Does this site have any secret ascended mastermind geniuses of psychology? if so ....

I'm pretty much serious...even though you're all mostly lunatics, assholes and/or living buddhas or whatever

I'm looking for someone vastly more knowledgeable and perceptive than I am on the subject. if you are a true ascended mastermind of human thought I would unironically be willing to hire. You probably don't need the work if you exist, but our actual discussions might be mutually rewarding or at least entertaining.

There was once a guy here that almost fit the profile, maybe did, idk, but he was probably cannabilized by his shady employers. Well, talking to him was very interesting because he had a novel and fundemental understanding of the subject that wasn't rehearsed or memorized.

I'm up to my asshole in raw information about psychology, it's a lot more than a sneeze which I've accumulated over the years. But I want to have an honest conversation with someone who can show me a true rendition of my shadow selves or shadow heart...



I honestly want to talk to someone that can run circles around the amount that I know, if not in the quantitative sense, in the qualitative. Which is a big ask because none of the prolific roster of experts I've spoken to has offered very much in the way of novel observations. I've had extensive and for the most part uninspiring discussions with a lot of reputable degree holding experts incapable of telling me something original. they were all smart and great in their own ways but I'm seeking a different kind of conversation.

This is a weird place to ask, but it would be way weirder asking anywhere else, so my offer stands

kal ie ,my friend, Your biggest psychological plight is your inability to let go of the "belief" you hold in regards to the necessity and purpose of evil in relation to duality /Growth and existence as a Whole. this is the vice in your mind.the Pin Your Heart and the Log in your Eye.

ever experienced episodes of missing time or 'waking up' in a place in which you arent aware how you got there ?

cognitive switches , drastic flips in thinking patterns or moods for seemingly no reason ?

there was a program by the name of 'EST'. The sole reason for the program was to provide the circumstance and teaching to lead a person to having a profound experience with what I have labeled "What is". Some would call it 'God'.

A close friend of mine attended the program in the 1970's and did have the "Got it" moment. It changed his life. The program has changed and re-named and is merely a shadow of the original.

My experiences came from a form of meditation that I sort of 'fell into'. It was as if I already knew how to do it. I went through a period where everything in my life suddenly changed and I met very unusual people at every turn. Two of these gave me a pointed recommendation to start meditating.

My experiences led me to understandings that are not found in any book except in vague references contained in esoteric ancient Eastern teachings.

I have considered writing a few books on the subject, but I have found through experience that the audience for such a book would be very small.

I am surprised at how many types of meditation there are and how useless the majority are except to develop an 'operational calmness' in life. I have found none that take you to the point of all things as I have developed.

I have tried to teach a few others how to follow this procedure, but if the individual is highly attached to 'this place' or has had traumatic experiences, the walls are too great unless a great amount of time is dedicated to this path.

For me, it took only a few weeks to have the first experience, but I was open to it with very few walls. I continued deeper into it for many months and there are no words that can describe it. You KNOW that you are immortal, and you KNOW that you are free. Nothing short of amazing.

Of the experience, imagine being Neo in the movie the Matrix, after he gets a download and says "I know Kung Fu". He didn't think or believe it, He KNEW IT. It was a permanent knowledge that nothing could ever change. That is what happens, when you experience "what is". It isn't a voice, it is a download of understanding . In 30 seconds of one experience, you could not write a 100 pages on the content and adequately cover it.

It is a disturbing path and can create much fear in the mind because the current mind is not your friend.

well you don't sweep away your shadows...
they come whenever the sun does.
but, if you and your shadow are familiar with each other, you could even be friends.
My problem is I think I've confused my shadow because it never has discernable features these days.
probably a consequence of general complacency

thats why I am looking for someone whom likely isn't real but I may manage to persuade into becoming a real boy with the help of my fairy godmother or whatever

I have been very careful to remain cognitively flexible, because I don't have anyone to interview about my family history...like my dad, he died before I was old enough to realize how many questions I had about his side of the family, and him. There will always be holes in the information I have available to me, which I resent, but accept.

well I know that the field of mental health, on general principle, would never entertain any reference to project monarch or the declassified MK Ultra...firstly because a lot of the most significant experiments of psychology were funded by intelligence agencies, so it really casts a dark shadow on the field as a whole and raises questions people pretend don't exist, and which functionally don't exist because they aren't talked about.

