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narcissists experience fulfilling lives when measured by others meaning of fulfilling life

Narcissists are happier, tougher and less stressed, according to science
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/z\ cult thing
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Oh yeah. Good morning too. Not a very good morning to me but I came up with some cool ideas for cults for creative matters. So that's...something...I suppose
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Kind of a strange assignment. Getting Scientology vibes again.
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It was something random they thought of to promote creativity. It's absolutely a sync but I assume of the spiritual variety.
 Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye


Thinking about cults doesn't inspire my creativity..

They actively recall horrors like, Jonestown. Heaven's Gate, David Koresh, and one of the myriad of mormon cults, where one guy has 30 wives.
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Thread: Breaking: Trump Responds to at least 10 women and children with Utah ties killed, Cartel Style, in Mexico

Thread: Mexican Drug Cartel slaughters 3 American Mothers, and 6 of their children on way to Mormon Wedding. Ready to go to War yet?

^^

'Religious community'. Is this sync..or something else?

Horrific.

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Panpsychism avoids both of these extremes, and this is why some of our leading neuroscientists are now embracing it as the best framework for building a science of consciousness.

I am optimistic that we will one day have a science of consciousness, but it won’t be science as we know it today. Nothing less than a revolution is called for, and it’s already on its way.
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Since we're all still learning...
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Kind of a strange assignment. Getting Scientology vibes again.
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It was something random they thought of to promote creativity. It's absolutely a sync but I assume of the spiritual variety.
 Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye


Thinking about cults doesn't inspire my creativity..

They actively recall horrors like, Jonestown. Heaven's Gate, David Koresh, and one of the myriad of mormon cults, where one guy has 30 wives.
 Quoting: Seer777


Thread: Breaking: Trump Responds to at least 10 women and children with Utah ties killed, Cartel Style, in Mexico

Thread: Mexican Drug Cartel slaughters 3 American Mothers, and 6 of their children on way to Mormon Wedding. Ready to go to War yet?

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'Religious community'. Is this sync..or something else?

Horrific.

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I think these idiot Mexicans finally just fucked themselves. With this one atrocious act, you've not only vindicated what Trump has said about you, but you've also vindicated any Military action that may come of it. You know that once we get going Militarily, it doesn't stop for a long long time. It's that serious what you've just done.
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I Am picturing a million heavily armed men in white shirts and black ties marching south to find the missing. Trump needs to do something quickly or Mormans are coming to clean house.
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hmm
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Hello...good morning
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Here we'll just do it this way.

Cult of the blind eye

Slogans:
"Scene of the unseen"
“Seeing inside > seeing outside”
“As above, so below”

Rituals:
-congregating while sporting an eyepatch to symbolize loyalty to Odin
-blinking coded messages
-meditating while blindfolded to remove distractions of the outside world

Mission statement:
We aim to serve and bring glory to Odin, the one-eyed father of the Nordic people. Odin offered an eye in order to see into forgotten realms, gaining untold wisdom. The blind eye symbolizes the eye which sees into the world of the spirit, while one eye remains to see the material world before us.


Unilluminai

Slogans:
"Friends of the 99%"
“We know that they know that we know...y’know?”

Rituals:
-blacking out the pyramid on the dollar bill
-analyzing popular music videos to determine the subliminal messages the illuminati are embedding in the public mind

Mission statement:
The Illuminati are out there. They control the federal reserve, they discuss matters of global governance at the Bilderberg Meeting, and they use celebrities to send subliminal messages to the public. Those of us enlightened enough to know the truth about the Illuminati have formed an organization dedicated to exposing it and returning power to the people. Because of the vast surveillance system operated by our Illuminati overlords, we are forced to operate in strict secrecy and maintain anonymity at all times.

Flat earth foundation

Slogans:
"conspiracy of Christopher columbis"
“We think for ourselves...do you?”

