I suffered a post partum haemorrhage 14 years ago giving birth to my stillborn daughter at home. I lost 6 pints of blood and lost consciousness. I was panicking inside and thinking OMG I've stopped breathing. I heard the most beautiful woman's voice. She said "ssh it's okay you don't need to anymore". I felt the most amazing sense of joy and peace I have ever felt. I was looking down at my husband on his knees by the side of the bath and my Mum was holding my sleeping daughter in her hands. I felt no longing towards any of them. Instead I felt like a ball of pure energy. I felt real freedom. I remember waking up after a three hour surgery. For months I felt like an anchor had been placed around my neck. I felt trapped in my body. From that day on I have never once feared death. Before that I was terrified. I have viewed my body as a mere container for my soul ever since.