Secondly, a person with complaints of dissociation resembling monarch programming, might be ostensibly pacified by their therapist, but I am certain the therapist would write up reports to insurance which suggested references to project monarch were a delusion born of an actual traumatic experience the brain needed a scapegoat for. That is how I would make it palatable to an insurance agency, anyway.

Thirdly, the field of mental health as it stands right now, has been very careful to make therapists aware of false memory syndrome, priming them to be skeptical when their patients talk about childhood memories. False memory syndrome research was apparently funded by the same people and agencies on declassified reports of the MK program, but the overall point...

being that, if you try to get professional help for this, you are about to be taken for a serious ride. It's unfortunate, but even if you excise any reference to project monarch, almost 0 therapists are willing to concede the existence of ANY form of Dissociative Identity Disorder. 0 is an exaggeration, but anyone in mental health who takes DID seriously is regarded somewhat unseriously.

You know what I find really interesting? The psychedelic pattern that I see in altered states, changes, and there MUST be some sort of rule that dictates what the pattern does. It's not random, it clearly has constraints and is reflecting some other kind of process. it would be REALLY interesting to know what that relationship was between perception and those very cool patterns which are probably perceptual artifacts

You know what I find really interesting? The psychedelic pattern that I see in altered states, changes, and there MUST be some sort of rule that dictates what the pattern does. It's not random, it clearly has constraints and is reflecting some other kind of process. it would be REALLY interesting to know what that relationship was between perception and those very cool patterns which are probably perceptual artifacts

your looking At The Fibers that Make Up the Matrix(structure/geometry) The Walls Of The Ether ,Material Information Formation-Matter

That is largely true ...which is why you may have to do much of the work yourself .

at fundamental level self awareness can do much if able to notice 'triggers' and anomalies in thoughts and actions accompanied by ....

being careful around common programming avenues including media esp. tv-music , drugs and alcohol , crowds , acquaintances -especially new , may help ...

good news is programming tends to fade as gets older unless periodic 'updates' are made .

very complicated subject , doing own research should help ....just try not to get to caught up in paranoia thought patterns. remember foster positive thoughts and feelings if possible.

your pysops do a lot of harm. your romanticizing of chaos and drug usage is dangerous. for those that wish to emulate you, i will only tell them that misery loves company! lol

I struggled with paranoia for a period several years ago, but I'm very over that. There is pretty much nothing I'm afraid of, and I don't really care whether things I say are being monitored. My existential pursuits are more interesting than whether I'm being used for energy and or information....,although that bothers me more than any fearful or paranoid ideas, I think I'm being used for something I'm very good at doing, and which I enjoy to do for free. If that is true, it sucks.

mostly affected by brain waves interacting with neural chemisty\architecture .

resonance of sacred geometry within the mental cathedral

stay off the drugs young lady :)

your pysops do a lot of harm. your romanticizing of chaos and drug usage is dangerous. for those that wish to emulate you, i will only tell them that misery loves company! lol

on a side note.. have you ever asked yourself, why dont I have both eyez filled with light*
?

I don't actually need chemical catalysts anymore to get these patterns, but they only occur in certain altered states upon occasions of very strong consciousness activation, so there is some kind of change that must be either electromagnetic or...? some other change in a field.

the thing is whether you are aware of what you are doing and whether its under your conscious volition , all the time .

start there .

I think it may not always be under my conscious volition, no. I mean that is a very common source of cognitive dissonance for me, the extent which I even can excercise enough volition to change certain circumstances. Sometimes it feels like no. Where does one go from there?