God hates me. My life is living proof. I dont care that I will probably burn forever

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How confident are you that what
you said above is actually the truth?

Asking for a friend.

My wisdom became folly and to nothing. Wisdom to see iniquity causes unhappiness. I've not been truly depressed since treated for bipolar disorder so even though I know we seep in iniquity I don't give in. I slide along. The preacher says the fools heart is in mirth wile the wise mourn. Pray for our mental afflictions. What the hell will we do when we won't even have medicine?

God doesn’t need you to do anything for him. He has already done enough for us. If we all died today, he has done enough for his by giving his own blood. That should be enough for everyone when they realize it’s true. His people suffer for a lack of knowledge. He said it himself. Reading the Bible doesn’t just fix everything. Satan knows the Bible better than anyone.

You must learn to control your thoughts. If you think depressed, you will be depressed etc. There are spiritual laws just like there are physical laws of the universe.

Maybe your life is been so difficult because satan hates you and not God. Maybe satan sees a spiritual gift in you and is trying to get rid of you before you can bloom and walk in spiritual power. Why is it always Gods fault? Why can’t what the Bible says about not fighting against flesh and blood but that we fight against spirits be true?

Jesus loves you bro.
Try saying "He saved me". Behave as if he did, that's on you.

I have a thing for you, a medicine perse, but it won't be available until the fall. It'll be available in .doc, and .pdf.

Just wait it out if you can.

The reason it seems odd and so far out...

Is because karma is driving its roots deep into the bedrock of the world...deep into business and everything else. By fall it will be "done"...as everything in this physical existence takes time. Time is such a b* I'll never stop saying that. But for one hand to move left to right for example takes time. Everything always takes time. It's such a dick thing.

But if you can keep up the strength to continue on until the fall I'll have something that may help your situation. :)

I'm right there with you, OP.

Don't have any good advice. Just know you're not the only one that feels that way.

Get Thee Hence, Religitard!

the worse thing you could do you are doing it
-blaming and accusing THE LORD of putting a burden on you-
that's a no no
if you read the book you would know it
you have free will to make choices and the LORD is there
to comfort you not live your life for you

A medicine "perse" is that?

So you presume to know the voice and mind of god and can guarantee through your faith or good works or whatever "heaven?" Lol.

You know what I meant silly. :P

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For me it was the opposite. Same bad circumstances but the comfort of God all the way through. 40 years of ups and downs but with God most of the way. What is the secret? Jesus came to get rid of your sin. You want to please God: stop sinning as your worship to God and watch God will help you. And please, please, please, in the moments where He is silent, read the Word of God to keep in mind what God is really like. If you are suffering, read the Psalms. Look, life is no cakewalk for most of us, but it is much better with God than trying to go your own way and ignoring His counsel.

God laws are opposite from world laws
Read the bible once and then talk shit about God
Maybe you deserve this

Kys

KYS!!

Recount the story of Job op!

GB

Tell Satan I'm available for Battle.

You can take a break OP.

I'll kick Satan in the fudge packer for you.

He's trying to drag you to hell with him because you have great faith like Job and thus you are being subject to cruel mistreatment .

God is going to throw that bag of ass lips into a fiery lake forever.

His demons are abandoning him and succeeding in getting their wings back. Don't believe me? Read the Book of Enoch about the Watchers at Mt. Hermon.

He's scared. Praying for him will be wasted effort...all you can do is fuck him up with love for God, others, self... narcissistic mentalities hate love.

Once his lying tongue has been cut out and he's been locked in his eternal infernal crispy cage, all knowledge of God, Universe, and Self will be revealed.

You should probably research weather YHWH is a Canaanite fertility deity or Satan himself masquerading as El.

Cheers.

Carry your cross, brother. Make it to the finish line. God bless you.

I'm so sorry you feel sad. Here is a flower

Yeah, I did.

I'm kind of curious as to what that medicine purse contains.

Are you willing to tell me?

Thanks!

“You shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you mad.” - Aldous Huxley

You’re not going to burn forever. That’s one thing you can stop worrying about.

Thanks, genuinely, for those of you who showed kindness and gentleness to me. I could never thank the honest ones here enough for showing support.

I'm really struggling to get it together.

For the one who said stop sinning, I basically have. I quit drugs, alcohol, I didn't swear, lie, cheat, steal, essentially as Ecclesiastes concludes, I have "Feared God and kept His commands".

Most people dont understand depression, they think youre just putting on a show and trying to get attention but based on all that I've been through and having a mood disorder, life itself seems to be a burden.

There's so much more to my story but there is no possibility I could type it all out.

Besides, you all get the point.

I will check on this thread for more comments to try to engage with or reflect over.

Take care,

Why are you so important that God will resurrect you and keep you alive forever after death? If so he’s probably not any better than an abusive stepdad

I'm right there with you OP.

Panic attacks started at age 5. Have "mild autism" but didn't get a diagnosis/figure it out until my 30s.

First suicide attempt @16

No diagnosis, so no treatment. Constant isolation. I was extremely skilled in programming and computers, got a couple of degrees.

I found drugs as the only way to avoid isolation/be around others to kill the fear. I was isolated so had no way to get drugs the usual way, so resorted to prescription fraud. I was busted right out of college and my future was ruined with a felony charge. NO ONE would hire me after that. Spent a decade unemployed despite graduating at the top of my class, extremely high IQ, and remarkable ability.

Decades later (last year), I had a spontaneous kundalini awakening (can happen from serious trauma. My life I guess?) resulting in kundalini syndrome since I was not ready for this. Dropped antidepressants because I thought they were not working.

Now in hell of kundalini syndrome plus protracted withdrawal from SSRIs. Reinstatement doesn't work for SSRIs anymore because my CNS has been damaged. The torture of these things combined has been beyond anything I thought possible. It's truly incomprehensible pain at times. Cannot sleep, can't work. Cannot bear to hurt my family by ending it. I may still succumb

I've had some good times, but they've been rare.

Anyway, you're not the only one. Some of us must experience hell on earth.

Your story really spoke to me. I too excelled in all my academics but due to manic episodes and going homeless... I never completed a degree forcing me to work for bottom dollar jobs that I do not give two effs about...

No relationships since being diagnosed on 2007, so I'm lonely as can be.

I've been on SSRIs also, they were actually going to put me on an MAOI but they are highly deadly so I chose to just continue on Lithium, also deadly.

I keep hoping the silver lining will show up but life continues to suck for me personally. Then you look at all the bs happening worldwide and in the US and I just give up trying and start bitching.

I literally have nothing left to give.

Thank you for typing all that out, I hope things turn around for you also <3

OP, I know your situation. Your psyche fights with your body to not be a stick in the mud.

But you choose, because it's become second nature to you, to lash out online.

I won't waste the time trying to fix you but you need to deal with your internal chit before it's too late.