A Spiritual Experience that Answered as Much as it Created New Sets of Questions

Don't fall for the deception. I'm sure your experience was real, but if it wasn't from God, than who was it from?
You say you are\were a Christian. So, I would suggest you take this to God in prayer. You are eating from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Jesus is the tree of Life. Your "download" sounds like demonic possession to me.

Ask yourself...Did this experience glorify Jesus or you?

And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light.

On 13 March 2013 I had an extraordinary spiritual experience. I will try and keep it brief so it's readable.

I had a spontaneous Sahasrara Awakening. It was incredible. I literally saw a light in the upper-left portion of my peripheral vision that I couldn't discover the source of. It remained for three days.

Previous to this experience I was a die-hard Christian. Typical GOP member, etc. This put into question every single thing I'd ever learned in my lifetime. It was nothing like anything I'd ever been taught...and it confirmed things that seemed to contradict a lifetime of searching with actual answers.

During that 3-day period I was in a state of mind where it seemed like I was "spiritually downloading" information and my life's purpose. Everything became very apparent whenever I would read a subject or really involve myself in anything. I saw life completely differently - managing to incorporate Buddhist beliefs into my life rather quickly, even though I'd only roughly scanned the subjects during my 30+ years. I instantly KNEW everything that was meaningful to me spiritually (and even tangibly). I saw the "game" of life...and that the majority of us were pawns to different paradigms - i.e. religious, political, and social. I believe it was Enlightenment...the Awakening...

It wasn't anything I was searching out, but it was preceded by a tremendous life upheaval and change in everything from the top-down in my life. In February I felt this pressing desire to leave my job, my wife, and my home and pursue my destiny. Little did I know that it would lead to such a thing...

And slowly, over the past 6 months, it's as if all of the things that I'd only dreamed about my entire life are suddenly coming to me without any effort whatsoever. It's almost as if I just waggle my finger a little bit and the spells cast themselves...

Where it's been confusing is it has almost completely eliminated my need for anything beyond this experience. I'm in a position where I'm not sure about the existence of deity beyond a superconscious Creator...it has even put into question the idea of Jesus, which is, in some ways, hard to abandon...I'm not sure if/how that part of the "story" fits in any more. It always made sense to me previous to this, but now I'm wondering if this is just the goal of every living being - to abandon the things we WANT to be true, for the things that really are true.

It's been this tidal wave of realization and perception. I've never felt closer, and yet farther, from KNOWING. Has anyone else ever had this happen? I know I'm going to get some vitriol here, but I'm prepared for it...as I've already gone the rounds with some family members who can't even comprehend what's occurred and who cling to their own ideologies so tightly that one would be lucky to pry them from their cold, dead hands. ;)

Thanks for responding. I have a busy day today, but I'll do my best to keep the conversation going if it starts up...

Life is a game that we play on ourselves. When I discovered that, I did what a lot of people described spontaneously - I LAUGHED AND LAUGHED. It really is funny to discover that YOU are the one playing this game on YOURSELF...

Astrology and Numerology ARE meaningful. In fact, everything a person experiences is meaningful to them personally. This IS a subjective experience, no doubt about it. You can only see things through the lens of "I AM"...there does not exist an "I WAS" or an "I WILL BE". We are all "I AM" all of the time...always. This is the Eternal Now. Nothing else exists except in a dream state. We create our own symbology through our perception/experience for the purpose of waking ourselves up...or not. If we become obsessed/transfixed on the physical world, assuming that it's the all-important and the ultimate meaning, then we will never make that spiritual gain in this life. It's when we look beyond the matter into the unknown that it's able to reveal itself to us. That we can awaken to our selves.

Love is ultimate. There is nothing greater than the expression of true love. Shared love being the highest vibration in the Universe. Love and light always fold into hate and darkness, but even in its receipt it cannot be consumed nor destroyed.

What keeps us from awakening? Belief. What helps us awaken? Faith. There is a vast difference between the two. One is decided upon...one is settled into.

The will to power is real. It is the darkness of spirituality. You can will yourself into being...and even "control your destiny" to some degree. My personal awakening came as a result of the most significant charitable event I've ever participated in...it still brings me to tears at what happened. I'd literally made a decision to put someone else's life above mine in a profound way - never knowing that the decision itself would result in my turning around to come back home and, while not fixing everything (actually just continuing the journey), it put me on the CORRECT path, instead of the path I chose because of belief.

The most profound thing I learned was that we are all God in the way a drop of water is part of an ocean. Most faiths look outside themselves for God...wishing that a woman/man would swoop out of the heavens and save them from things...this is not true any more to me. I no longer pray outside of myself to a god that sits in a room, or on a throne, or chillin' in some heavenly field of daisies - I literally have a conversation with my genuine self, who is God, and who knows better than my own human mind, anything at all. I was a bonafide (and SSSAAAAVVVVVEEEEDDD hallelujah!) Christian for 30 years. 30 YEARS. I never had one answer that was ever this profound. I've learned more in six months than I ever learned in my previous 30 years.

I'm smarter and healthier than I've ever been as well. I can sense/see things that I would have previously poo-poo'ed in others...and now I feel like a damn fool because of it at times.

I used to care about politics - big time. I don't care any more. I see the game.

I used to care about RELIGION - it was my life. I don't care any more. I see the game.

I used to believe in psychiatry - I thought it had answers. Nope. Just another way to control the masses and keep us all from having personal spiritual experiences.

What's funny is that I never attacked anyone in my original post or thoughts...yet I was thoroughly attacked by the "GLP Crusaders"...kinda sums things up for me pretty well, to be honest. It's pretty clear none can be described as "meek or lowly of heart".

Did you divorce?

Did you divorce?

so this new religion is all about you and your wants, forget the wife and kids, ok, sounds good. You're having a mid-life crisis. Satan has desired to sift you like wheat and God lets him.
Buddhism teaches, that in the end, you are God and you will sit on a lotus flower for eternity and contemplate your wonderfulness, what a treat awaits you

After an awakening experience there is an initial phase of disillusionment with the way things are and the things we have learned, but hopefully you will come around again and see how it is that Jesus is the savior and what it means for you. I hope you will come around and see that when you come around the bend in your journey. Just remember that Awakening means its just the beginning. Don't throw everything out, just re-examine everything from your new perspective.