathic dictator. Not the forgiving entity that murdered his own son so that we could live blisfully and free of any moral accountability. Either he's a god or he isn't. What beast would let his son, his flesh and spirit incarnate, be tortured for hours and then nailed to a cross? To do what exactly? If he'd been a god he might as well have put on a good show and saved him ...

What's precisely twisted and immoral in the faith based mentality is that god creates us sick and then commands us to be well ... Classic psychopathic behaviour: holding people in a double-bind and then turn them insane ... like punishing for good behaviour and vice versa on one moment and then doing the exact opposite the next ... It turns people into tormented schizophrenics, alright? Like a piece of shit that beats up his wife and then tells her it's because he loves her too much and that it's for her own good.

All of that ... Or there.is.no.fucking.god. I'll pick the latter because I have 0 faith in some primitive hocus picus sheperd stories from the bronze age and I have -5000 faith in the sacks of shit that perverted all of that even further in the millennia after that ...

Sez the mofo who buys into Benny Hinn, Joel Osteen, Kenneth Copeland and other like minded Religitards.

If this is all real and not fake like most of the crap I read on this forum you have been given the largest gift I could ever ask for. I would do anything to hear God’s voice. I’ve done many of the things you have. Lust, greed, thinking of nobody but myself. I have been a very selfish person in many ways in my life. Yet, I also give much to my church and have never been greedy with helping others. I think I do that because it makes me feel good inside and gives me some form of honor thinking I’m doing the LORD’s will. In honesty, I think it’s for show inside my own body and thoughts. What I wouldn’t do to have the LORD speak to me directly the way he has done to you. I have so many questions. I have so much sin that plagues my soul. I honestly think “how could GOD ever love me with the shit I’ve done”? I think sometimes the things I do that are good I’m trying to compensate for all the bad things I’ve done. I have an incredible life, wealth and have never gone without. I’ve worked my butt off but I have been given so much. Is it GOD? Why would he ever help me with all the badness I’ve done? My worst thoughts I have are questioning GOD’s love. It’s just impossible that my creator could love me with the bullshit I’ve done. I don’t know how. If he could speak to me the way he spoke to you it would change my life too. So that poses the biggest question. What am I waiting for?

Life is so complicated. It’s so hard to choose what is right and what is wrong. Walking in the footsteps of Jesus and his teachings on earth is so much easier said or read than actually doing it. I would ask the LORD to fit me with a new pair of shoes and that isn’t a joke. I would ask him to make them the same size and fit as Jesus and just navigate me to walk only in his footsteps and make it impossible to misstep. I’d turn over 100% of my free will to walk in those steps to meet my creator someday and to do honor to him on this earth.

This is probably the most serious post I’ve ever done up here. I’ve poured a lot out to you and I don’t even know you and probably never will. You video touched me in many ways and I want more than anything to have GOD speak to me the way he has spoken to you. Pray for me. I will pray for you. Ask the LORD and Holy Spirit to come into me the way they have you and transform my life. I want it so badly I don’t know what to do sometimes because it seems like I’m walking a life I was never supposed to. I believe the LORD has a different plan for me that I’m not understanding or I’m too ignorant or stubborn to do for him.

God bless you and your family. You have impacted my life in a positive way and I thank you for that.

He's very real and he found me at a time in my life when I thought he didn't exist.

I sold everything and decided to travel. 2 days in, the engine on my car blew and I had get rid of the little I had left. I kept a couple of sentimental items, some camping/survival gear and I started hitchhiking with my wife and dog.

He provided the whole time. Whenever we in need it was provided for. We didn't even have to ask.

At one point I was sitting down, my dog was out of food and I was wondering how I was going to feed him. At that moment, someone yelled out to me, waved me over, gave me $15 and said "Jesus hasn't forgotten about you".

We nver had to ask for money, not once. We did ask for help eventually in the form of food from some pantries along the way and eventually ended up at an organization that gave us a hand up. They allowed us to stay at their organization for 6 weeks while we got jobs and saved for a room to rent.

It certainly brought me toward belief, but my heart was still hardened by nearly a decade of Atheism. Yhwh and Yeshua Messiah never gave up on me though. We continued our lives, believing but not really walking with Messiah.

One day, looking for answers, I prayed for guidance. The very next day, a coworker of mine came up to me and said "You know something is coming, don't you?". I had been feeling it getting stronger for the last few months (that feeling continues to get stronger still). The he asked if I believed in the bible. To which I replied that I wasn't sure. He told me "Oh, you'll know".

And guess what? My hard head STILL didn't walk with Messiah. I tried reading the bible but it just wasn't resonating with me. I kept Yhwh in my thoughts, continued to pray and believed in his existence, but wasn't truly walking.

Well, this spring, the wife and started getting the overwhelming urge to COOHMP. We had a tire on our RV that was balding fast due to suspension issues but its a discontinued size and the nearest person with one in supply was 130 miles away. It was going to be a close one, like really close. Our spare was already blown and this tire was shot. I was praying and praying for our safe passage to an excess. At one point I thought "I trust you , Lord" to which he replied very very clearly and instantly "THEN ACT LIKE IT"

We made it with a tire so bare the mesh was showing. But we made it, got our tires and headed for the Ozarks. He guided us to where we needed to be and showed us what we needed to work towards with very clear signs.

He even showed me a great Brother on YouTube, Bear Independent, who introduced me to The Scriptures and Messianic Judaism. Things are finally making sense. I'm reading the bible, working on my sins and really connecting with the Father and Messiah. I pray much more often and I truly feel his presence.

God doesnt give up on his children. Keep searching, keep praying and you will be shown the way. With some practice, you can get really good at interpreting His signs, receiving His guidance and having faith that there is a plan, even if you can't see how things currently fit that into it.


Yeshua hasn't forgotten about you.

So what do you think of suicide in general?
I have been thinking of suicide a lot lately. I am starting to get older, above fifty, got no parents or family, no friends, so no responsibilities.
If you have family, or kids, suicide is kind of running away from your responsibilities you have for your loved ones, but in my case, if I were to disappear suddenly, no one would even notice.
If I sum it up, I had a good life, traveled a lot, met beautiful women and a wife, but in the end the people I loved died or left, so for me I am at a point where I say, why not call it quits?
The only thing holding me back is that I love the Lord and am afraid that he might disapprove of my decision, but like I mentioned above, I am not running away from specific problems, so I could as well meet the Lord.

So what do you think of suicide in general?
I have been thinking of suicide a lot lately. I am starting to get older, above fifty, got no parents or family, no friends, so no responsibilities.
If you have family, or kids, suicide is kind of running away from your responsibilities you have for your loved ones, but in my case, if I were to disappear suddenly, no one would even notice.
If I sum it up, I had a good life, traveled a lot, met beautiful women and a wife, but in the end the people I loved died or left, so for me I am at a point where I say, why not call it quits?
The only thing holding me back is that I love the Lord and am afraid that he might disapprove of my decision, but like I mentioned above, I am not running away from specific problems, so I could as well meet the Lord.

If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.

You are one sick individual. No idea why you would say such a thing.

Yes bless you too