Rituals:
-smashing of the globe
-spreading the word on social media

Mission statement:
Everybody assumes that they know the truth about the world, but what if they’re wrong? We take the word of scientists who tell us what is real, but we make no attempts to verify their assertions. How many people have really been to space to see the shape of the earth? Most of us have never felt the earth physically moving around the sun, so how do we know it really does? The flat earth foundation denies the belief in any fact that we cannot personally verify. We are a radical truth movement united against the monopolization of science by academic authorities.

Church of Cosmic Chaos

Slogans:
“Ushering armageddon”
“The codeword is chaos”
“That is not dead which can eternal lie. And with strange aeons even death may die.”

Rituals:
-theatrical reenactments of H.P Lovecraft’s “The Call of Cthulhu”
-divining messages from the sacred octopus, envoy of the God Cthulhu

Mission Statement:
Our order’s mantra is "Ph'nglui mglw'nafh C'thulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn": Cthulhu waits dreaming. Cthulhu represents the embodiment of chaos, which exists everywhere order can be found. Unlike order, chaos is poorly understood. All living organisms, in the process of maintaining internal balance, create entropy in the universe. The total entropy in the universe is always increasing. To the members of our order, this means that chaos is the ultimate state of reality, and thus we embrace and worship it. We do not fear chaos, but rather see it as the ultimate creative nexus: when no pattern exists, any pattern becomes possible.
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you forgot to incorporate cowbells and/or don't fear the reaper as a theme song! lol


lol
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Kind of a strange assignment. Getting Scientology vibes again.
 Quoting: Seer777


It was something random they thought of to promote creativity. It's absolutely a sync but I assume of the spiritual variety.
 Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye


Thinking about cults doesn't inspire my creativity..

They actively recall horrors like, Jonestown. Heaven's Gate, David Koresh, and one of the myriad of mormon cults, where one guy has 30 wives.
 Quoting: Seer777


Thread: Breaking: Trump Responds to at least 10 women and children with Utah ties killed, Cartel Style, in Mexico

Thread: Mexican Drug Cartel slaughters 3 American Mothers, and 6 of their children on way to Mormon Wedding. Ready to go to War yet?

^^

'Religious community'. Is this sync..or something else?

Horrific.


 Quoting: Seer777



An interesting history of the LeBaron family by one of their own



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An article......


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From link..

Mexican authorities arrested Ervil for my father’s murder, but he was later released. The authorities claimed they had no proof that my uncle had actually pulled the trigger—and of course he hadn’t.

With my father’s assassination, the Church of the Firstborn splintered like a piece of dry wood. Ervil and his followers remained in hiding, running between the US and Mexico as murders of other polygamist leaders in both countries continued to be carried out by the Church of the Lamb of God.

It took the authorities eight years to catch up with him, but not before he killed more than twenty-five people, most of whom questioned or doubted his authority. His victims included one of his thirteen wives and two of his own children. Because my uncle never killed his victims himself, but instead ordered his followers to commit these violent acts for him, the media in both the United States and Mexico nicknamed him the Mormon Manson.


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Do you see the cult as a sync?
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Do you see the cult as a sync?
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what on the lunch menu? lol

no more cottage cheese please! lol
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what on the lunch menu? lol

no more cottage cheese please! lol
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I hate cottage cheese. It's going to be salad, same as every day.
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Do you see the cult as a sync?
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what on the lunch menu? lol

no more cottage cheese please! lol
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I hate cottage cheese. It's going to be salad, same as every day.
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a cult's dietary restriction? lol

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lol
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Do you see the cult as a sync?
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what on the lunch menu? lol

no more cottage cheese please! lol
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I hate cottage cheese. It's going to be salad, same as every day.
 Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye


a cult's dietary restriction? lol


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Luckily this cult has options, salad bar or whatever weird other food they decide to serve. I guess that's mean it can be good sometimes...
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what on the lunch menu? lol

no more cottage cheese please! lol
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I hate cottage cheese. It's going to be salad, same as every day.
 Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye


a cult's dietary restriction? lol


 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 77631946


Luckily this cult has options, salad bar or whatever weird other food they decide to serve. I guess that's mean it can be good sometimes...
 Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye



lol
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I hate cottage cheese. It's going to be salad, same as every day.
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a cult's dietary restriction? lol


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Luckily this cult has options, salad bar or whatever weird other food they decide to serve. I guess that's mean it can be good sometimes...
 Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye



lol
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Wow you're SO funny!!!
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The LeBarons have been slaughtering each other for 100 years.

