Would you write this book?

Alright. The rough article is done. Still needs a ton of polishing.

Anyone wanna see it and offer feedback? Not in the thread. I'm not posting it on here :P

I still need an opinion on it from someone who isn't dumbfounded into silence

I'd like to read it too!

I'm at slack now :)

If anyone would like to read the short (okay, like ten pages long) version I wrote, and actually give feedback, that would be great.

I've had a series of people go dead silent after reading it and they're so quiet that I can't tell if:

A) they've decided I'm nuts and have slowly backed away

B) they're being offed one at a time for possessing the text

C) they all fell asleep half way through reading it and are now taking a nice nap

It's starting to make me nervous

i'd like to read it and give feedback

Well, don't post it on an open forum, anyone could write it and never blink an eye.

You can always leave me an email address on here to send it to..


Or if you'd only like for me and Slack to know who you are.. you can join my Slack group:

[link to join.slack.com (secure)]

i joined slack but can't see the file anywhere

Yes....But be prepared for the whirlwind. Could be deadly especially if The hag is involved.

Well, how bad is it?

What you are writing is a behind the scenes look at many of the major political events of the recent past.

Writing a book about all that you witnessed through her and because of her would be incredibly timely along with the current and upcoming political events exposing major political corruption.

Your info provides context and understanding of political maneuvering, blackmail, motivations, and much more, but at a personal level. This adds to its appeal, especially when much of the story can be told from the vantage point of the young girl you were at the time. More appeal there. The more personal it is, about you and her, the better it will be.

Tell everything and from the absolute very beginning of your memories.

These are stories that should be shared...in a book.

If you are past fearing for your life, I hope you do it and can see your book being successful.

This is the perfect time for this.

Are there any other exposes' out there similar to this one?

Can you see yourself on morning talk shows discussing your experiences and your book?

Yep.

In my professional life, I've passed psychological screening to gain certification.

Prior to that:

The first one was a military psychologist. He told me that what I had been through was too much for a normal person to deal with, to take some LSD, completely bury and erase my past in my mind, create a new persona, and start over.

We hadn't actually discussed what I had been through, but I was helping him with filing and we were standing in his office across the hall from some of it at the time - I essentially waved at it and asked how to deal with "all of that." I was 15.

The second one curled up into a ball and had a complete mental breakdown about twenty minutes into what seemed like an ordinary intake session (it was a requirement to enter a youth shelter). I hadn't even said anything that hugely profound. Two orderlies had to carry her out.

I don't know what the hell I triggered for her and genuinely don't think she should have been a shrink.

After that, I got referred by her office to a specialist - on ritual abuse - I never claimed to be a victim of that. To be honest, I'd internalized most of what I was dragged through and decided I must be the weird one for having a problem with any of it.

The ritual abuse therapist said I was "the most well put together" victim he had seen, said it would take ten years of tearing me down and wrecking my mind before he could build me back up. He didn't feel it was necessary. We both agreed that I didn't have the time or money. I was 17 at the time.

If there was something genuinely wrong, it would have been pretty fucked up for him to turn down treating me. I wasn't even 18 yet.

After that, I gave up on that field as a tool for anything other than developing a headache.

Please consider finding a good therapist who is adept at using MDMA to re-write trauma in the brain.

It is wildly successful, and I believe I have recently read it was becoming legal, or going through legit trials.

It could give you your life back.

Drugs aren't the answer for me, although I'm sure they are for many people.

If you'll recall from the beginning of that post you just responded to, I've already had some asshole suggest it:

"The first one was a military psychologist. He told me that what I had been through was too much for a normal person to deal with, to take some LSD, completely bury and erase my past in my mind, create a new persona, and start over."

I would never suggest anyone do LSD for therapy. Nor would I ever suggest anyone bury their past. That is just not possible. The cells remember everything. Water has a memory.

I did read that post - and I sure hope you aren't subtly calling me an asshole for suggesting something that has helped many create new neuro-pathways to traumatic memories.

Research MDMA - before you write it off.

Or not.

Enjoi

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I've only read about half the article so far and I'm positive it needs to be a book. Too important of a story to just be an article.

Finished, that woman needs to be exposed and in prison.
Please write a book!