Now, the older of Ervil Baron's children are teaching the younger ones this same doctrine. They read from Ervil’s writings while he was in prison and they have meetings where they tell them, ‘This is the way it is. This is what God wanted and we’re here to carry on and establish the Kingdom of God.’ They refer to it as the KOG . . . They’ve been told, ‘Hey, you’ll reach the highest kingdom of heaven if you commit this murder, you’ll be an elect in the Kingdom of God,’ which they call an election made certain.
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Julian LeBaron, a cousin of one of the women, is on Mexican radio saying "We don't know who would attack women and children."

gtfo already you know?

This cult has been slaughtering each other's children for 10 decades.
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In the fall of 1989, local authorities here announced that six of Ervil’s youngest children, mostly teen-agers, left their separate Salt Lake City foster homes in an apparently coordinated escape and probably rejoined the cult in Mexico.

“These kids had contact with each other, they knew how to keep in touch and one night they all disappeared,” says Forbes.

If these children returned to Mexico, it was to a “bad scene” according to Rena Chynoweth. “The ranch was a veritable hotbed of hatred, militarism and illegal activities,” she writes in her book. “It was reputed to be an arsenal for many types of automatic weapons and the group was reported to be dealing in stolen cars and motorcycles from the U.S.”
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Yeah cults are generally a serious and negative topic. It helps to inject humor into things but I could see how people would find that distasteful
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Do you see the cult as a sync?
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..but his ability was to make people do whatever he wanted.
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Thanks for this.

I watched it a few times yesterday, while making dinner.

Kinda makes me want to watch it, but I have a feeling it's probably too violent for me. Which is why I avoided it.

I've heard from many it is excellent.
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In the fall of 1989, local authorities here announced that six of Ervil’s youngest children, mostly teen-agers, left their separate Salt Lake City foster homes in an apparently coordinated escape and probably rejoined the cult in Mexico.

“These kids had contact with each other, they knew how to keep in touch and one night they all disappeared,” says Forbes.

If these children returned to Mexico, it was to a “bad scene” according to Rena Chynoweth. “The ranch was a veritable hotbed of hatred, militarism and illegal activities,” she writes in her book. “It was reputed to be an arsenal for many types of automatic weapons and the group was reported to be dealing in stolen cars and motorcycles from the U.S.”
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 56687858


Thread: TRUMP: THIS MEANS WAR (Page 9)
This wasn't a cartel murder. This was yet another order from the Mormon Manson, via his now-grown children.
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Prove it. This isn't the first murder they committed. They have your sons and daughters strung out on drugs and deserve what's coming to them. There have been border skirmishes for a long time now. It's time to put them in their place, the fucking ground. You fuck with the bull, you get the horns.
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Those murdered today belong to a cult that is a major, federally-protected part of the drug trade.
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hmm
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So,

I'm not a normal Mormon & don't really
know what is.

Nevertheless, here's 2 cents

#13 article of faith

"We believe in being honest, true,

chaste, benevolent, virtuous, and in

doing good to all men; indeed we may

say we follow the admonition of Paul--

We believe all things, we hope many

things, and hope to be able to endure

all things. If there is anything

virtuous, lovely, or of good report,

or praiseworthy, we seek after these

things."

Joseph Smith


Consider the source?
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Cults Don’t Stand a Chance Against Ted Patrick (feat. Gary Anthony Williams) - Drunk History


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lol

The Simpsons know.

non profit. that's where it's at.
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I feel a strange emotion deep in my heart. It's love. Not romantic love, not infatuation, but something like agape. I see this beauty in people that I have not allowed myself to see for many years before coming to beit tshuvah. It's an embrace of this community, this small pocket and sphere of human community that exists in this space and which God brought me too.

Lately I've been sick with the anxiety of this internship. I stared at a blank computer screen for almost an hour while Jesse wrote up a storm. I was myself a blank, just like the screen. I was so worried about doing it wrong that I could not do it at all, and Greg noticed. I know he had compassion for me, and told me I didn't have to work on it in my spare time, but I did anyway. And I approached it differently to Jesse, and that scares me because I fear it will be wrong once again. But I also think it might be good to be different. That maybe something unique in me will find a unique place for creative matters. I hope it will. I still havent totally finished the article. While I was nearing tying my writing together, Kaylee found me on my patio and asked me to go to the in house meeting. And the funny thing is, the piece that I was writing for creative matters at that time was about Kaylee. When I told her that I saw something soften in her eyes. She's always referred to herself as a bitch but I got to know her in that interview and some kind of intimate exchange was made on some level. It made me more willing to accept her directions and it made it easier for her to be compassionate when I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

The meeting itself was a trippy experience. Molly was going crazy throughout it because David, the speaker, spoke like a total paragon of light. She was texting me her frustration and I was sympathetic, feeling the need to validate her, but also struggling with the dissonance that I shouldn't be encouraging gossip which also felt wrong. I shouldn't be helping her feed her dark wolf. I also helped Amanda feed the dark wolf of her bulimia. I cant justify those actions. Maybe I wanted to be liked. Maybe I wanted to let people play out their own stories in their own way. But towards the end of the meeting, molly was texting me that she wanted to scream, laugh aloud, or leave the meeting. That level of discomfort spoke honestly a message of disruption from her soul. Her dark side was pronounced. But she is also a good person struggling to be light. I see both sides. A resident shared that his little sister had died almost as the meeting was over. His pain was so raw and so real and so great that the whole room felt like it was bending toward him in sadness. Every person felt his heart crying. And as sad as he was and as terrible as it was I was struck by the beauty of such profound empathy and such honest and vulnerable pain.

When the meeting was over many people gave him a hug. I was one of them even though I don't think I've ever exchanged a sentence with him. That didn't feel awkward. It felt necessary. That's what this community is. We feel for each other because even the people we hardly know have a place of connection in the spirit of the space. Connected to ourselves. And in that hug David appeared and joined in a group hug. And Molly was there too being hugged by David whom she hated yet she did not pull away. And when I walked away to leave I saw Tony who I barely know but I seem to know on some familiar level and I gave him a hug. He just seemed to need it. It was intuition. Earlier that day he approached with tears in his eyes and ventured some meek words of greeting. I didn't see the tears at first. He sat down and said hello and I looked up at him. One look in his eyes and I knew he needed someone to see him, hear him. Notice his suffering, even if saying nothing. And I offered him a hug and he held me tightly and it didn't feel sexual or romantic, but very human and necessary.

I'm starting to feel this intuitive and spiritual thing for other people. Before it had been selfish, my pursuit of knowledge, my secret of the universe. Yes, I made every attempt to share that secret, but I made no effort to feel deep and compassionate love. I wanted to be transcendent and saw myself as something not human anymore, not needing or wanting connection and love. It was not merely introversion or isolation, it was a complete rejection of every human impulse to love. I became a liar, I became profoundly selfish and while I sought to confine that selfishness to my own means and ends, I still ended up hurting many people by disconnecting entirely.

One of the many beit tshuvahisms here is that the opposite of addiction is connection. I literally could not, on an emotional level - even an intellectual level - make sense of or agree with that until today. I thought that my distance impacted nobody around me or even impacted myself. If I'm not there physically or emotionally, I dont exist to others. But I do. People are present in my absence, present to my absence. And it took getting here and being here for a long time to feel what Asher described as profound love for every person, just a basic and simple love with no judgement or even bearing on what your natural subjective opinion on the person is.

The two interviews that I've done with Jesse were with staff members. I thought that I could always see beyond a person's front, but the interviews showed me that I wasn't seeing them for who they were before. While interviewing there were no pretenses about who was in charge and who was the Rabbi and who was the supervisor and all the implications and impressions that come with those roles. There were just human beings there explaining their human stories. It made me see something that I had been blocking out. Today was a frightening and terrible day that turned into a series of incredible insight and amazing love. Both of those things, simultaneously.

Addiction is the opposite of connection. I am the healthiest I've ever been, and I'm not even working this program particularly well. Rabbi Ben asked me where I was in 11 o clock group and I stammered over my words and then he reprimanded me because I was wearing headphones in public. It's strange to say but at that moment I recalled something in Torah study when God finds Adam and Eve hiding in the garden after eating the fruit of knowledge. God asks, "where are you?" And not because he didn't know where they were hiding, but because he couldn't see who they were, or where who they were went. So I felt shook up by it and attacked because I felt exposed to my defects. I wanted to say I was interning but I left my job before his group began. I could have gone but I was so shook up from my writers block at creative matters that I couldn't bring myself to come to a group that might have helped me process it. I admit that I was ashamed when Rabbi Ben asked me that and saw that I was disconnecting from people with my headphones because it made me realize my problem lately, that I wasn't showing up. I was part of the problem he was complaining about in big ethics and because I respect him greatly I felt shame.

Just yesterday I had a terrible conversation with Josh about how I will always be his side piece and I want a family and somebody who can be with me completely. But my counselor pointed out that this was evidence of real progress, being willing to admit the painful truth I had been denying for so long and finally remove one thorn from my heart. And that thorn which was removed did leave a bleeding hole but also gave that hole a chance to heal. And that night last night after a terrible day I had a magical heart to heart with my mom on the phone and I felt so connected and seen and heard and engaged with her. It left me with another sweet and gentle feeling of love and connection and I went peacefully to sleep despite my anxiety about creative matters.

I showed Austin my videos on YouTube today even though I was terrified he would never see me the same way. He loved the videos. He thought they were fascinating and asked me to marry him and told me he wanted to go camping with me and pick my brain. He said he felt like if I punched him he would fall into a different dimension because I'm some sort of higher being. He asked me if I was real. Of course he was half kidding but I felt really happy somehow. Not that my ego didn't like the stroke and not that I took the ego stroke too seriously. Just a growing affection and connection with I person I am deeply fond of. Once again I felt seen.

And if all this wasn't enough spiritual revelation, I talked to a newer resident here who is older and who offered to teach me a trick about writing. It was just today that my writing block completely overwhelmed and shook me deeply and he didn't know that but he just happened to offer it to me today. So after the meeting he saw me in the garage and taught me the numbers of the fibonacci sequence and how to figure them out for myself. I struggled on the math, which was basic, so badly that I actually felt retarded. But he was patient and didn't judge me. And it was an essential connection I needed to make about the fibonacci sequence, not the idea of it, the fact that it's the pattern of creation, or the image that clicked so well in my mind. But the actual numbers, the numbers themselves, and how to get them yourself. It was a click somehow that felt like a bridge. And then we spoke for an hour about the occult, the spiritual, and the metaphysical. It felt so unlikely and so stimulating and engaging. If Kaylee had not found me on my patio writing about her, I would not have had that conversation with that resident.

I gave him my symbol book and felt an intense ambivalence that I might never see it again. That ambivalence made me aware of what a giant piece the book had played in my life in countless capacities and stages of maturity and thought. I was so scared I may lose it. I could buy another one, but it wouldn't be that one. I considered asking for it back, grabbing it even. But I also felt like I needed to let him show me that I could trust somebody. Also that he needed it more than me at that time. But he picked up on my fear of losing it and recognized what I felt without me saying it: the book was sacred, and he would read it for sure, and he would return in for sure, and if I ever wanted it back, I only had to ask. And then he left for awhile and when he came back he brought me one of his special books. I was drawn to it and recognized immediately that it would be significant to me.

I had amazing conversations with Nate and Rebecca, deep and soulful. When they closed the patio at 10 and we all decided to go to sleep, I hugged everyone on the patio because they all wanted to hug and say goodnight, not just to me alone, everyone wanted to hug. It's not always like this mind you. There's something in the air and the stars align and sometimes God just wants to show you what love truly is. And when I left I heard somebody call the fibonacci sequence man Jason. I had not even known his name! And he was so familiar that when he first came into the house, I thought he'd been there for months.

This morning Bernice gathered everyone to form a giant circle around Noam and hold hands and wish him prayers and good luck on his job interview. It was spontaneous and really strange but we all did it. Nobody said no. And it was sincere. And he got the job. And that's probably not why - it's because Noam is a great person. But that's what it is: they saw how great he was and hired him, we saw how great he was and gave him our prayers and showed him how great we thought he was. So he would be reminded of that.

It's been very special lately. So special and so sacred in ways that are so deep and so clear to me. I fully feel Gods influence in a way I never have before, even when I used to feel like I knew what connection felt like and love meant. Today I feel spiritual and God given love that left me doubtless of divine influence and a warm embrace. How far a simple hug and prayer and listening ear can go.

I guess that's all I have to say for now and everything may change tomorrow. But what I am learning here is that I actually love people and they have amazing things to offer me and spirituality is not entirely self or other but something gracious in between. I know that the magical synchronistic undoubtable white light is never constant, but it's a spotlight in time which runs craggy canyons into the inner eye. I seek it and hope that every day brings me closer to living in the light of love.

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Could you call that a cult, seer? perhaps...

And yet - but....
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I think it is time.

It has been about seven years since I first came to GLP. I had one particular goal which was to make a friend. It was an idea I created in my mind but I needed a real person to play the part. They would not know they were chosen to play this part and for all accounts it would be an organic growth on their behalf. For me I had to become the highest version of what I could think of as a friend, and be that person for my friend.

I chose Darrah to be my friend.

This was never about what Darrah thought of me though, my goal was to be her friend so that I could learn how to be a good friend. Obviously if Darrah hated me then it would test my resolve at being loyal. I gave Darrah a lot of reasons to hate me because I wanted a challenge and also to weed out the weak minded.

I chose Darrah because I am very simple but my ideas can be complex. Darrahs mind seemed very similar to mine but able to express these complex ideas. It seemed very logical to share my ideas and thoughts with someone capable of expanding on these, and I in turn could see more dimensions of my own ideas.

I think I was a good friend to Darrah and I feel I have learnt what a friend is. I do not wish to come back to GLP anymore and it is unlikely our paths will ever cross again. I want to thank you Megan. It was nice to be seen.

Farewell and good journeys to you both, Ultraverse Maximus will live on in spirit.
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I'm not going to live very long compared to most people. And it's not because I'm ever going to kill myself again. I won't do that every again. Its something else. Something I feel in my body. I'm perfectly healthy according to any doctor, but I have a huge intuition about, that something is growing within me that I cannot fight or change. I kind of tear up thinking about it, not because I'm scared to die, but because I know it will leave a lot of sadness behind, and because it makes time so much more poignant. Part of it comes from my life being so condensed - all of my development has come so rapidly because some guiding force knows I only have so much time. Until it is up, I know I am totally protected. But I know that my time will run out before most people's. Not soon, not yet, but sooner than most.

I'm not afraid, but I know something now. A true connection, a heart connection, a love, is something simple and essential and all intellectual transcendence means nothing without love to make it whole. I am finally emerging from something so dark and when I was all alone I couldn't see it.

I feel the bad thing in me growing, and I guess it makes me a little sad, but I truly believe I will live a rich full and rewarding life before my death eventually happens. Some things we just know to be true...I finally have some trust...faith is a covenant. An ark....

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